day 11 am i expecting too much?

[Pjtwenty]

It seems the physical side of things is almost gone. I still sneeze some and at night the rls, though lastnight was the first night it wasn't too bad.
Slept well considering, not great but went to bed at 11:30 up at 7:15 this was with several wake ups tthrough out the night.
My problem is my anxiety and depression. Why it's still here?  It's gotten better, I think. I've had some good times but the anxiety is like a ghost I keep seeing out of the corner of my eyes, until it shows itself. Then it's on. Granted I don't think it is as severe.
I keep comparing the wds to opiates instead of kratom. Maybe that's my problem.
I had such a great night Sunday and yesterday morning I thought I was out of the dark.
I guess once all my physical symptoms are gone the mental will follow?

[addiction777]

See I find the getting high is what has kept me bored, never wanting to play golf like I love, my sax laid untouched for years along with my piano and guitar! I lost all my toys like my sport bike ! sports car and dirt bike!! Already just listening to music load and often keeps me less bored than getting high and avoiding all my friends to get high all over again!! it's sad cause the first month getting off your brain thinks the way u are , that u will be bored being clean but really once you acually get over it totally , u won't think that anymore ! stay strong keep pushing and u will see what I mean !!!

[Pjtwenty]

I think I had a small revealation about my anxiety. It's because a fear of the impending boredom of not being high. This is a good realization and scary. Scary cause of possible relapse potential.

[addiction777]

The anxiety is normal with detoxing from anything ! I think my anxiety got worse threw  the first couple weeks coming off opiates ! Never had panic attacks though! My anxiety much better at 4 weeks now , takes time before I'm completely normal again!

[Pjtwenty]

Thanks man!  I'm in my head too much I guess. Today f2f does feel less anxious but anxious still. Ahhhhhhhhhh. =-O

[ImAfrayedKnot]

Well I also suffer from panic attacks.  I get to thinking in actually about to die. My heart races and I can't breathe. I feeel like I'm having a heart attack. I take klonopin for it but I'm not addicted to the benzos.  I only take thom when I have to. I hope it gets better for you bro. Keep your head up and remember that it will get beter.... have a great day and ill say a prayer for you. Much love
   Shawn

[Pjtwenty]

Yes. I have always battled panic attacks. Since I was 7 I remember my first one. Those were more feelings of not being able to breathe etc. This is in my head. It feels like my brain is running in circles.
The reason it is so bothersome is I didn't experience this as bad coming off opiates, this time kratom. I swear by 11 days I was almost golden. Also having such a great moment Sunday and now back to this again.

[ImAfrayedKnot]

Have you ever had panic or anxiety disorders before detoxing?  It is also a very hard thing to deal with on its on. So an addict in detox that already has a panic or anxiety disorder is like throwing fuel to the fire. I am on 2mg klonopin for panic attacks.  So I know when I start to fully detox  its gone be a mental battle like I've never experienced.

[Pjtwenty]

My wife told me just a few minutes ago she can tell a difference in my anxiety. I'm trusting her opinion. She knows me well too so I guess I'm getting better.

[dominosarah]

Recovery is a slow process.  It takes awhile for our body to heal and adjust.  It isnt used to working on its own.  Our brain needs healing too as it is also confused on what to do.  We numbed everything up so we have to learn "patience"(something i still work on mind you!) while our body is figuring stuff out drug free also.  Go for a walk today, sit in the sun for a bit, turn on the music, look around at all you have to be grateful for.  You have been given a 2nd chance, take it and run~