Quiting...again.

[lanka0305]

I have been one of the lurkers on here for about 9 months.  Long story short I have been addicted on and off to narcotics for about 4 years.  The past year has been the worst, taking pills every day.  I have gotten myself up to 300mg. plus some of the time.  Most of the time it is anywhere between 100 to 200mg. a day of oxycodone or hydrocodone.  I started taking them legally but the high made me want them all the time so of course I had to find other sources for them.  Right now I plan to do taper because I am to the point that the high is gone and I am destroying my liver, stomach, kidneys, etc. trying to find it.  My plan is today to take only 40mg. of hydro, which is what I have, and then tonight take 1mg. of Xanax to sleep.  Tomorrow I will go as long as I can and then take tomorrow's dose.  I know that I have tried taper before and never succeeded, so I hope this time with the stomach pains and tasting blood every now and then I will be able to do it.  I will be reading here this weekend and get as much info. as I can.  I pray for everyone on here who is going through withdrawals cause it ain't easy!

[NautyOne]

dang i hate censorship

[ochooked]

Good luck.  It sounds like you may be serious about getting clean --- Listen to Mimi above  -- she is right - - you NEED someone to help you when you may not be as strong or when the WD's hit hard.  Get help.  All the best.

[Sunnyd210]

have to spoken to ur dr about wanting to get off them?

[mimi1313]

Tapering is hard and can be done but you have to be so determined. I tapered and I'm 233 days clean. If you can get someone to hold them for you, that would be best. IF not post your taper plan on here to hold your self accountable. Start taking vitamins and any aminos that you can now. Double your multi vitamins. Drink gatorade and ensure if you can't eat. And everytime you crave, think about the tasting of blood and stomach pains. I hope that will deter you. I'm here if you need anything.

Good luck,
melissa

[diane001]

iwent cold turkey off of lortab sun and c/t off xanax yest. although i only had half a pill a day of xanax since sun. i feel bad. but i have good intentions w/ every script and it never works. good luck

[sleeplessinWilm]

Tapering is hard for any of us here. I tried it and failed. I went cold turkey 2 weeks ago. It was rough BUT you can do it! Get yourself in the right frame of mind to want it really bad. Believe in yourself and celebrate the small victories along the way. You will feel rotten BUT it passes!!!
You can do it!!!