Went to the doctor...

[luvabugga]

So I tossed and turned all night thinking whether I would go to this appointment or not.  I decided to just face it and go.  Drove in a fog with a million thoughts racing through my head.  He walked in the room and I started rambling and didn't even give him a chance to say hello.  He told me to calm down...which made me laugh...so we had a little 'giggle sesh'.  I told him I stopped the Norco almost 3 weeks ago and that I had no intentions of treating this problem with narcotics any longer...at least for now, until I see how i feel in a few months.  He agreed, supported it...and I walked out with a script for pt only.  We decided to wait on the next epidural until I'm done with the pt.  I don't have to see him again until March.

So...in 20 days free of pills I turned down Tramadol, Hydromet and Norco.  Go me!!  Think I'll take a nap now!

[Pat1956100]

Very impressed.  It's a really hard thing to do but you did it and should be very proud.

[ImDONENoMore]

bugga, I am so proud of you.

[overopiates]

if u have2taper that is a great slow process.Clondine works amazing for w/d from c/t so Im sure u wnt feel much of anything as far as w/d

[overopiates]

after ur poat before u went I said there I knew u could do it and though Im not surprised u were sucessful in being honest but very proud.

[toothfairie]

congrats!  that's is awesome!  way to go!!  you are doing it girlie!  :))

[nursegirl6572]

Just incredible!

You just bought yourself some sobriety insurance my dear!

YAY!!

[PorVida]

Awesome job. Stronger than I was. Pat yourself on the back what u did was not easy

[littlebit667]

Wonderful report!  Doing the hard thing....and rocking it!  Naps for all!!!

[Missshawn]

Yaaaaa!!!!! U deserved that nap..

[Fireby29]

Wow, that is awesome.  I am unsure I could have had the same resolve if I had a doc willing to write me a script.  Good job.

Bryan

[ricart70]

great job!   what is the script for the pt?

[Teresa1717]

Never had a doubt in you :)

[bama88]

I'm so proud of you. And what a wonderful post to show oth.ers that doctors do care. They want to help us. Keep up the good work and keep us informed. Your doing great and other people need to hear this so they can conquer their fears about doctors. Yey

[LeaAnn807]

That is GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREAAAAAAAAAAAAT!

[HookLineandSinker68]

I've posted threads on here for a couple weeks to vent, ask questions, get support. Went ct, did not go well so tapered from 70 mg a day to 40 then back up to 50 mg yesterday(dumb dumb). Went to my primary care, what a joke.. She said just quit. Those who can I'm envious of, as I could not. This is not giving you a weaning schedule, this is my story and my end result with a specialist who has done this thousands of times. I do have to say I feel relived now, that I have a watch dog and must follow his plan ....why it works, he stated I will be fine and should feel no withdrawals at all. none....IF I stick to his plan. Went in nervous, was honest and told him straight out, he checked his computer and said you do have a problem, started naming off docs I get my meds from.... Wow... I had to provide urine sample. Came in was professional and started me tomorrow on 4 pills of 10 mg /325 for five days and then 3 for five days and so forth. When I get on my fifth day of one.. Jump off. He also gave me a patch that you were n your arm called clonidine .1 mg which is the lowest because my bp runs a little low. He used this method for All patients without withdrawls. He  did say she down to two or one per day, if I get uncomfortable to call and he will increase by .5 mg then one a little longer like 10 days. He also stated he has a patient with a 300 mg per day methadone issue and she recovered in two months, moved her to 3 vicodin a day now for pain. He said there are others he treated that makes my dose look like an infants and this schedule has worked. The key was to put the patch on now and start to wean. Went to fill scripts and asked the pharmacist and he stated this was a super slow wean so my body should be just fine. The clonodine will cause a little fatigue and dizzy if you stand up to fast but no wds in hundreds of patients. A my dose he said I will skate through this. BUT but but he said my challenge will be mental coming off since I already have anxiety. And need to stay strong through the mental. He said he will get me through no physical but the mental I have to get through on my own. I'm ready ready ready.. Guess I just needed to hear this for myself. This is my taper schedule I'm not advising you on anything just what I was given by A doc who helps thousands. He does believe in methadone. But only for chronic pain, small amounts. Not for detox. Hope this gives someone light like it did for me. Hubby still has to hold the pills and patch goes on tonight... Again this is mY story, not prescribing nor telling you how to taper you.. This is what I was prescribed to not have wds....thanks

[Ses11869]

Good job, I did the same thing last week, told the dr no more scripts, it was hard but had to be done

[maria920]

YAY!!!!!!! tht is truly amazing!!!! I kno when I turned down my last script I was sooo happy!

[YesLife4Me]

Yay You!   :)  I knew you could do it.   You are such a fun loving person and I really enjoy reading your comments.    I love how you are really digging in and enjoying life again.   Enjoy those pain in the rear teenagers.   They love you very much and just want you to be happy too.  :)   And I bet they are thrilled to have their momma back!  

[BarbRTR]

You're a rock star! That was awesome!!!

[Andie015]

That's awesome...I bet you feel like you can do anything now because YOU CAN!!!

[luvabugga]

As a lot of you probably know, I like to be silly and laugh and be goofy.  Can't help it...it's just who I am and it's gets me through a lot of things.

But...on a serious note I have so so so many of you to thank.  I read all the advice and soak it all in.  Some I agree with and some I don't, and only because everyone is different.  BUT...I respect and acknowledge everyone's individual journey.  This is what's just working for me, but maybe not for the next person.  Ultimately my journey has to be about me.

I have 2 teeanage son's who are just as silly as me. And I adore them..(well maybe lying a little there.. they are teenagers..lol) I lost the silliness with them on the pills and I missed it.  They told me I was cranky and irritable and mean and it really just sparked something.  I can be a lot of things, but never mean.  I'm loving being silly with them again, and last night they even taught me how to Gangnam Style dance for an upcoming family function.  (It wasn't pretty so we cranked some Lynryd Skynyrd and decided to sing instead!)

In any case the fun has returned in my house...(again might be a little bit of a lie...but you get what i mean)...and I'm starting to feel like my old self again.  Not every day...but more and more.  So pretty much what I'm saying is Thank You to you ALL!!

[selfinduced]

You are a complete rock, or is it you completely ROCK?! So proud of you, you just bought yourself more confindence and raised your self esteem 100%

[weaver71]

That's incredible! Keep doing what you're doing, it's working.

[clean_in_ks]

Hot diggity dog!!!  So proud of you!!  Did you sing all the way home??