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Quit percs yesterday......
Hi everyone,
I'm new to this whole outreach for advice thing. I'm just gonna start off by telling you a little about my situation.
For as long as I can remember I have had a constant pain in my mid to lowerback area. I've seen doctors and chiropractors to try and get this problem fixed. Nothing, my doctor about 6 years ago just told me to read about pain and how it can be "in your head". So taking the docs advice, I read. I learned alot about the spine and the surrounding muscles.
So since learning all that information I have started working out, doing stretches, friggin even done Hot yoga a bunch of times. It all made my back feel great! for about an hour.....then back to the constant, dull, frustrating pain... . About 4 months ago I invited a few friends up to the cottage for some fun in the sun. A friend there who I've known for a long time but never really knew, you know? had overheard me complaining about my back pain. He offered me a 2 Percocets. I took them because I was looking for any chance of reliefs I could find.
Snap! Hooked on them. The pain just fluttered away! I felt lifted! Anew, reborn! OK, so now Im excited. There is a medication out there that works the way I want it. So I talk to my doctor he tells me Hi everyone,
I'm new to this whole outreach for advice thing. I'm just gonna start off by telling you a little about my situation.
For as long as I can remember I have had a constant pain in my mid to lowerback area. I've seen doctors and chiropractors to try and get this problem fixed. Nothing, my doctor about 6 years ago just told me to read about pain and how it can be "in your head". So taking the docs advice, I read. I learned alot about the spine and the surrounding muscles.
So since learning all that information I have started working out, doing stretches, friggin even done Hot yoga a bunch of times. It all made my back feel great! for about an hour.....then back to the constant, dull, frustrating pain... . About 4 months ago I invited a few friends up to the cottage for some fun in the sun. A friend there who I've known for a long time but never really knew, you know? had overheard me complaining about my back pain. He offered me a 2 Percocets. I took them because I was looking for any chance of reliefs I could find.
Snap! Hooked on them. The pain just fluttered away! I felt lifted! Anew, reborn! OK, so now I'm excited. There is a medication out there that works the way I want it. So I talk to my doctor he tells me ''Percocets just mask the pain, they don't solve it or cure it, It's just a coverup''. So at this point I'm like F you, obviously you don't know **** about how I'm feeling.....Maybe he was Right.
Now here I am, 4 months later.. Miserable....broke...on the verge of loosing my girlfriend of 10 years......spent the money I was gonna use on her ring to buy percocets on the street at $4 a piece. 50 of them might've lasted me 4 days if I was lucky.(I take my last 2 percs now 9:30am) So I go to the doctor yesterday(10:40am), hoping to get some perks cause I was all out and couldnt get some until this friday.
(I don't mention my addiction to percocets). He gives me Naproxen 500mg. An anti-inflammatory!!! . So whatever I get home and down 2 of these take only every 12 hours pills(2:00pm). Nothing.... (5:00pm 4 tylenol and 1 more naproxen) Start feeling really weird, got a little sweat goin on. My gf's got her friends over watching teen mom and reruns of real housewives.
(10:00pm) Whoa! cant sleep....moving allover the place like the girl from the excorsist.....drink water pee...water..pee...1 hour of sleep (I swear i just blacked out). Got the sweats.....Hot....cold....cold....hot.....cold.....hot...cold....pee.....twitch....
It was horrible called in sick today, finally told my girlfriend about the percs and also the $3000.00 debt I've been trying to hide....and she cries? asks me why I didnt tell her sooner, She's so upset that I didn't come to her for help before this got the way it is. Doesn't even care about the money.....wow she's amazing!
Now here I am 9:17am. (Had to pause writing a few times as it seems my intestines are flushing themselves.) Writing here on this blog, spilling my soul. It feels good! I feel more alive now than before! (getting all tearry eyed now..)
My names Andy and I quit percocets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(whoa full on waterworks for me there......lol)
Please don't hate or try and bring me down I only wrote this to get it off my chest and out in the air. I feel good....
I'm new to this whole outreach for advice thing. I'm just gonna start off by telling you a little about my situation.
For as long as I can remember I have had a constant pain in my mid to lowerback area. I've seen doctors and chiropractors to try and get this problem fixed. Nothing, my doctor about 6 years ago just told me to read about pain and how it can be "in your head". So taking the docs advice, I read. I learned alot about the spine and the surrounding muscles.
So since learning all that information I have started working out, doing stretches, friggin even done Hot yoga a bunch of times. It all made my back feel great! for about an hour.....then back to the constant, dull, frustrating pain... . About 4 months ago I invited a few friends up to the cottage for some fun in the sun. A friend there who I've known for a long time but never really knew, you know? had overheard me complaining about my back pain. He offered me a 2 Percocets. I took them because I was looking for any chance of reliefs I could find.
Snap! Hooked on them. The pain just fluttered away! I felt lifted! Anew, reborn! OK, so now Im excited. There is a medication out there that works the way I want it. So I talk to my doctor he tells me Hi everyone,
I'm new to this whole outreach for advice thing. I'm just gonna start off by telling you a little about my situation.
For as long as I can remember I have had a constant pain in my mid to lowerback area. I've seen doctors and chiropractors to try and get this problem fixed. Nothing, my doctor about 6 years ago just told me to read about pain and how it can be "in your head". So taking the docs advice, I read. I learned alot about the spine and the surrounding muscles.
So since learning all that information I have started working out, doing stretches, friggin even done Hot yoga a bunch of times. It all made my back feel great! for about an hour.....then back to the constant, dull, frustrating pain... . About 4 months ago I invited a few friends up to the cottage for some fun in the sun. A friend there who I've known for a long time but never really knew, you know? had overheard me complaining about my back pain. He offered me a 2 Percocets. I took them because I was looking for any chance of reliefs I could find.
Snap! Hooked on them. The pain just fluttered away! I felt lifted! Anew, reborn! OK, so now I'm excited. There is a medication out there that works the way I want it. So I talk to my doctor he tells me ''Percocets just mask the pain, they don't solve it or cure it, It's just a coverup''. So at this point I'm like F you, obviously you don't know **** about how I'm feeling.....Maybe he was Right.
Now here I am, 4 months later.. Miserable....broke...on the verge of loosing my girlfriend of 10 years......spent the money I was gonna use on her ring to buy percocets on the street at $4 a piece. 50 of them might've lasted me 4 days if I was lucky.(I take my last 2 percs now 9:30am) So I go to the doctor yesterday(10:40am), hoping to get some perks cause I was all out and couldnt get some until this friday.
(I don't mention my addiction to percocets). He gives me Naproxen 500mg. An anti-inflammatory!!! . So whatever I get home and down 2 of these take only every 12 hours pills(2:00pm). Nothing.... (5:00pm 4 tylenol and 1 more naproxen) Start feeling really weird, got a little sweat goin on. My gf's got her friends over watching teen mom and reruns of real housewives.
(10:00pm) Whoa! cant sleep....moving allover the place like the girl from the excorsist.....drink water pee...water..pee...1 hour of sleep (I swear i just blacked out). Got the sweats.....Hot....cold....cold....hot.....cold.....hot...cold....pee.....twitch....
It was horrible called in sick today, finally told my girlfriend about the percs and also the $3000.00 debt I've been trying to hide....and she cries? asks me why I didnt tell her sooner, She's so upset that I didn't come to her for help before this got the way it is. Doesn't even care about the money.....wow she's amazing!
Now here I am 9:17am. (Had to pause writing a few times as it seems my intestines are flushing themselves.) Writing here on this blog, spilling my soul. It feels good! I feel more alive now than before! (getting all tearry eyed now..)
My names Andy and I quit percocets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(whoa full on waterworks for me there......lol)
Please don't hate or try and bring me down I only wrote this to get it off my chest and out in the air. I feel good....
Waiting - Green Day, I won't Back Down -- Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers, I see the Light -- Cracker, Back in Black AC/DC, I Won't Let Me -- The Descendents (perfect detox song!)
And just to add ^^^^^ I havent taken for 4-5 since i started this. I have my mind set I HAVE to quit I want things...Marriage...Kids... all that good stuff. ****...as I'm typing this I see ads below here talking about weed for glaucoma...I haven't smoked weed in forever damn.. There are a few songs I've been listening to that have helped put me in a good mind state when I'm really urging for a fix.
Wake me up - Avicii ft. Aloe Blacc
Weighty Ghost - Wintersleep
Please suggest some more...they hit me hard right now. And sorry for all the ...... they seem to make things easier?
Wake me up - Avicii ft. Aloe Blacc
Weighty Ghost - Wintersleep
Please suggest some more...they hit me hard right now. And sorry for all the ...... they seem to make things easier?
Whoa Whoa....Whoa. That's alot at the current moment. I'm going from 10+ a day down to 4-5. So it's hard. I took 2 this morning at 8am. Had the sweats and shakes and head crap at around 1pm. Took 1 that my gf hid at about 2:30pm. Felt good, had to go to talk to my dad.....
Tells him drugs arent the reality, family is reality, you dont need drugs. I hate it when he's right.. So here I am 9:15pm...drunk..cause thats how my dad rolls.(not an alcoholic, just loves life). and I'm not jonesing for another pill.
Let's be clear though, I wont use alcohol as a supressive of my problem. I rarely RARELY drink. Just at this current moment, it's working. Sorry for the all the misspelling above and after.
As far as the zero thing(EvolverU) I am highly considering it. I want this. I need this. I don't want this to be my life. My dad was in shock that I would be so stupid to even let this happen. Made me feel terrible....
This is Andy....I'm trying...
Tells him drugs arent the reality, family is reality, you dont need drugs. I hate it when he's right.. So here I am 9:15pm...drunk..cause thats how my dad rolls.(not an alcoholic, just loves life). and I'm not jonesing for another pill.
Let's be clear though, I wont use alcohol as a supressive of my problem. I rarely RARELY drink. Just at this current moment, it's working. Sorry for the all the misspelling above and after.
As far as the zero thing(EvolverU) I am highly considering it. I want this. I need this. I don't want this to be my life. My dad was in shock that I would be so stupid to even let this happen. Made me feel terrible....
This is Andy....I'm trying...
Hi Andy, Thanks for coming back on & sharing that with us!
My question for you is this: 'How did you get a hold of the pill early? Did your girlfriend give it to you? I mean what's your plan, here? Your actual taper schedule?...Look, The sweats & discomfort that you're experiencing are only for 4 or 5 days (or so.. With your dose & time in, I'd just bite the bullet. I'd wager that this is going to be a lot easier for you than it is for others. What I'm saying is that a long taper will most likely be more uncomfortable than simply doing it. I mean, you don't really start to heal until you get to zero anyway.
Please, don't beat yourself up over 'caving'. We've all relapsed -- most of us multiple times. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off & get back on track, my friend.
My question for you is this: 'How did you get a hold of the pill early? Did your girlfriend give it to you? I mean what's your plan, here? Your actual taper schedule?...Look, The sweats & discomfort that you're experiencing are only for 4 or 5 days (or so.. With your dose & time in, I'd just bite the bullet. I'd wager that this is going to be a lot easier for you than it is for others. What I'm saying is that a long taper will most likely be more uncomfortable than simply doing it. I mean, you don't really start to heal until you get to zero anyway.
Please, don't beat yourself up over 'caving'. We've all relapsed -- most of us multiple times. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off & get back on track, my friend.
2:30pm Caved......so disappointed. Taking 1 now. just to ease the sweats and shakes.
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