Oxycontin - 2nd day clean

[rxqueen67]

My boyfriend hung himself about 2 months ago... ever since then I have been taking oxycontin to forget about the pain. I have been taking an upwards of 50 to 60 mg a day to function. Without it I feel like I am going to die. I have a huge history of addiction, starting with meth, vicodin, percocet and now oxy. I haven't had any in 2 days and I have muscle aches ALL over my body, I am tired and restless at the same time, I can't think straight, and I have missed my period (was due yesterday), depression.. . Are ALL of these withdrawal symptoms? If so, WHEN will they go away???

[sinkorswimintoronto]

We are all just trying to help you through this...nobody is attacking you.
Sometimes tough love is what we need to get motivated. I only wish you the best

[IBKleen]

Hey rxqueen...

Come on, don't leave over something someone said to you. You are on the internet and letting it all hang out. You have to expect this.

I am not sure who upset you but you have to be able to take this or you will not get to the other side. It is often hard to communicate through the written word.

Please listen as people are trying to help. If you walk away now, then where are you?

Please come back and talk with us......

[rxqueen67]

cop out... no. What I think is a cop out is blaming someone for what someone else does. Just like his friends and family did. They all blamed me.... now THATS a cop out. Anyway, I want to end this thread because I am done talking about this and I am sorry I even brought it up.

[sinkorswimintoronto]

Everbody carries their demons...your boyfriend carried his until he couldn't carry them anymore. What he did was wrong...yes. What he did was not about you. Perhaps had he got the counselling he so dearly needed, we would not be having this terrible discussion today. This is not your fault, but simply saying he didn't love you enough to live is a cop out...you know that. Stay close to those who love you right now...you need it.
Good Luck

[rxqueen67]

Thank you. I feel like I was starting to get attacked there for a moment! I would like to think that he would want me to move on and do the things I wanted to do, and be the person I wanted to be. I do what I THINK is right, and even though sometimes it may not be, I still try to stand strong towards my decisions. I hope the physical withdrawals go away very soon. I feel like I can't even move very well at all. Legs, arms, back, neck, head.... everything, everywhere.

[broknbck]

that is a tough one. sorry.
it sounds like maybe you are rolling with the punches there???
and that last one was a doozey. and you were not ready for it.
when i am depressed or not happy at how things are at the moment.... i think about exactly what i would like them to be like instead. and of course you cannot be with him again. but you can want something like you had before with him...... or anything else.
and keep concentrating and thinking about what you would like things to be like.
not thinking so much about what you don't like, because of course ....that doesn't feel good.
the physical withdrawl usually goes on for like 4 or 5 days bad and then gets better.