PLEASE HELP

[Katrina81]

Aw gosh u guys. Today has been the WORST day ever. After I dropped my kids off at school this morning (thank God!) I was T-boned by a man who blew a stop sign. I have 4 broken ribs whiplash and my shoulder was dislocated until the er popped it back into place. As you can guess i am in a lot of pain. I refused pain meds at the hospital but the dr sent me home with a script for percocets. My mom who bless her heart is taking care of me and my children went and filled the script. I dont know what to do. It hurts to take deep breaths and the er gave me this breathing gadget 2 make sure i breathe deep. i am in SO MUCH PAIN. I am wrestling with my clean time vs the pain right now. My ma is aware im an addict and will hold and dispense. Guys what should i do? im scared 2 death 2 take any but the pain is getting unbearable. Ugh please somde advice?

[Sithtiger]

Well try to get by as best as you can.  That's all you can do.  I hope you get better soon.  You were definitely put in a bad situation to only be a couple weeks off those meds, only to be put in a situation where you really might need to take them for pain.

All I can say is if you can go with little to no pain meds, that's great, but if you can't, then that's fine too.  I guess the only think you can do is be aware and I think that's the most important thing you can do right now and it seems you are doing that.

[ImDONENoMore]

That definitely makes sense.  And I'm so glad you know not to ask for tramadol (my DOC and it is POISON) so good for you!  Maybe the doc can give you some naprosyn (same stuff in Aleve).  It works so great for my pain maybe it would help you too?  I also found the heavy duty Motrin (800 mg tablets) to help really well too.  Just a couple of options for you to consider.

And everyone is right - needing these meds right now absolutely does not affect your clean time.

You are doing the right thing here and managing your pain correctly.  That says a lot about how far you've come so stay proud! :)

[throwindatowl]

Hey IM sorry to hear what happened to you. Try all the otc meds for pain you can. I know youll probable need the HEAVY stuff for a few days but after that? You might not need them. Your tough right? You sound like a strong person Congrats. You are feeling again. Even the pain. I know what your saying. Id take being sober and in some pain over being addicted to pain meds. Any day. Hot baths all that stuff. Try and keep it natural as much as you can. Keep the dosage down I dont want to see you hurting when you have to quit taking them. Hope you feel better.

[Katrina81]

Thanks 4 ur support guys. I did get a shot of the Torodol in the hind end in the er. It honestly didnt do much. I go follow up with my dr 2day and i am going 2 ask 4 non narcotic meds and NOT tramadol! Ive gotten by on just half that percocet so far. Ive been trying to meditate thru the waves of pain that come and its working and helping me cope. My ma is here for as long as i need and is in charge of the meds. Very sore today from head to toe but its amazing to feel real sober pain. Does that make sense?

[groundhog_day]

I'm so sorry about your accident, and I truly empathise about having to take pain meds for pain and all the conflict that can bring up. I have been in both situations - i.e. took pain meds just for pain appropriately and took pain meds for pain but inappropriately. For me, if I am being truly honest in the moment, there is a real difference in how my brain and psyche feel when I am being careful vs when I am abusing, and I KNOW in my gut which it is - and it seems like you are pretty clearly taking them as prescribed.

The times I was using properly and carefully, I made sure I took the pain meds on a full stomach, and started at the lowest dose and built up gradually - the full stomach makes it much harder to feel any "rush" and that was the thing that sets me off more than the mere act of swallowing a pill.

I hope your pain subsides quickly, be extra kind and gentle with yourself.

groundhog

[bmdad]

The do make Toradol in prescription pill form. I was prescribed that a few years ago for my back and sciatic pain. It doesn't seem to work quite as well as the shot you get at the hospital but does help. I think it's a great idea and worth a shot.

[Sithtiger]

I'm sorry to hear about your accident.  You're in a real tough situation!  Being 15 days off opiates (I take it) means your physical w/d should be completely gone and your emotional w/d's should be well on their way out.

I would try to get some non-narcotic pain meds.  I don't know if they make Toradol in prescription form.  I know they give it at the hospital through your IV and it works very well for me.  If you've got to have those meds you're taking then you've got to have them, but keep in mind the w/d's and how bad they are.  I hope the pain goes away soon.

[bmdad]

You did not fail so don't feel guilty. The only time they are the devil's poison is when taken for the wrong reasons. I can almost guarantee you that every single one of us on here would have taken one if we were in your shoes no matter how much clean time we have. As long as you know you are taking them for the right reason you shouldn't dwell on it so don't! There's not one person here that will look down on you. You not taking when in excruciating pain would be like a diabetic not taking their insulin. You don't really have an option. Just be sure to have your mom flush the rest once you are feeling better.

Now stop worrying and try and get some sleep!

[mommyoffive0529]

OMG girl i am so sorry for your accident..i cannot imagine how hard this must be for you..take the meds if you need but take the minimum you can to take the edge off the pain...try to get better soon and dont fret about take a few pills just go fall off and start taking em when you dont need them...you can do this again if you take care of your body....drink lots of water so the pills can flush out quicker..god bless you and i am glad you are okay..thats all that matters right now...

[Katrina81]

Well after laying here in agony i gave in and took half of a 10mg percocet. I cried like a baby when i took it. I feel so guilty and like i just failed. I mean logically i knw i needed it. My body has just been put thru the ringer. But the emotions i feel now after i took it are overwhelming. I feel like i swallowed the devil himself and the poision is now running thru me trying to make me sick again. I will get over this and be fine. But can u guys relate to where im comming from. I use to justify taking them. Now im justifying  NOT taking them. Pretty crazy! Thanks 4 listening guys. I love ya all and ur support has been nothing short of a miracle.

[tired_of_oxy]

I agree with the other posters. Just because were addicts does not mean we shouldn't have access to pain relief when we really need it but of course we cannot take them as prescribed ourselves so having your mom hold onto them and dole them out is an excellent idea. That does not affect your clean time. Your not taking them to get high, your taking them because your no doubt in a great deal of pain - big difference!

Hope you heal up fast and kudos to you for taking all the right precautions.

[bmdad]

So sorry for what you are going through

! Listen to the advice above and to the advice of the doctor. More than likely we will all be in a position of needing pain meds for a legitimate reason at some point. That being said only you truly know if you need them or not. If you do, you do. You already took the appropriate steps an addict needs to take by having your mom hold on to them. There have been many others on here that have had clean time under their belt and had to take them for a legitimate reason and everything worked out okay. As long as you take the necessary steps in order to keep you from abusing them it will work out okay for you also.

When I was in your position once I tried my best to only take them before bed so I could hopefully get some sleep but some days I had to take them during the day. So just don't go above what's prescribed and only take them as long as you need them. Don't worry about clean days. They are just numbers.

Hope you heal up soon!

Brian

[Katrina81]

And btw the man who hit me was busy texting on his effin phone. i am so angry at that man. he has no idea what his actions has done. he has put me in a position of jepordizing my clean time. 15 days today. i am so upset and torn. please give me some guidance u guys. i was honest with the er dr and he said dont be a martyr! and he said just cuz ur a recovering addict doesnt mean u deserve the pain and he said i deserve the rite 2 pain management. im just so scared. the thought of putting 1 in my mouth makes me wana puke.

[IBKleen]

I'm sorry to hear about the accident. I know you must be in a lot of pain. Do not confuse taking pain meds as prescribed under a doctor's supervision for legitimate pain with using or losing your clean time. They are two separate things. We are not martyrs and if you need them for pain, then that is the way it is. Be smart about it and be accountable. Have your mom hold them and give them to you according to the prescription.

Hope you are up and about soon. Take good care of yourself.

[LeaAnn807]

I'm sorry about your wreck!  I'm glad you are alive!

As far as pills go, if you have to have them, just be sure your mom gives them as directed, and you don't take them for very long or the WDs will be back!  And you don't need all that you have wrong with you PLUS to go through WDs again!

I'm so glad you are ok!