Not doing to well

[Jmichael21298]

I quit heroin after using everyday fir two years last thursday and relapsed yesterday, I haven't felt any withdrawal symptoms today (well not any worse than I was feeling before I used). I already went through the worst of my physical withdrawals and was expecting to day to take me right back where I was when I first stopped but it didn't.  My problem is I feel so ashamed and depressed for breaking down and using yesterday, it has seriously shaken my faith in myself to get clean. I was so sure when I stopped that that is what I wanted but here I am and I don't know if I'll be able to do this. I'm scared I don't want this life anymore but after less than a week I already broke down.  If I can't even trust myself how am I supposed to stay clean?

[MikeInFrance]

Yeah man.... It's tough! It's scary! It's lonely! We both know it. Mine was a oxy addiction nonstop for a year. Insane amounts. I stopped CT 7 weeks ago. Probably a good thing i didn't research detox before stopping cuz you do hear some scary things about it. But what I can tell you is I feel so much more myself today than I ever did on drugs. It's from over ... But you need to tough it out and if you just did it yesterday once then you are still ok right now. its been 8 days right? And using once yesterday? Don't o back to square 1 cuz u r not there right now. Give yourself the biggest kick in the assss and fight through it for another couple days man. It's your life....don't do it for your family,  for me,  or for anyone else...this has to be about you and only you right now! Post alot here cuz there's hella support!

[Jmichael21298]

Thanks guys, I'm sure you guys know how hard this is. I really just have zero faith in myself after yesterday, it wasn't like I had it laying around I actively sought it out and got it (and if youve ever delt with junkies before you know I had plenty of time to change my mind) I want to be clean but my resolve has been shaken. I need help I just don't know where to look all my friends and family seem like they could give a **** like I should just stop and that's that but here I am, alone and scared.

[Shauna13]

J, dust off yor chaps, pick up your hat, and get back up on that horse. You fell, now get back to doing what you were doing before you fell.  Post here as much as you can type, the support is phenominal. Never lose faith in yourself.  I think you know what you want, and I think you CAN do this!  s

[MikeInFrance]

Trust yourself again now. And this feeling of shame that you mentioned is proof in point that you want to change. It's not supposed to be easy but I promise you if you go into this with the right mindset and positive attitude then you can do it. You slippd up, it was one day, one time, ...now get past it! Show yourself you know doing that was wrong but you were in the midst of doing something right....get back to that!