Two222

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hey, wouldnt it be worth it to you if your boyfriend could take some time off from work for you, you need help with this, and no one should HAVE to do this alone,  nevermind the bills and all the other SMALL stuff (dont sweat the small stuff), put yourself first and ask him to help you so you dont fail or feel like a failure...do not feel guilty about needing help...even if you had to pay someone to take her for a couple of hours a day would be helpful, you have got to do something....i really think you have alot going on and you need some support and help, which seems like you arent getting any of...K?  i'm on my way...just kidding...i wish i could come help...i know how difficult it is, really i do.  maybe this will make you feel better...the first day i started suboxone it put me into precipitated withdrawls...which is like putting 2 weeks worth of withdrawals into 1 day...i really thought i was on deaths doorstep...i had all 3 of my boys here with me alone!!! my husband was working out of town...i was soooo sick i was running around the house..in a complete frenzy,  my skin felt like it was burning from the inside out...definately one of the worst days i ever had!!!  nevermind my oldest son is handicapped and mentally challenged...it was just awful...so look at it this way...be extremely thankful your only dealing with 1 right now.   (did that help?)   LOL! takecare of yourself...chat later   XXXOOO

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you dont have any family that can help/support you? really no one to take the baby for you for a few hours a day?  what about friends (trustworthy of course)   i am sorry...i promise you if i lived closer i would help you.....keep in touch and keep posting, you know you have support here...

[Two222]

Thanks for your comments. I am thankful that I only have one baby to take care of, cause i don't know what I would do with three. I really wish I didn't have to sweat the small stuff, but in our case I have no choice. My boyfriend cannot take time off work or else he will lose his job. We have absolutely not one cent of money saved and about 40 bucks in our pocket. So taking time off work is the last thing we could do, and I couldn't even think of paying someone to watch the baby. If I had the money I would. You are right. I do not have any support what so ever, so I really need to start going to meetings more often. It's just really hard for me to reach out and ask for help from strangers. I always just sit there, be quiet, and leave as soon as the meeting is over. I just wish I could be braver. Thank you so much.