Quit Darvocet

[Heknowsme]

I'm doing it, really doing it this time!!! However today when my wife went out to the store i went searching for the pills that i had her hide from me. Two weeks ago i had a serious talk with my wife and i asked her to control my pills for me because i couldn't do it on my own. I have been on Darvocet (propoxyphene-n100 with apap) generic for maybe 5 years now. Anyway before our discussion i was taking up to 8 pills a day. No excuses i did it because i wanted the high feeling to cope. Okay so here is this, back in October 2009 i had arranged to have rotator cuff surgery so with that said i made a pact with God. I said God, please help me during the time i recover from surgery get off the pills...since i will be out of work for several months. It was an opportunity i had to take advantage of. See i drive a truck for a living and i cannot take these pills while driving. Anyway my pact was for God to please take away the desire and i will do the rest. Okay so after surgery i got pills out the wazoo...u name it Percs, Lortab, Flexaril and other stuff to get through the very painful recovery..heh a real reason to take pain pills. So what is funny about this is during the second week after surgery i stopped Darvocet completely! went almost two whole weeks! Why? Well i had percocets and lortab...wow a new high! BUT...they didn't cut it for me, why?? Okay i had horrid nightmares, cholesterophobic symptoms, chills, cramps...you name it and I could not figure out why. Then it hit me here i thought my desire for darvocet was gone for good..alas i realized my withdrawls must have been coming out even though i was taking other pills that i was not used to taking. Is this possible? sure i bet it is...so what did i do? I started darvocet again and quit the others just like that! No cravings for the hard stuff just darvocet...my faithful fix me pill. Sick sick sick....nearly two weeks without too, so dissapointed in my self..hate me hate me hate me. God loves me. He knows me. He doesn't give up so why should i? Anyway back to the beginning of my post..the talk with my wife. She knows all this btw, i never hide it from her. She is totally supportive, patient, loving and with God's grace cares. She is control of my pills...i am on third week of our plan. First week four pills a day, she puts them on my dresser as i wake up in morning to do my recovery exercises and i take one pill with coffee, then late morning another...i work out, sit on computer and during afternoon i take another gets me to evening when i take another. At bed time i take an Aleve which seems to help me through the nights...otherwise i would get horrid rolling aches, cramps in entire body that would make me squirm in bed. Okay second week down to three pills now...take two Aleve now and withdrawl symptoms are trivial. This is where i am now on my second week almost down to two pills a day. can i do it this time? Really do it? First time during this process i went looking for pills. I'm glad i couldn't find them, she hid them well...God willing, i can do this. I hate anything that takes control over me like this. I don't drink, smoke or do any other drug. I want to be the safest driver on the road. I want to love myself and who i really am. I want to be the best person i can be...to others out there who can empathize with my plight...i love you, you are my brother and sister. Please respond to this post :)

[fuzzypeach27]

Hi babe and welcome

We all go through the crazy frantic desperate pill searches. I posted before I even broke into my safe with two hair clips to get into my stash. All part of the process. Then when you don't need them you'll find them and throw them away like rubbish.

I am three weeks and one day clean of codeine. I could never taper as you can see, so had to go cold turkey.

Well done you keep posting to let us know how you are doing !!!!!!

[Heknowsme]

Thank you for the information. Yeah I do suffer from high blood pressure, been on meds for that now last five years. I check it regularly 140/75 avg. The ringing in ear is no worse now just me noticing it more since I've cut back on my darvocet dosage. I'm starting two pills a day tomorrow...God help me. Been really having hard time here last few days. I guess five years of a habit is hard to quit in just few weeks, but I'm doing my best. Been really tired, went looking for hidden pills and irritable as hell. I know others out there have it harder with other stuff, but this is my beast. Thank you all for listening to me whine and wimper probably seems trivial to some, but I appreciate the support. Years of dealing with painful shoulder and arm injury now I have no excuse to be on pain pills. I will not ask my doctor for more next visit even if he asks me if I need a refill...no way. Ugh...head is pounding, night readers...God bless you all.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

The tinnitus (ringing...)  was BP related with me - - if you are tapering strong or cold turkey'ing something your BP is most likely elevated........have you checked that diligently?  There are also a couple BP meds that are used for detox with great results - - they are RX but the Doc is really there to help you conquer this beast - - not get you in trouble for a medical problem......

[sweatinit]

Hi and welcome! So glad you found this site. God brought me here for sure. I was struggling all on my own and He showed me this one day. He is so faithful! I agree 100% with Garly. You can do this! We have all been where you are for one ailment or another. Sadly, it tunrs out as an addiction. You mentioned ringing in your ears...i was just reading an article on TMJ, as i think this is what I have. (DRs. haven't been able to diagnose), but they mentioned this as a symptom. Not sure if it applies, but thought i would mention it.  Day 18 for me and i am one of his miracles for sure. I have to surrender this addiction to him everyday. Only by His grace and Mercy can I say Day 18. Keep posting too. The peopel here are amazing and it will help. Stay strong.

[Heknowsme]

Thank you Gnarly...really appreciate your supportive words and sharing your personal experiences with me. I am still on three pills a day, but soon going to be only two. So far I have only searched for the pills once during my pact just praying that I can keep the edge off with the aleve i been taking. I wonder if anyone else out there has tinitis (ringing in the ears) ? I have had really bad ringing in the ears for maybe 14 years now and i am noticing as i reduce my Darvocet intake that my ringing is getting progressively more noticeable. Almost seems to me I am focusing on the ringing more so now as opposed to when im a bit high on the pain pills. Any idea or thoughts about this?

[gnarly_1]

hey dude I feel for ya my DOC for years was darvoset I had a bad back and they tried everything but it was the darvoset that gave me the most releaf I also couldent take them at work so I would wait till after work and take them by the handful...I enjoyed
the buzz after a wile they quit working and again after many tries with other pills
they put me on methadone...did that for 6 1/2yrs b/4 I decided enough was enough
and did a slow taper off that...my advise to you is break free of the darvoset its a he11
of alot eazer then methadone and it will only take a week or so and you will feel better
just a short time considering the rest of your life...pull close to God going threw your withdrawals he will help get you thew them he has much grace for those that ask it
I couldn't have broken a 16 1/2yr addiction without him hang in there you can do this it just takes some perseverance good luck and god bless....Gnarly