OH GOD IM NOT OK

[Beenerkitty]

my boyfriend was cheating on me. im 8 days off vicodin. im about to give up. whats the point. im hurting ssssooo bad

[Beenerkitty]

im going to try and do this today. im praying so hard now i dont know how im going to make it thru the day. i have to get thru work now somehow. im numb just going thru the motions. pray hard for me please. i need you guys now. talk to you later

[liscamdave]

Let this be another lesson learned. One thing about us addicts, we love to do and learn things the hard way. Not saying you did this to yourself, but look at it like this, just like you needed to get the drugs out of your life, you needed to get this guy out of your life. Detox from them both and don't ever go back to either. You are a strong person to have rinsed that pill, so take that strength and put it towards your past relationship and MOVE ON. You don't need him and you don't need the drugs. Do something nice for yourself to celebrate the very strong woman you are. You don't need anything or anyone to justify you or to make you feel bad about yourself. You have come a long way already, don't throw it away for someone who isn't worth it. You can do this. Good luck.,

[Beenerkitty]

i only slept for about 5 hours. but i made it thru the night. Day 9 clean today. so far. i woke up out of a dead sleep- all the signs he was cheating were there. the light came on at about 3am in my head. now im steaming mad. i shut his phone off, canceled his insurance and changed my bank card out. huge loss for him but a big gain for me.ill have more money now and my life back.im okay at the moment but it changes so fast-literally minute by minute. he was making me feel like i was crazy. i really thought maybe i was too. he knew what i went thru with my last ex and he turns around and does the same ****. god he is a worthless monkey ball sac.

[Florida_Guy737]

Hi....you are probably passing into a new cycle of your life.  You're over the hardest physical wds and now you have an opportunity to take care of yourself without worrying about someone else.  If he cheated on you, one action - kick him to the curb :-).

I'm a guy but that would be my reaction if it was vice-versa....don't waste time on people who only give you grief.

Guy

[kim715]

Glad you flushed the pills.Too bad the b/f would have clogged the toilet or you could have flushed him too.You're a better woman then me though,I would have at least flushed his cell phone.You have 8 days,the fog is lifting,and things in life happen for a reason.You don't need someone like that and if he's lying to all these other women imagine all the things he has probably lied to you about.It's good that you found out now.Don't waste your drug free beautiful self on someone like that and don't waste your time or tears either.You are a strong woman,look at what you have just been through these past 8 days.Don't you give that up for some man.Use the anger he has caused you to continue to fuel your fight.You don't let him or those drugs win.YOU'RE THE WINNER!!!!! and you're going to be okay!!!!  Much love...Kim

[Beenerkitty]

im going to try and go to bed. i have to work in the am.i dont know how im going to do this or if i will be okay.i dont know how to move on from this yet.guess ill figure it out somehow.god when i crushed that pill-my mouth was watering. i could taste it,still can. this really blows

[xru11]

and the missing word is,................. "be"

[xru11]

(1)  Your boyfriend is half a man and an idiot
(2)  He isn't worth giving up on the 8 days you just logged coming out of the fog.
(3)  You deserve more.

Work through the initial pain and heartache and empower yourself to the stronger for it!  Hang in there.

[dominosarah]

Get rid of the remaining pills and come out fighting.  Fight for you......you have 8 days clean.  No man(or woman) is worth giving up over........YOU are what is important now.   sara

[outotown]

Now is not the time to give in but to dig in and take a stand and fight, fight and fight. Kee going it will get better.

[Beenerkitty]

ive been a busy beaver. i was able to get in my boyfriends email. probably best that it ended now as he is contacting all these other women and the lies are unbelievable. this isnt the guy i met a year ago-or is it. was i just too ****** up on pills to notice. i want my life back. but im hurting so bad right now

[luppygirl]

You just proved how strong you really are by actually flushing after you crushed.  You should be so proud of yourself.  If you can resist that temptation you are strong enough to survive your hurt and pain without going back to using.  you should be yelling to the world I am women hear me roar.  Hopefully you are old enough to know that song. If you don't you are probably wow this chick is whack out.... lol  Anyways hang there things will get better everyday.

[avisg]

trust me it wont take the pain away or make you feel better if anything it will make it worse .You be strong and get your life back FOR YOU .we are here for you

[goldenarm]

Get rid off all your pills, you did the right thing, congradulations, your not weak..Your human and a good one at that...

[enough170]

good for you, can you call a friend to come and sit with you? or a family member?

[Beenerkitty]

thank you guys. i crushed a pill to snort but i rinsed it with water and flushed the rest.

[goldenarm]

The point is you will hurt from both instead of one..Been there done that, I had someone cheat on me with my best friend at the time and i had 9 months clean, I went out bought a bag. Make a long story short i got caught up in a drug deal gone bad and not only did i go thru hell in county trying to detox , i went to prison. Why? Cause i went back out over the exact same thing you have going on .Dont do it. Go find someone to be with and get some comfort from Him or her,,,LIke someone? Early easter present..Anything but use and give up what you worked so hard to accomplish....Big *** hugs....not drugs...

[enough170]

oh honey, i am so sorry you are going through this, please dont use, it really isnt the answer, 8 days is such a huge achievement, dont let what he has done to you ruin it.  i know you must be hurting so much is there anyone you can go to? someone just to be with you and hold you, to give you some comfort?  sending hugs and prayers your way xxx