Pregnant And Addicted To Vicodin

Question

Hello,

I don't know where to start or how much to say but I do know that I need help learning how to wean myself off of vicodin.
I started taking it for migraines about 2 years ago and with in the last 3-4 months I have been taking it daily under my doctors supervision.  I am currently 26 weeks pregnant and need to get off at least a month before the baby is born (i have 3 months left) or my baby will need to be in intensive care for a few weeks after delivery in order to be weaned off the vicodin. 
I feel like I cannot function normally with out it and need it just to feel "normal" I am only supposed to take 5 a day( that is what I am prescribed now) but i generally take 7-10 a day and run out early and end up buying it off the streets.  I want to stop so bad I just wish I could feel normal like I do when I am using, when I am not.  I can't find the self discipline to limit how many i take.  I am scared and worry about my baby every day but i also worry how i am going to function and be "happy" without this drug. I could give the meds to my fiance who knows what I am going through but I don't want to.  What if he is gone at work and I am in desperate need of more?  Is there anyone out there who has had to taper off and how did you find the self discipline to not "abuse" them and only take 1 at a time? And only every 4-5 hours? 
I have to at least take two to feel normal and usually want more after 2 hours but can wait 3-4 hours.  I am so deep into this I just don't know what to do.  I just told my mom and best friend everything today that was going on and it was so embarrassing but I need to take a step in the right direction because I don't think I could survive with out being able to take my baby home from the hospital with me.  I have 3 other kids and I just can't imagine.  
Now my most important concern right now is that I will run out of my prescription tomorrow-Friday- and I cannot find any more.  I was informed by my doctors nurse that my doc probably will not give me more, but I was informed by my doctor, that if I quit cold turkey there is a big risk of still birth.  So what do I do????  I will be out for 3 days! I am freaking out and as if I am not already depressed enough, without the vicodin those 3 days and worry the baby will die!  Please help..any feedback might help!  Thanks for listening!

kikinpeanuts · Answer

yeah, my doctor told me about all that stuff but its mainly in the first trimester that it is the most dangerous.  I only took 1 mg again yesterday and if i don't need it i definitely won't take it.  I know its addicting too and the baby could have withdrawal symptoms  from that as well so I am just using it if absolutely necessary because i figure its better than being super anxious. So today is another day with only 5 pills and i am really trying.  I'll keep ya posted.  thanks for the info! greatly appreciated!

avisg · Answer

Klonopin was given a pregnancy Category D rating due to the problems it caused in animal studies. These studies suggested that Klonopin may increase the risk of various birth defects, including cleft palate and limb defects. However, this is a controversial issue, since some human studies have shown that the risk of birth defects may be very small. Benzodiazepines (such as Klonopin) may also cause other problems, such as withdrawal symptoms after an infant is born.

avisg · Answer

Yeah here is some info so be very very careful plz continue to let me know how you are doing if you ever want to talk privately feel free to pm me ...
avis

avisg · Answer

I know it rough but it will get better stay at 5 until your body adjusts then go down another pills. I would watch the klonopin I believe there are some dangers taking it well pregnant I am going to see what I can find out ....

kikinpeanuts · Answer

Well today is the first day I only took 5 pills and it sucked!  I am extremely depressed and I can't stop thinking about it.  Last night I was a wreck too with anxiety of how today would go.  I ended up taking 1 mg of klonopin and didn't get to sleep until 130 am.  I did give the vicodin to my fiance to hold so it is out of my control now.  I feel like I am taking the right steps but the anxiety is driving me crazy..... If I could just NOT think about it, I'd be fine.

avisg · Answer

You can do this just keep reminding your self you are doing this for your baby ...give them to your fiance have them give it to you .That makes its alot easier to do ...keep us posted ...

kikinpeanuts · Answer

Well my doctor reluctantly refilled my prescription and i think i will give them to my fiance to hold.  I just am really scared because having just a little bit in you makes you want more so i don't know how this is going to work but i know i need to do it!  Wish me luck!

mamakeb · Answer

we need to be strong,  im having my mom hold my vics and klonis  and im tapering down by one every 3 days  it bites. i do know exactly how you feel,  i know i can feel your pain your words are mine.  i too took vicodin while preg   he's 2 now,  i had bad sciatica pain  could barely walk  but i was still an addict,  he gave me 30 a week up until the day i delivered, not proud but this addiction is strong,  and its very hard to break the tie.  im staying positive and focused and also wont let a pill control how im going to feel,  silly when you think of it,  good luck   chin up

kikinpeanuts · Answer

Thanks, my doctor was not in today and the nurse said she would talk to her first thing tomorrow morning and let me know but she did tell she really did not think she would give me anymore.  I'll post tomorrow with the doctors response but I can understand why..I mean its my fault I took too many so if that's the case they would have to give me more all the time.  That's why I am really worried she will not give me more. I feel like she has tried to help me but is losing faith and trust because like I said, I cannot find the self discipline to only take what I am supposed to. I hate being controlled by a pill!

avisg · Answer

is it your obgyns nurse that is telling you that he wont give you anymore ? You need to speak directly to your doctor tomorrow and explain to him that you are going to run out I would be honest with him about the amount you are taking as well.have him help you out making a taper plan to wean off of the meds safely ..you are right Cting off of them is very dangerous for your baby ...explain everything to your doctor ..its going to be ok ..
avis