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It was like i kicked him in the face!
I just thought that I would share a little bit of humor, that happened about two hours ago... anyhow, I live in town (a very small town that is), and I know almost everyone. To get to the humorous part, my dealer ( at one time a friend with benefits to say) stopped by my house tonight, on his way to his mom's, and told me that he had; suboxone, roxys, dalaudid, and opanas... when he was done telling me everything that he was carrying, I didn't hesitate, and said " Sorry buddy, but I'm clean now and I plan to stay that way for the rest of my life, and if you would, please don't offer me anymore... or better yet just forget about me..." his jaw hit the ground and it was almost like I kicked him in the chest or something. I know that it was harsh, but if I weren't as harsh, he would've suckered me back in. Therefore, he didn't reply. As I walked back to my house he slowly backed out of my driveway and slowly proceeded to drive down the road. I didn't hesitate!? That makes me extremely proud of myself, and I have every right to be, in my opinion. Just wanted to share, my moment of triumph. Thanks to all of you!
YOU GO GIRL1!!!! you forgot the boot in the a$$......always cut all supply chains and change all persons places and things that remind you of using trust me when I say this we all have weak moments its part of being an addict so it is best to isolate yourself from anyone that uses you did a great job today..........Gnarly
Dad, lol you are very right. When I shut the door behind me, it was like the addict in me took her last breath, but I'm so happy that she finally died lol empowering? Yes! Surprised!? Very! When I realized that I didn't hesitate telling him no, all I could do was giggle, and my kids thot that I had gone mad! Nevertheless, it feels wonderful to finally be free! No worries about getting sick, no scrapping to get money together ... I am finally free! I expected temptation, but I didn't really expect my reaction to it, therefore, I can say that the old stubborn, hard headed, outspoken, tell it like it is... is finally back! And she is sticking around forever! So watch out world, I'm back and ready for action! Yee Haw!
I bet that was a great feeling when shut the door and realized what you just did! I can see it now. Right when the door closed you had a blank stare on your face wondering what got into you and shocked that you let him have it! All of a sudden you realized what you really just did and were then grinning from ear to ear! I'm sure it was very empowering!
It is a wonderful feeling to be done with the hectic lifestyle. Isn't it? It still makes me sick looking back at all the time and money I wasted chasing that good for nothing high. I will never go back and live that life again.
Moments like you experienced tonight kind of turn into the domino effect and they make you stronger and stronger. Keep doing what you're doing Momma and never look back!
It feels good to be free!
It is a wonderful feeling to be done with the hectic lifestyle. Isn't it? It still makes me sick looking back at all the time and money I wasted chasing that good for nothing high. I will never go back and live that life again.
Moments like you experienced tonight kind of turn into the domino effect and they make you stronger and stronger. Keep doing what you're doing Momma and never look back!
It feels good to be free!
I'm not quite sure why he stopped by, but I'm assuming that he just needed money... lol anyway, I have a feeling that none of my suppliers will be n contact with me anyway. See most of my suppliers are "friends" with that guy, and I'm pretty sure that when I got my number changed and gave him that harsh reality check, that they will all get the hint! "Yes u can!" Is what the little voice inside of me is saying, and for the first time in a long time, I can actually say that I agree. The power inside of me, makes me feel better all around, than getting high ever did! It's so much easier to think clear now that I don't have to ran all over the place looking for something to get me high, or making frantic calls because I'm sick. I'm just overjoyed, and overwhelmed with the fact that "I can" and "I am" doing this. It feels great to feel again! Thanks to my friends here, my support at home, and mostly my own desire to be me! Thanks for everything y'all!
Way to go! I've gotta feeling he won't be stopping by anymore! One of the most important parts of staying clean is by cutting off all ties and you did just that. If there are any other ties to the pills I would contact them as soon as you can. We all have weak moments and the pills tend to be available when we are in one of those weak moments. I'm not saying you would've used if it was one of those moments but it's always better to be safe then sorry.
You have every right to be proud of yourself! I'm proud of you too!
Keep up the good fight!
Brian
You have every right to be proud of yourself! I'm proud of you too!
Keep up the good fight!
Brian
WTG! That is such a huge accomplishment. Be proud. It is moments like that when we are able to say no to things that really make us understand that we do have the power in us!
Good job elimanating a bad influence. They never know what to say..because they want a buddy to get high or supply money. Im proud of you. Hope he doesnt return.
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