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[co872]

To all my friends, if you havent seen i was gone for about a week. Being away from this site was so hard, it def made it hard to fight my cravings. Nothing is better than reading your comments and posts first thing when I wake up, it prepares me for my day and lets me thank god for the little things, like another day and support from all of you. Thanks so much, please hang in there for me, oct. was my first month of realization. Now i'm on the road to recovery and could'nt do it without you all.

[co872]

Thanks, I am in so deep with this stuff. I dont know if it's the drugs or me, I just dont feel like doing anything. I think  I need to make some new friends or see a shrink, I just dont feel like who I really am. Less than a year ago I was a very determined business man that had everything in the palm of my hand, now I just dont see how I can make it, with the economy and everything. I dont know if it's the oxy's or just me, like I said I need to see a professional or something.  I am determined to get myself back, I loved so much stuff, now I dont care about any of it. I pray alot and go to church I just dont know what to do. Maybe I'm just down from cutting back i dont know, Thank you all!

[pharma9]

A lower consumption is always progress in the right direction.This will with alot of determination lead to elimination of the drug entirely.Cutting down is often the first step to stopping entirely.One day you will stop entirely and we will be here to help you along the way.Love and good wishes.

[co872]

I know bro, but i got a script so i never go without. I have learned my lesson bout running out. I have also tried to stop c/t it's terrible at our level. I'm doing a taper which has atleast got my consumption in check and it is lower than before,  I just seem to take htem even when  I know I dont need them, it's like a compulsive act now. Well twolve stay in touch hopefully we can help each other. I have lost alot, and hurt my family in less than a year. It *****, I know exactly how you feel, like your life is over and there is no way to get it back, but i'm fighting this to the death.  

[twolve]

i am in the same position as you my friend..i am doing anything i can to get off oxys..ive told my family and a few close friends as well as my doctor..i made it a full day and onto day 2 when i just caved in and got some to just feel normal for a day and escape the hell that is wds..oxy wds are just brutal and i had recently upped my habit from 1-2 80s per day to sometimes 4-5 which is just insane and i know that..when i am wding i cant eat and anytime i take a drink of something it just allows me to throw up more..when im throwing up i am basically in the air just heaving any last thing that will come out..how am i going to get through this? i dont have the money to do this anymore and im really hurting my family..ive had it..

[co872]

I had to go for another week for work, it's killing me. I'm fighting for my life, and it's so hard to be away from the computer and everything else that makes me comfortable. I am at a crossroad right now, I dont enjoy oxy's anymore but i still take them, I have to get control of my mind this has been so much harder than i imagined.  

[Charetti]

Thats wonderful, always need to hear the up side too!

[salsinator]

Nice to see you back.  How have things been going for you?  How have you been feeling?  S