Plodding thru day 4 (barely)

[Quietlylistening]

At this point I've made a pretty good dent into day 4. I'm fairly okay with the physical symptoms (as long as I'm within sprinting distance of a toilet). BUT its a gray cold day and I'm full of sad dark feelings. If anyone is a Harry Potter fan, I feel like the dementors have gotten a hold of me, have given me their kiss and sucked all the joy out of me.  Someone PLEASE tell me that this too will pass... Thanks for listening.

[Quietlylistening]

The pep talk is greatly appreciated!  I was following your post earlier and I truely hope you and alexandra fox keep fighting this fight.  I am fairly new here and would be really interested to know where Greatgreebo comes from... Thanks again!

[Quietlylistening]

Great idea! I use to meditate on a fairly regular basis (before I got into other ways of zoning).  I'm going to give it a try.   Thanks!

[Greatgreebo]

OMG!!! You are SO right with your dementor analogy!!! I have been looking for a way to describe how I feel and you have hit the nail right on the head.  
Since you are a Harry Potter fan you KNOW that the Dementors get their A$$es kicked in the end...HANG IN THERE.
Fin your own patronus charm....dig deep and I bet you will figure out what it is. Keep it close to your heart and FIGHT this thing off.
Stay Strong
Greatgreebo

[likemike]

I'm on hour 27 of methadone ct after 3 years of hopping from Vicodin, to lorcet, or Norco, to suboxone, to oxycontin to delaudid, to morphine (all prescribed for chronic pain by well-meaning doctors). What has been helping me are these people on here, knowing I'm not alone and clonidine! Lifesaver for the sleep dep. and heart palpitations. Immodium works wonders for those of us that can't walk fast enough to make it to the bathroom. And for the depression/anxiety/fear, etc., it's merely a suggestion, take what you can use and pitch the rest, but I do meditation. It works wonders for all sorts of things. You will get through this, as most of us will, there are many on here who have proven that. Gloomy days I can certainly understand. Hopefully tomorrow we'll see a little sunshine.

[ItIsTime]

Please tell me that the anxiety goes away soon.  I am also ok day 4.  Went cold turkey on turkey day.  The physical withdrawals are almost over, but my anxiety about functioning normally is through the roof.  A positive note though:  I have noticed that I'm acting more like myself, even witty again.

96 hours clean from Lortab.

I'm gonna make it!

Thx

[Quietlylistening]

Thanks so much for your encouragement!  I just got back from running a couple errands. And though it did take about 3x longer than it should have, I do feel a little more human.  My daughter just got home from school and we're going to make some popcorn (so much for nutritious food - IBKleen) and catch up on a couple of our favorite shows.  It means a lot to me that you guys take the time to keep nudging us along.  Will be in touch!  Spectro-Petronous--1234betterlife... Later

[1234betterlife]

oh honey, i am so sorry but that dementor comment cracked me up! that is the absolute perfect description of how i felt! i am sure everyone can relate to that empty hollow where has my life gone feeling. be patient honey, this too shall pass. it is part of saying goodbye to the lifestyle that has been ripped from you. kind of like losing the best friend that stabbed you in the back feeling. try what ibkleen suggested, or try to move around, go outside for some fresh air, even though its drizzly and grey outside always made me better. when you feel a wee bit better, you may try to do something physical to release those endorphins in your brain that have been silenced by this awful disease. pulling for you. now conjour up a spell for those dementors!

[IBKleen]

You are on day 4 now, the suboxone wouldn't do you any good anyway.

It is a nasty day here too, weather wise, but I didn't feed into it today. I kept myself busy. I know it is hard when you are not feeling good, but it helps to do something for yourself. Watch a good movie---read---do a jigsaw puzzle---splay solitaire----call an old friend----whatever makes you feel good. You have come a long way. Keep up the good work!!

Oh..it also helps if you can get some nutritious food in you. The foods we eat often effect our mood.

[banana911]

oh day 4 & 5 were the days that the physical symptoms really started to fall away.  and as these physical symptoms fall away i found that the relief translated into some happiness.  unfortunately this is were i picked up A LOT of anxiety.  i have listened to other people at this point pick up a lot of depression or sadness, which it sounds like you are experiencing.  and i still didn't feel good enough to "keep busy" but i did whatever i could.  everyone was suggesting exersize, but i didn't have it in my - but then someone suggested just stretching & i spent like a good 15 minutes stretching & holding positions.  like my own self created mini yoga - it really snapped my mind & body back a bit.  and got that final kink out of my back.  

i would suggest to have anything you enjoy around you:  rent movies?  yummy food?  oh oh, i talked to 2 best friends ENDLESSLY - my phone was an ongoing support system.  do you have any support/friends/etc around.  i think this is EXTREMELY important.  i was on the phone & on this forum alll theee timeeee.

:)  keep in touch.  you're doing great.

[Quietlylistening]

Thanks for responding.  I was taking hydros (6-8/day 7.5/500)  cut down to 5/500s 6/day and did a "quick" taper before cold turkey.  The long and short of it is, insurance doesn't cover it and I can't afford it out-of-pocket.  Soooo I'm opting for the "short-term pain" vs- the "long-term-pain" I've been putting myself thru for the last 4 years...  Good for you for making the decision also and Good Luck with the route you've choosen.  Sounds like you're doing it.

[tammer76]

hello. I'm sorry your feeling sad. Why didn't you go in to suboxone program. I went into the program 10 days ago. Let me tell you. I feel no withdrawls, I have so much enegry. I sleep so good. You should look at this website. www.suboxone.com. Type in you zip code and it will find a doctor for you. What did you take? And how many a day? If you don't mind me asking? This program is soooooooooooooo  great.


Tammer