Please pray

[Mcr2001]

Well day 7 went well enough until this evening when I was challenged with 2 percs in front of me...they are not mine and they are prescribed to the person and in the house...I was told feel free but don't flush them WTF what if I have a bad day tomorrow then what?  God I can do this I know I can. "Fight, not to fall, not to fail, or you'll end up like the others". Singing avenged sevenfold in my head right now but I fing promise you all I WILL NOT RELAPSE.

[Mcr2001]

They are now gone and they are not in my body....I said I was done and damn it I AM DONE

[harmsnogood]

Taking pills is not an option anymore.Take yourself out of this situation, you do not need to be in that toxic situation so early on.I agree get rid of the pills or the people or both.You are whats important.
Harms

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Get rid of them huni its impowering when u do stay strong my friend we here for ya mwah big hugs n love from oz aj

[dede2121]

oh i hoped you flushed them. easier said than done i know. i would have had to call my daughter and tell her to get over here and flush them. of course i am early in my recovery so not sure i would have had the strenght to flush or resist taking them. my sister in law sent me a text last night telling me she had one. and oh lord the thoughts ran thru my head. i really wanted it so bad and i entertained the thought of it for almost an hour but the feeling finally went away. i kept thinking why would i drive 40 miles one way to get one and only to come home and it probably wouldnt even have much effect on me. i am awake now at 5 am and i am thinking how happy i am that i didnt go get that.
sorry for rambling in your spotlight.

[samari]

You've. Given me such great advice. So stick to it! For u and your daughter!!!  

[Bkitty]

Sending prayers,,fight thru this. Also sending some support,,love and hugs Hang in there. Dump the pills,,its so worth it in the end. I promise you. All this mental hell and physical hell you go thru pays off. (((hugs)))~Bkitty

[no_will]

Flush them!  Trust me, flush them.  If you don't you will take them.  I would.  I will pray for you to flush them.  Only Jesus was able to resist the Devil's temptation.  You are not Him, so don't feel like you have to be Him, flush them and say sorry later.  Tell them if they don't want you to flush them next time, to keep them away from you.

[kurtisdopesick]

Take another xanax if needed, bath or a shower and write down all the reasons why you want to have a happy life.

Sending positive energy your way, your through the hardest part now your just going to be sleepy and have cravings.

Stay away for your family, and keep away for yourself.

[Mcr2001]

You are right I passed through hell and I refuse to get back in line...my wife knows I am trying but I guess my recovery issues r getting to her

[Bones216]

Be strong, you can do this. I am at day 14 tomorrow and it does get easier I promise. If you are serious about staying clean, and I believe you are, you have to be point blank with your answer, NO!!!! Does your acquaintance know that you are trying to get clean? If so, a very crappy thing to do, if not then stick to your plan. I also have family members who offer like that, like 5 minutes after I see them for the first time in 6 months. I have found myself in that situation yet, but screw that crap, we are never going back to that life.
Keep posting, it keeps your mind clear.
Bones

[Mcr2001]

Only problem is that person is the mother of our daughter ugh I will do this

[Fireby29]

That's a borderline untenable position.  Trying to recover with drugs in the house not a reciepe for success.  I for one, could never have gotten this far with that going on.  No way.  I would recommend you get the person or the drugs gone. Sorry to be harsh, but you must protect yourself.

Bryan

[Pat1956100]

How will they know if you flush them?  They will be calling your name all night.  Hell they are calling my name and I'm in Canada.

[Mcr2001]

I took a Xanax and a sleeping pill to try to put myself out tonight

[hiwpew523]

Don't throw away a week of being clean.
Don't do it.  You will feel horrible tomorrow if you give in to the temptation tonight.  

Find something to distract yourself. You can do this.