Hi, I started out years ago taking Ultram for pain in my broken leg. Just last January I took myself off of them. Boy if that wasn't hard to do. It was an addiction I hid from everyone even my husband. When I went off them he thought I had the flu and I let him think just that. I was off them for 4 mths and almost everyday I wished I had just one to take. Then one day last april I invited a new aquaintance over for dinner. She could tell I was in pain and offered me a Norco and my brain was saying take it take it.....So I did. That was the beginning of a new drug addiction. It hasn't been hard getting the norco at all. If you know the right people you can get them with little problem. Every single time I take one I feel so guilty. The Norco give me energy, sense of being smarter, think clearer, happier, excellent appetite, increased sex life....It's like taking the substance that's been missing in my brain my whole life.
When I don't take the Norco every 6-8hrs. I feel cloudy, can't think clearly, become forgetful, energy goes down, feel panicky....It's awful and it won't go away unless I take a pill.
I come from a family of narcotic addicts....Parents, siblings, neices, nephews, etc....We don't talk about it though. Only my father has spoken about how jerky and achy he will feel during the night and when he takes his vicodin it goes away. My family members keep there narcotics under lock & key so no one else will steal their stuff. It's been an ongoing thing for many years. I never felt the need until I broke my leg and started on the ultram.
So today I am wanting off the Norco. I see the physical effects on my body, the mental hold it has on me, the love affair of it, I love the **** but hate it at the same time....I can't go my entire life chasing it, I don't want to!!!
I take 3-4 norco a day, depending on how busy I am. I don't think that's alot but if I took more than that I would be a total zombie. Taking a 4th one in a day would mean something really upsetting happened and that 4th one will make it easier to cope with. For awhile I didn't realize this but am fully aware now.
2 weeks ago I started trying to taper off. It was so hard to be okay taking only 2! so I broke all of them in 1/2 and so when I wake up I take a 1/2 then in the afternoon I take another 1/2. I then take another 1/2 in the evening. This hasn't been easy at all. If something upsetting or stressful comes along I'll pop another 1/2. It's gotten to where I can't handle the slightest upset without popping at least a 1/2 of a norco! this is nuts!!!
I definately started laying low....telling people I'm not feeling well. Going to work is all I can handle right now and I have to go to work.
I am experiencing now difficulty in sleeping, crawly feeling in the skin, runny nose. Worst of all no appetite!!! I have lost 5lbs in 2 weeks! I have no weight to lose. No diarrhea yet (thank god). I cannot believe that only taking 3-4 Norcos in a day since april could cause such withdrawals! This Norco is powerful stuff to get off of. My husband doesn't notice because he is so busy in his job right now that I barely see him. So maybe good time to do this.
I want to be forever free from narcotic addiction. It's a horrible way to live everyday. I want me back for the rest of my life. I'm not around my family much anyway so the family won't be a problem.
After reading all these posts on addiction it's amazing how many people have the same problem I have. The best of luck to anyone reading my post. I really feel for you, I really do!!!
Thank You