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Quitting Hydrocodone - Day 12
Hey guys. So as some of you might know I came very close to relapsing last night my mind almost succeeded at overpowering me by throwing everything it had at me and at the last minute I snapped back into reality and didn't go through with it. Sure enough 20 minutes later I felt better, and woke up today thanking God that I didn't go through with it. Today's been a good day overall so far, even though I haven't really gotten out of the house at all. I did manage to almost finish a large speech I have to give later this week, though, so I've been productive!
The whole experience last night actually worked to my advantage a little bit because I now have the foresight to look at this thing day by day, and the thought of waking up back at square one is terrifying. I think this had made me stronger in my plight to reclaim my sobriety, and I will keep posting on here as the days progress. My only hope is that I'm getting closer to feeling back to my old self again!
The whole experience last night actually worked to my advantage a little bit because I now have the foresight to look at this thing day by day, and the thought of waking up back at square one is terrifying. I think this had made me stronger in my plight to reclaim my sobriety, and I will keep posting on here as the days progress. My only hope is that I'm getting closer to feeling back to my old self again!
It makes perfect sense. I understand COMPLETELY. (oh and btw not sure if you've tried this yet but the b12 sublingual tablets are amazing for energy). :)
Yeah today I actually felt pretty good all day. Might just be another up on the coaster but I definitely feel stronger today for not caving last night! I've got this feeling like I'm getting really close to the end of all this. Like my brain sacrificed all its will to throw everything it had at me and break me last night. Kind of like a fight or flight reaction, if that makes any sense!
Sounds like we're in roughly the same spot Ann. It's weird how it works one min you're fine the next you go all out Frodo Baggins in Mount Doom on yourself and feel that the drug is 'yours'. And it takes one of two turns from there you either repeat the cycle or break through it, and even a day later I see how important it was for me to resist the urge to do it, and I commend you for making the same decision I did it's not an easy thing to do!
As for lack of energy, yeah I've had some trouble with that. It's mostly getting my *** out of bed in the morning but after I have some coffee, a couple cigarettes and give myself an hour or two to wake up I feel good enough to function. Don't get me wrong I'm not nearly as active as I was even four years ago, but that all comes with time.
It's funny you mention memory I've actually been having a great deal of trouble memorizing certain things just a week ago I spent my Wednesday in a state of mild delirium (not bad enough to the point where people thought I was insane but enough to the point where it was difficult communicating with people). You are doing really good!!! Stay the course!
As for lack of energy, yeah I've had some trouble with that. It's mostly getting my *** out of bed in the morning but after I have some coffee, a couple cigarettes and give myself an hour or two to wake up I feel good enough to function. Don't get me wrong I'm not nearly as active as I was even four years ago, but that all comes with time.
It's funny you mention memory I've actually been having a great deal of trouble memorizing certain things just a week ago I spent my Wednesday in a state of mild delirium (not bad enough to the point where people thought I was insane but enough to the point where it was difficult communicating with people). You are doing really good!!! Stay the course!
You are getting better. And it really does come down to just getting through the day - one by one. Much easier to handle when you think like that too because the next day arrives and you don't even fully realize it but you're stronger - strong enough to get through that day when it comes. Kinda cool how it works like that....
Absolutely agree with you on that ricart it's like a roller coaster bunch of ups and downs then when you think its over you get thrown into a loop and corkscrew and get whipped around a few more times after that!
Wisdom and the undying urge to return to normal have been my two greatest weapons in this entire ordeal. It sounds like you have some wisdom in all this too. I can tell based on your responses.
Wisdom and the undying urge to return to normal have been my two greatest weapons in this entire ordeal. It sounds like you have some wisdom in all this too. I can tell based on your responses.
Yeah this is rough.I couldn't even see right for about ten days.I had to hold my phone like two feet away to even see.That is when I knew I was in for it and I had pushed things way over the edge this time.
You are one day ahead of me. I am on day 11. I almost relapsed too and felt better about an hour later. I too felt so much better in the morning and thanked God that I didn't relapse!
Do you still have severe exhaustion? I also have a terrible sinus infection.
That is great that you have been productive and able to write a speech. I can't do anything creative right now. I couldn't even remember my own cell phone number. After two unsuccessful attempts, I had to look it up.
Again, congratulations you must feel good right now.
Do you still have severe exhaustion? I also have a terrible sinus infection.
That is great that you have been productive and able to write a speech. I can't do anything creative right now. I couldn't even remember my own cell phone number. After two unsuccessful attempts, I had to look it up.
Again, congratulations you must feel good right now.
That is great.Wisdom is a rare commodity when it comes to these pills.You did something wise last night.It will get better.Recovery is not a straight up curve.It's more like the stock chart of a growing company.It's up up up up down down 10 more ups 5 more downs etc. but slowly climbing up over the weeks and months
All I can say is CONGRATS! One hour at a time, one day at a time. That was my mantra when I was coming unglued. :)
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