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Percocet Withdrawals
Hey all! I'm a 24 year old female who has been on percocets off and on for about 2 years. More on than off. I've only been able to stop twice. The first time I went through withdrawals, was tough for 2 days then the 3rd day was significantly better. At that time though I was only taking about 3-4 Perks a day. Stupidly, I started back on them again a few months later and have been on them for about 9 months. To where I stopped again. But this time, instead of only taking 3-4/day, I was taking upwards of 7-9/day. Perks/10s. When I made the decision to again go through the withdrawals, I only made it to day 2 and couldn't handle it and starting using again. I have now AGAIN chose to stop and am currently going through withdrawals. I'm now on Day 4, I feel ok, I believe most of the tough withdrawal symptoms are gone, the only ones I feel now are loss of energy, I can't sleep well at night without the aid of sleeping pills or xanax, but I just feel plain out tired and EXTREMELY depressed. I start crying at the drop of the hat. I am a single mother of 2 little girls and I'm all they have. No one in my life knows what I'm going through and I'm a little scared. How much longer will this last? The depression? The cravings for just wanting to go out there and just get ONE more? If I were to give in and go get the ONE would it set me back and start this grueling process over again? I just want to be done with these, but I'm afraid of relapsing. Please, any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
Hey Bob!
Thank you for your support! I understand that everyone here is nothing but supportive, even during the tough times. I truly appreciate that! I love posting and talking here, there are so many others I can relate to! Most of us, the people in our lives don't know, or just don't understand the trials we are facing with this. That's what makes this place so great!
You are right, I have to want this in order to succeed! AND I DO!! I think yesterday, I was just being so hard on myself and forgetting exactly what I was focusing on. I hate feeling like I've let myself and others around me down, it embarrasses me!
I've regained my senses and realized that feeling sorry for myself is not going to help! I just need to jump back on and continue. I see myself succeeding, I lost sight of that yesterday when they were in front of me, the mind is a terrible thing. I'm actually happy it happened the way it did, so I could feel that shame and guilt. I see what I would do to MYSELF for falling, I see that I'M the only one who would do this to myself, and now I see I'M the one that has to succeed. After I thought about it, I know I made a mistake, and blaming myself is just going to make things worse. I need to regain that positive attitude I had at Day 1. I can safely say, that it's back!
Now, when I even think of taking just ONE again, I'll remember the guilt it posed on me. I'll remember how shameful and embarrassing it was for me, and that will to succeed will grow even stronger!
Thank you so much for your support, it really helped and made me feel a little better for falling, I know I'm not the only one, I know I'm going to be fine. You are always there when I need someone Bob, you are a God Send to me! THANK YOU!!!!
Thank you for your support! I understand that everyone here is nothing but supportive, even during the tough times. I truly appreciate that! I love posting and talking here, there are so many others I can relate to! Most of us, the people in our lives don't know, or just don't understand the trials we are facing with this. That's what makes this place so great!
You are right, I have to want this in order to succeed! AND I DO!! I think yesterday, I was just being so hard on myself and forgetting exactly what I was focusing on. I hate feeling like I've let myself and others around me down, it embarrasses me!
I've regained my senses and realized that feeling sorry for myself is not going to help! I just need to jump back on and continue. I see myself succeeding, I lost sight of that yesterday when they were in front of me, the mind is a terrible thing. I'm actually happy it happened the way it did, so I could feel that shame and guilt. I see what I would do to MYSELF for falling, I see that I'M the only one who would do this to myself, and now I see I'M the one that has to succeed. After I thought about it, I know I made a mistake, and blaming myself is just going to make things worse. I need to regain that positive attitude I had at Day 1. I can safely say, that it's back!
Now, when I even think of taking just ONE again, I'll remember the guilt it posed on me. I'll remember how shameful and embarrassing it was for me, and that will to succeed will grow even stronger!
Thank you so much for your support, it really helped and made me feel a little better for falling, I know I'm not the only one, I know I'm going to be fine. You are always there when I need someone Bob, you are a God Send to me! THANK YOU!!!!
Hey,
Please understand that no one here willl ever think less of you for relapsing because everyone here has done the exact same thing. We know the guilt and shame and everything that comes with it too.We are here to support each other, using or not. I hope you understand this.
Taking one will not reset you to day one if you still want to do this. It doesn't sound like you are ready when you say you don't believe yourself.
This has to be something you have to want bad to make it happen. Remember, it's only one at this point, how many thousands more are you willing to take to get back to this same crossroad in your life???
You are so young still. I only wish I knew at your age what you do NOW. I would have saved myself from those thousands. It's all you baby!!!! This one's YOUR ride, you are the one that decides when to get off.
A 2 decade rider,
Still pulling hard for you that you find the answer,
bob
Please understand that no one here willl ever think less of you for relapsing because everyone here has done the exact same thing. We know the guilt and shame and everything that comes with it too.We are here to support each other, using or not. I hope you understand this.
Taking one will not reset you to day one if you still want to do this. It doesn't sound like you are ready when you say you don't believe yourself.
This has to be something you have to want bad to make it happen. Remember, it's only one at this point, how many thousands more are you willing to take to get back to this same crossroad in your life???
You are so young still. I only wish I knew at your age what you do NOW. I would have saved myself from those thousands. It's all you baby!!!! This one's YOUR ride, you are the one that decides when to get off.
A 2 decade rider,
Still pulling hard for you that you find the answer,
bob
I relapsed today. I guess I wasn't as strong as I keep trying to make myself believe I was. I was trying so hard to get through this. My legs wouldn't function at work...and I felt so bad. I'm sorry to those who supported me, and I'm also sorry to myself.
I realized afterwards the horrible decision I made, and am now beating myself up. It seemed like a quick fix, and it was, but now I feel worse. Time to start over. Tomorrow is going to again mark Day 1.
I felt so guilty and just horrible, I truly doubt I'm going to put my mind and heart through this again. For some reason I guess I just thought ONE would be ok, but after I took it, I realized that it wasn't going to be. That I just made a horrible and massive mistake. I really want to say I won't do it again, but for some reason at this exact moment, I don't even believe myself. But from the guilt I'm feeling, for not only letting myself down, but those around who supported me, I'm not sure I can do that to myself and everyone else again.
Starting over...tomorrow is Day 1. I'm sorry.
I realized afterwards the horrible decision I made, and am now beating myself up. It seemed like a quick fix, and it was, but now I feel worse. Time to start over. Tomorrow is going to again mark Day 1.
I felt so guilty and just horrible, I truly doubt I'm going to put my mind and heart through this again. For some reason I guess I just thought ONE would be ok, but after I took it, I realized that it wasn't going to be. That I just made a horrible and massive mistake. I really want to say I won't do it again, but for some reason at this exact moment, I don't even believe myself. But from the guilt I'm feeling, for not only letting myself down, but those around who supported me, I'm not sure I can do that to myself and everyone else again.
Starting over...tomorrow is Day 1. I'm sorry.
Hey,
Great job. Now you get your break and can relax a bit. The worst is over for the physical stuff. That's not to say it will be gone now but becomes more tolerable by the day.
As for the work thing.....that's why they pay us; because it $UCKS ha ha You can't give a thousand percent EVERYDAY stupid!!!! ha ha (man you have to change the name, c'mon already!!!)
Instead of priding yourself on your job, pehaps you should pride yourself on what you are now accomplishing. Heck, anybody can work hard. How many of us can do THIS!!!!!!
Hope you're doing well,
bob
Great job. Now you get your break and can relax a bit. The worst is over for the physical stuff. That's not to say it will be gone now but becomes more tolerable by the day.
As for the work thing.....that's why they pay us; because it $UCKS ha ha You can't give a thousand percent EVERYDAY stupid!!!! ha ha (man you have to change the name, c'mon already!!!)
Instead of priding yourself on your job, pehaps you should pride yourself on what you are now accomplishing. Heck, anybody can work hard. How many of us can do THIS!!!!!!
Hope you're doing well,
bob
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