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Hi all, I'm a 28 year old male and this is the first post i have made on this website. Honestly the first post i have ever made on a forum let alone a form about this. I have been addicted to opiates before and cleaned up my act for about 1 year. It all started with a knee injury and thats how i got the taste of the devil through these damn pills. I soon went and got them off the street.. And now i have gone back down the slope. I have been taking about 6-8 10mg pills a day for the past month, abusing them. I have been late to work everyday, using at work, missing work and now i have had enough. I missed work today and have set up a doctors appointment. My job is amazing, my family is amazing and my girlfriend is amazing and i cant lose any of them. If my girl finds out about this she is gone, she has dealt with this before with me and it was really really hard for her, and now i have done it again. I am so selfish and i hate myself for this. so my question is, should i tell my doctor everything (even that i have been obtaining them illegally)? Will I be able to obtain a doctors note that doesn't say im dealling with addiction?! If my job finds out about it i will surley lose my job, and my girl works with me so she will quickly find out and i will lose her too. I need help, and i dont know what to do.
I've never done this before..... I guess I'll give it a shot.... I'm 33 year old mother of two and have battled opitate addiction almost the the entire 12 years I've been a mother .... I've been scrolling and reading other people stories and can relate to all of them in one way or another ..... Before I post my issues, is anyone here reading this?
I've never done this before..... I guess I'll give it a shot.... I'm 33 year old mother of two and have battled opitate addiction almost the the entire 12 years I've been a mother .... I've been scrolling and reading other people stories and can relate to all of them in one way or another ..... Before I post my issues, is anyone here reading this?
Since your doctor is not your DOC supplier then you need to do what you can to get rid of the drugs in your life. This may mean cutting people out of your life who used to keep you supplied. Get rid of all phone numbers and drugs. Many times getting sober means starting over again...new friends, learning new ways to laugh and enjoy yourself again!
If you are going to start on Friday you should pick up a few things. I don't know exactly how bad your withdrawals will be but you will probably have some of the most common symptoms:
Restless Leg Syndrome: Tonic Water with Quinine, put a fruit juice or something in it so the taste is tolerable, then rub tiger balm or something like ben gay into the calves of your legs and then put on orthopedic stockings. Make sure they are the orthopedic kind...they are tight but they work.
Bathroom stuff: Immodium A/D (I had to take 4 a day so I wasn't running to the toilet every 5 minutes...but you will have to go some...you want to since it helps eliminate toxins
Epsom Salts: As many hot baths with Epsom Salts as possible to help eliminate toxins
Water, Gatorade, Life Water w/electrolytes: Dehydration makes everything worse!
Protein shakes: You won't want to eat but try these at least so you don't feel like c**p.
Vitamin B-12 (for Monday). If you can't get the injections then get the sublingual form from Walmart (much cheaper there). This helps immensely with energy.
A good multi-vitamin which includes a daily allowance of potassium (we run low on that): If you can't find a good one then eat a banana or two a day.
I'm sure there is stuff I'm not thinking of right now but once you start posting when you are withdrawing you will get tons of other ideas!!
Restless Leg Syndrome: Tonic Water with Quinine, put a fruit juice or something in it so the taste is tolerable, then rub tiger balm or something like ben gay into the calves of your legs and then put on orthopedic stockings. Make sure they are the orthopedic kind...they are tight but they work.
Bathroom stuff: Immodium A/D (I had to take 4 a day so I wasn't running to the toilet every 5 minutes...but you will have to go some...you want to since it helps eliminate toxins
Epsom Salts: As many hot baths with Epsom Salts as possible to help eliminate toxins
Water, Gatorade, Life Water w/electrolytes: Dehydration makes everything worse!
Protein shakes: You won't want to eat but try these at least so you don't feel like c**p.
Vitamin B-12 (for Monday). If you can't get the injections then get the sublingual form from Walmart (much cheaper there). This helps immensely with energy.
A good multi-vitamin which includes a daily allowance of potassium (we run low on that): If you can't find a good one then eat a banana or two a day.
I'm sure there is stuff I'm not thinking of right now but once you start posting when you are withdrawing you will get tons of other ideas!!
You are very welcome. I think you did the right thing with the doc since he didn't give u scrips for the pills. Before you start on Friday come back and ask what items you will need to help alleviate your symptoms...and, of course, for support!!
Congratulations for taking that first step. Now for figuring out how to deal with the honesty your girlfriend deserves which may cause you to lose her. Ask in a posting if anyone else has dealt with that situation...especially in the addiction: living with a addict forum; you probably will get some great suggestions there!
Congratulations for taking that first step. Now for figuring out how to deal with the honesty your girlfriend deserves which may cause you to lose her. Ask in a posting if anyone else has dealt with that situation...especially in the addiction: living with a addict forum; you probably will get some great suggestions there!
So i didnt tell my doctor about it at all, just told him about my nauseousness and other symptoms, he was not a supplier so i didnt tell him. I will be going cold turkey on friday as suggested. I will be back to talk to you all, THANK YOU so much. Seriously.
Yep I agree about the doctor Jinx. I definitely had a "brain fart" moment so that's why I told him to totally disregard my first post :-)
Please come back and let us know how it goes. We are here for support. We can offer the support and lots of great advice for the symptoms...I know you have done this before but sometimes someone will come up with something that works better. For instance, on the restless legs, club soda with quinine on it, tiger balm rubbed into the legs and orthopedic stockings really, really help.
Perhaps some who have been through the same situation with a partner might be able to share how they overcame the honesty issue. Be humble, ask for the help and start thinking about the aftercare now.
Perhaps some who have been through the same situation with a partner might be able to share how they overcame the honesty issue. Be humble, ask for the help and start thinking about the aftercare now.
if he is getting pills from his doctor then i understand telling his doctor and asking for help, but how i understood it is he is getting them from other sources.
just a PCP doesn't always understand addiction as well as an addiction psychiatrist and may actually hurt him by prescribing methodone or suboxone.
wristband-- you need to cut ALL your sources. if one of those sources IS your doctor then you need to tell him so you cut that source as well.
just a PCP doesn't always understand addiction as well as an addiction psychiatrist and may actually hurt him by prescribing methodone or suboxone.
wristband-- you need to cut ALL your sources. if one of those sources IS your doctor then you need to tell him so you cut that source as well.
You are right about the honesty thing, and I am dead set on getting off of these. The only problem is i have done this with her before, so i guess i have made my bed and now i have to lay in it. Thank you all for your advice, it has been taken to heart and i needed to hear all of this. I am headed to my doctors now i will let you know how it went.
Plus i know a month doesnt seem that long, but when you are relapsing and have been doing close to 100mg a day its really tough, i hope most of my W/D symptoms are mental though. Thank you again! All of you.
Plus i know a month doesnt seem that long, but when you are relapsing and have been doing close to 100mg a day its really tough, i hope most of my W/D symptoms are mental though. Thank you again! All of you.
Ohhhhh wait I'm sorry....hubby and I had a bad night so brain not functioning. You've only been back on the pills for a few weeks...just quit...you will have some symptoms but not like a person who has been on them for 10 years or even a year. Don't even tell your doctor. Quit on Friday morning....by Monday you should be okay. Get some B-12 sublingual or B-12 injection to help you with energy that first week.
I'm still of the mind that you should be honest with your g/f...because if she finds out...well you know.
Please disregard my first posting back to you....I would have given that advice to someone who would have to go through the hell of full withdrawal....and you will withdraw some...but it should be fairly manageable.
I agree with Jinx that you really need to focus on aftercare. Those here that have long-terk sobriety have done it by being humble, asking for help and sticking to an aftercare program.
Just jump....we will all be here to catch you with support, advice for any symptoms that might come up and with no judgment
Good luck@
I'm still of the mind that you should be honest with your g/f...because if she finds out...well you know.
Please disregard my first posting back to you....I would have given that advice to someone who would have to go through the hell of full withdrawal....and you will withdraw some...but it should be fairly manageable.
I agree with Jinx that you really need to focus on aftercare. Those here that have long-terk sobriety have done it by being humble, asking for help and sticking to an aftercare program.
Just jump....we will all be here to catch you with support, advice for any symptoms that might come up and with no judgment
Good luck@
Hi and welcome
If you are truly intent on getting off the drugs you definitely should be honest with your doctor. I'm not sure I would tell the doctor I was getting some illegally...I think it is enough to say that you are now using more than prescribed and feel like you aren't in control of the opiates. You want to get off of them, that you know you will feel lousy for a few days. Ask him if he can help you, tapering generally doesn't work for most opiate addicts. If he could prescribe Clonidine that will help with some of the symptoms and craving.
You could ask him for a doctors note, explain that you would lose your job and perhaps he could put it down as you need to be out due to illness. I don't think he would have to be specific and addiction is an illness.
The biggest problem I see here is your girlfriend. If she finds out about this (and she will eventually....we women are very good at figuring stuff out) she will definitely leave you. You need to think very hard on this....first off it would be great if you had her support, secondly...dishonesty is a relationship killer. Do you think if you put a plan in place and then talk to her that she might stay? You need to find a way to show her that you are dead serious. I don't know what that might be but you know her...maybe you could write a commitment note about your aftercare.....90 meetings....90 days...and find a way to prove that you have met that commitment? Perhaps through a sponsor. I don't know I'm just guessing here...I would definitely wait for more advice from someone who has been on the "sober train" longer than I have.
The thing that I do know...honesty is best and you need to get rid of all your sources. Throw away your pills (put cat litter and oil in the bottle and toss it). Delete the phone numbers of your suppliers, let your doctor and pharmacy know what you are doing and tell them to not give them to you again.
If you do go CT please come back and post as much as you need to. Many people here will be able to help come up with solutions to minimize some of the symptoms. Several right now are working their jobs through W/D. They just basically say they have a touch of the flu. If you quit on Friday morning that would give you the first 3 days...the 3rd day is usually the worst....4 and 5 aren't great but you could survive them....so that is an option for you.
Best of luck to you....keep checking back....you'll get a lot of excellent advice!
If you are truly intent on getting off the drugs you definitely should be honest with your doctor. I'm not sure I would tell the doctor I was getting some illegally...I think it is enough to say that you are now using more than prescribed and feel like you aren't in control of the opiates. You want to get off of them, that you know you will feel lousy for a few days. Ask him if he can help you, tapering generally doesn't work for most opiate addicts. If he could prescribe Clonidine that will help with some of the symptoms and craving.
You could ask him for a doctors note, explain that you would lose your job and perhaps he could put it down as you need to be out due to illness. I don't think he would have to be specific and addiction is an illness.
The biggest problem I see here is your girlfriend. If she finds out about this (and she will eventually....we women are very good at figuring stuff out) she will definitely leave you. You need to think very hard on this....first off it would be great if you had her support, secondly...dishonesty is a relationship killer. Do you think if you put a plan in place and then talk to her that she might stay? You need to find a way to show her that you are dead serious. I don't know what that might be but you know her...maybe you could write a commitment note about your aftercare.....90 meetings....90 days...and find a way to prove that you have met that commitment? Perhaps through a sponsor. I don't know I'm just guessing here...I would definitely wait for more advice from someone who has been on the "sober train" longer than I have.
The thing that I do know...honesty is best and you need to get rid of all your sources. Throw away your pills (put cat litter and oil in the bottle and toss it). Delete the phone numbers of your suppliers, let your doctor and pharmacy know what you are doing and tell them to not give them to you again.
If you do go CT please come back and post as much as you need to. Many people here will be able to help come up with solutions to minimize some of the symptoms. Several right now are working their jobs through W/D. They just basically say they have a touch of the flu. If you quit on Friday morning that would give you the first 3 days...the 3rd day is usually the worst....4 and 5 aren't great but you could survive them....so that is an option for you.
Best of luck to you....keep checking back....you'll get a lot of excellent advice!
Hello there, and welcome. I'm MsD and I'm percocet addict so I sure do understand the hold these devils have on a person. Its like heroin in pill if you ask me. I can't believe it but I've been off them a year and you can do it too! I think you should be completely honest with your doctor. He will understand, not be shocked and will help you through this. He cannot write your condition on a sick note because it violates doctor patient confidentiality laws . Its strickly between you and him. Don't be scared. You can do this! We will help. Don't lose everything to the devil! He is a liar!
i really don't think you should tell your doctor anything, because i would NOT recommend suboxone or methadone for your habit.
if you have just been back on them for a month and have done this before, it should not be hard to stop. what you need is some sort of aftercare.
getting clean is easy, staying clean is not.
many people think all they have to do is stop the drug and they will be fine. well, most won't.
this is 1/3 physical and 2/3 mental. that is why aftercare is so important.
you have to work at staying clean and i don't think using subs or dones is worth it in a case like your's. it is more for people who shoot heroin, been using for decades, etc.
maybe instead of your PCP you should see an addiction therapist??
set up 90 meetings in 90 days. either NA or AA.
don't tell yourself you don't have time for it because your life is spiraling out of control right now. an hour a day is better than missing work, etc.
if you have just been back on them for a month and have done this before, it should not be hard to stop. what you need is some sort of aftercare.
getting clean is easy, staying clean is not.
many people think all they have to do is stop the drug and they will be fine. well, most won't.
this is 1/3 physical and 2/3 mental. that is why aftercare is so important.
you have to work at staying clean and i don't think using subs or dones is worth it in a case like your's. it is more for people who shoot heroin, been using for decades, etc.
maybe instead of your PCP you should see an addiction therapist??
set up 90 meetings in 90 days. either NA or AA.
don't tell yourself you don't have time for it because your life is spiraling out of control right now. an hour a day is better than missing work, etc.
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