When will I feel normal

[rhibro]

I've been on Percocets and Vicodin for 7 years. Over the last 5 years, I've known that I have a problem, but have only just told someone about it. Common sense tells me that I should have told someone about this problem years ago, but I only now had the guts to do it. I admitted it to my psychiatrist last week. She asked if i was ready for her to call my family doctor (who's been prescribing me the pills) to tell her to stop prescribing me the pills. I reluctantly said yes. She also referred to a counselor who deals with substance abuse. I start on Monday.  I have cravings, and I hate how the pills have affected every aspect of my life. How long will it take for me to feel normal? My prescriptions were 90 vicodins a month, which I'd run through in 8-9 days. For the weeks that I'd go through with no pills, I'd be anxious and counting the days for the next prescription to get filled. I hate this.

[rhibro]

Thank you so much for replying. I took my last four pills on Tuesday. The psychiatrist told me to spread the last four pills over four days. I went home and took all four that evening. I don't think she understood that telling me to ween myself off isn't gonna work. If i could control the amount I took, I wouldn't be in this mess to begin with. I am grateful for her referring me to a counselor, and contacting my regular doctor to stop writing the prescriptions. I see how this has changed my life. It's like I've been in a fog for years. I'm not mentally alert anymore, I don't pay my bills on time like I used to. It's like I just stopped caring about a lot of stuff. I'd take the pills when I felt anxious. I was high as a kite when I had to read a passage at my grandfather's funeral in January.
I feel ok right now, but I know that can change from day to day. Thank you so much for your support! I'll keep you updated.

[Charetti]

Normal doesnt suddenly appear, it creeps up like the addiction did.  Then it is wonderful.  The counselor will help, and hanging out in here will too.  Just be patient, it will come soon enough.

[vicki595]

Hi~  So,when did you last take a pill?

You know,you're really on track here.  You finally told someone,the refills will stop,and you're seeing a councillor on Monday.  It takes many of us a long time to do that.
You've been without,you say,for weeks in the past so you know what that feels like.
You'll need help with the mental and we'll be here for you.

Keep posting~
Vicki