Hey Friend,
May not be a consolation right now but good thing you are ending this now, and not when you are 41 instead of 21. Congratulations on being smart!
You are in hell right now but its normal. I know you wan tto play with the nieces and nephews and thre will be time for that, but don't push it right now. You have the FLU. pure and simple, and need time to baby yourself to get better. Stay hydrated, drink ensure or instant breakfast when you can't eat. Hot baths help, or a hot shower if you don't have a tub. WHen you are soaking in the hot water it seems to help the mental symptoms as well as the physical.
After all the physical is gone you will have to deal with the mental stuff like the anxiety and some depression and loss of energy. Just keep riding the wave and keep your eye on the future and you will get through it.
keep us posted,
hugs,
Lily