I loved day 10! Something about that day is so empowering ! Now treat yourself to some guilty pleasure you've been wanting. You deserve it!
Congrats! I knew you had this all along. It is a fabulous feeling, isn't it. And no pills within reach. Day 10 was a big turning point for me. Working full days and doing "normal" things but with new eyes. Everything bright and filled with hope instead of gray and in a fog. It's so fabulous to hear your excitement. Shout it loud girl! It's a HUGE commitment and accomplishment!
Thanks bones!! I'm glad to Read you are still staying strong!!! We are going to beat this one day at a time!!! We owe it to ourselves and our families!!!! Hugs to you!!!
Thank you do much for sharing your story! I have been taking Percocet for the past 13 years. It wasn't always this bad. I had back surgery when I was 21. Never used while pregnant (I have 3 kids). It got worse about a year after I had my youngest. Slowly over the past few years I was increasing my dose. This past year got me up to 16 per day. Like you said, I kept taking more and more to feel normal. They turned on me too and made me miserable. I don't have any history of depression and I never took anything else. I'm going to see where this road takes me. I know I don't ever want the perks again!!! I can't wait to put this behind me!!! I have a long road ahead! I'm happy that you are 205 days clean...god bless you and congrats!!! Thanks again!!!! Hugs right back to you!!! :)
Great job kmk, you are awesome!!!!!!, very proud of you and trying to catch up to as fast as I can.
I have been off the perks for 205days. I was taking about the same amount and was addicted to them for about 8 yrs. I had tried to quit many many times before in between there and I just couldnt do it. This time I shifted my focus to the underlying reason of why I was an addict. For me it was because I am depressed and was self medicating. Plus I just loved them. How they made me feel,,etc. Then they turned on me and I couldnt take enough to feel good,,actually I got more miserable. I had intermittent spurts of physical withdrawals for about 30days. The first week was hell,,then it subsided and it was hit and miss from there. The stomach issues came and went as well. I promise it will go away eventually. Dont get discouraged by that or what I said above about having intermittent issues. Looking back it was worth going thru that. Actually the physical withdrawals were the easy part. It was the mental that really got me. I battled that hard. I addressed the depression and got myself into aftercare and NA. That is what has made the difference for me this time. IT saved my life,,literally. I was supposed to die on Nov 8. I didnt. Im not sure what underlying issues you have that caused you to abuse the perks,,pain or depression but my best advice is to address that. I had to be put on anti depresants and a mood stabilizer which I am now weaning off of. I was on a mental rollercoaster coming off the perks and I needed the medications. Everyone is different. It helped me. Its easy quitting the perks but living a sober life,,thats the hard part. I work on that everyday all day. That is my "sun" so to speak. My life revolves around my sobriety. The choices I make,,,everything. Its uncomfortable in the beginning living like that. At times it almost seemed impossible. But slowly the fog lifted and I got used to the new way. I got me back. I never thought that would or could happen. If you would have told me 7 months ago that Id be here where I am today,,I would have punched ya in the face and ran away. LOL! Its amazing and its an amazing transformation that happens. The first 30 days are hard. You live hour to hour,,day to day. Just be patient with yourself and whether you think you are or not you are taking HUGE HUGE steps the first 30days. The first,,the first week. All that you are experiencing is needed to get to this point.I know it ***** but its all part of the puzzle. The stomach issues,,its your body cleansing itself. Its a valuable piece too. Hang in there. I promise promise that in the end it is so worth it. I still have a long way to go as well. But there are calm waters ahead. I wouldnt change what I went thru if I could go back. I needed all that hell to get to this point. Today I am happy,,not all day but 85-90% of the time. Be patient with your body and your soul. It will come and it already is. ((((hugs))))~Bkitty
Thanks everyone for the support! Bkitty---how long have you been off the percs for? Just wondering what to expect over the next few weeks. Not sure if you read my earlier posts but I was taking up to 16 10/325's every day. Never bought illegally. Dr wrote me the scripts, and the pharmacy filled them under my insurance every 23 days. In the end I was a maniac...counting pills and trying to make them stretch to the next fill date...constant running to the docs office for more scripts...the pills were ALL
I thought about...it makes me sick to my stomach that I was like that :( I have a great hubby that has been there through it all. He tried repeatedly to help me, but until I acknowledged the problem it didn't work. I'm happy to be moving forward that's for sure!!! My biggest physical problem to date is the awful stomach problems. They don't go away. Good luck to you and thanks for reading :)
Congrats on your 10 clean days! It's sooo much better here on the other side...stay strong...best of luck to you : )
Congrats on 10days!!! Woo Hoo! Percocet was my DOC as well. Do something special for you today! ( And everyday) You have made it thru the worst of the physical withdrawals,,keep your gaurd up for the mental anguish. This site was a lifesaver for me. There are really some amazing people here! Clear skies are ahead I promise! I wish you all the best and look forward to many posts from you on your progress towards your amazing life ahead! ((Hugs)) ~Bkitty
Woot woot. I'm shouting with u!!! Great job!!!! Soooo proud of u!!! Keep it up ok!!! Big hugs jumping up and down with u!!