My DOC was norco. Almost 2 months clean. I tapered and was on methadone for a month. I had no problems getting off the methadone. The difference for me is I have GREAT drs who have been an answer to my prayers. Ive been taking Cymbalta that I think has helped alot also.
I have to say I feel great Im soooo happy to not have to worry about pills anymore. I think it really helps me to listen to everyone stories I find it so funny when I hear people say things that I was always thinking its like a light bulb going off. I think for so many of us the hardest part is feeling all alone and to see other people feeling the way u did is amazing. Gizzy said about feeling jealous of people who didnt need a pill to get through the day, that EXACT thing used to run through my head everytime I saw someone, its so crazy!!
1. Vicodins 71/2 months clean, also
2. Wanting my life back.
3. Clearer thinking
1. Vicodin and Norcos were my drug of choice. I am 7 1/2 months clean!!
2. There are alot of things that i can say are the reason for me staying clean this time. I tried so many times in the past but this time was different. Obviously. This time I was ready. Mentallly. I knew i wanted to and had to. I had to do it for my kids. They deserved a better Mommy. I was sick of the chasing my next score, sick of the lying and sick of being crabby when i had none. Also this forum had played a huge role in my success. I dont feel so alone in this battle. I have met great people that have helped me and encouraged me. I am not sure were i would be as far as being clean if i wuldnt have come across this forum back in December.
3. So many positive things have come from my being clean. I think the most important thing is i have grown so much stronger. I have become my old self again and it feels great. I am not putting up with the bull**** anymore and I know i can make it on my own.
I am not dependent on anything or anyone...only myself. I am making huge life changes that i wanted to before but was afraid to. Not anymore..i am strong and capable. I have also met great friends here on this forum, some that i hope are for life. :)
Great post Gizzy!!
This is a great post gizzy.Thanks everyone for sharing their story...
For me, my DOC was oxycodone. I started April of 07 and it got out of hand in the fall. Quite once for a few weeks in March, then resumed and got completely out of control in June.
I'm now in my 9th day clean and the difference this time, is I'm admitting I'm an addict. DIdn't do that in March...just said...you know I probably shouldn't keep taking these. This time, I am being honest with myself, and I have told my husband. I also talked to my doctor about the anxiety and stress that caused me to use in the first place and he started me on an antianxitey medicine. I also know more of my triggers and am doing more to either avoid them or cope better.
The good things...I feel genuine and real to my husband again. I'm sure as the acute withdrawls fade, I'll feel better in general...but I'm not there yet. Soon.
Thanks again for the post gizzy.
hi
DOC -took hydrocodone, vicodins for 4 years
this time worked because i planned it very carefully and i moved to a different state far away
positive things- well have a life now to do what ever i want. also a new sense of high self asteem and confidence.
it's like hey if i could finally beat those pills than i can do just about anything. hah
feels good.
D.O.C. Tramadol
Reason for staying Clean....My little girls and my Husband
The best thing about being clean....There are a lot! Seeing things in color again. Not having to lie anymore. Not feeling Ashamed everytime I put a pill in my mouth. Having my girls want to be with me again. My husband telling me how happy he is to have me back......So many things!
Great post Giz! It helped me to see how much better life is now!
ty for sharing, so nice to hear when people reach the other side.
ok i never answered cause my clean days suck now, but i still consider myself successful. i am clean 17 days from cocaine after a one day relapse, but had 7 months prior and have done so well. the reason this is working this time is that i have worked my *** of at staying clean, and most importantly for me is getting support and talking about addiction. there are so many great things to being clean, but i would say the best thing about being off drugs is the world has colour again and i can feel again. it's horrible going through life, like a zombie and have no emotions. im finally free. thanks again everyone
My doc was heroin, I'll have 15 months on July 17. I've been on suboxone basically the whole time, and I know clean time is controversial when it comes to that. But I haven't stuck a needle in my arm in almost 15 months, (which is a miracle) so I consider myself clean.
I got clean because I was sooooo sick and tired of being sick and tired. I've stayed clean because I've gotten some of myself back along the way. I starting working on myself and the reasons why I was using, and I'm learning better coping skills. For a long time I thought I would die young and as a junkie... Now I know that doesn't have to be my reality.
Positive things in my life since I've been clean - I no longer think of myself as a victim, I'm a soldier and a survivor, and today I can be accountable & responsible for my thoughts/actions. I have self worth and self respect and I'm learning to truly love myself and other people. Like other people have said - I'm not always on a mission anymore. I'm capable of actually having a life now as opposed to having a ball and chain around my neck. And today I have hope for myself and my future, and that by itself makes the fight worth it.
Thanks Gizzy for starting this post! I really needed a pick me up today, and reading everyone's positive stories has helped alot! -wishing everyone sunshine and smiles :)
my doc was opiates...preferrably oxy but if i couldnt get them anything would do. i have been clean 7 months.
the reasons i have mad it this far: this forum, i changed all my friends, cut off all suppliers, and GOD.
my life has become worth living.
Thankyou,that 131 days is not just my success,but yours and many others here.I couldn't have done it without all of you.Before I became an addict my former boss's son was a recovering heroin addict and he once told me that being an addict was the hardest job he ever had.At the time I didn't know what he meant by that,but now I do.Hustling constantly to get the drug,all the running around and phone calls to meet up with the dealers,it's exhausting if you think about it.I'm sure glad I'm out of that line of work.Great idea for a post ,by the way.Much love....Kim
my DOC was any narco i could get from pills to couph medicine but mainly Oxy's i have been on something for about 15 yrs or more but taking Oxy's real bad for about 10 yrs.
my success so far has been because of my children!!!!!!!!!!
my life has changed by i have gotten stronger agian, finally dealing w my moms death the right way and i can take care of my kids agian and can remember most things now and i have meet great ppl like you Gizz though this.!
My DOC was vicoprofen and i have been clean 79 days. I remember reading what GTMI had on his profile about when the desire to be clean is more than the desire to use it really got to me and then Crispy wrote early on that 1 is too much and 1000 is not enuff...... That did it for me. I looked in the mirror and saw a 47 yr old addict and realized i only had one shot at this life thing. I now have my life back, my relationships are mending and now when my grandson looks into my eyes there is a pair of clean eyes of his grandma looking back. It doesnt get any better than this. Nice post gizzy!!! sara
Gizzy....
Your so sweet! Thank you for saying i am an inspiration....that means a lot to me hun.
Kim...i agree...i used to envy people that didnt take drugs as i wanted to be like that so much.
Crazy to think i could never be like them.
Keep fighting everyone.
i am so happy for you kim, sounds like life is good. i have to admit you reminded me of something i have not thought of since ive been clean and im glad you brought this up. i was also jealous of others that could go through life without drugs and i didn't understand how they could do that, now i just pitty those that are using cause it's a tough life. congrats on your 131 days:)
My DOC was vicodin,made the mistake of going the methodone route.I have 131 days clean from everything.This time around I told everybody about what was going on with me,makes me accountable.I found this forum and I attend AA meetings.The most positive things that have changed for me is,like lostdreams said,I have a life now.My whole day isn't CONSUMED with worrying about the drugs.No more trips to that clinic,I hated that place.No more associating with people who I really didn't like at all but pretended to because they had what I thought I needed.{drugs} Not feeling guilty or ashamed anymore.Not being broke all the time.Not being jealous of others who just live and don't think they need to take a pill to do so.I could just go on and on about all the positives.I'm happy again and so is my family,thats the big one.Peace...Kim
lost dreams- that is truly amazing, 1 year 6 months clean from probably the hardest drug to beat, you are an inspiraton to us all.
corey- that is a success, you are working hard at this and 38 days is great, keep going, we will get to where lost dreams is now, just gonna take awhile:) great to hear you have a sponsor
Any opiate..mostly Vics and been clean for 38 days.
Know better than to call it a success yet as I relapsed about 7 times with more time than that, but am doing the NA thing this time and have a sponcer.
Since I've been clean this time I am aware of many changes that took place in my perceptions since I started using 5-6 years ago.Kept blaming people. places...esp work for feeling the way I was and realize now that it's me that changed (my thinking and expectations) and not everyone and everything else. I'm learning to meet life on it's terms again instead of expecting it to meet me on mine. Just hoping and praying that it will work this time.
Good one Giz...See I'm still on here. LOL Corey
1) Doc was Heroin.....clean now for 1yr 6months
2) Started a whole new life away from everything i knew! Wanted to get 'clean' so bad!
3) Positive thing that has changed in my life would be i NOW have a life.
Good post Gizzy.
I hope i can be one of the people answering these questions soon. Right now still using what doctor is giving. Following script and exercise.....I'm staying as positive as possible.....But i'm gonna need a little time before i can answer the questions.....I do want to see other peoples answers....They give me hope....