Feeling so guilty

[SerenB]

I was in an elevator accident at work about 2 years ago and tried so many different pain meds for facet syndrom and bad disc in my back.  The doctors first started me on morphine, ultram, celebrex and so on - they were all horrible. After I refused to get the nerves in my neck burned, the doctor said there is nothing else I can do for you and put me at MMI. I ended up going to my PC and was prescribed Norco 10/325 and Soma 325. It has been almost a year and I have gradually gone up on how many I take a day (went from 6 up to 12 or so).  To my surprise I found out on May 26th 2010 that I was 4 week 4 days pregnant and immediatly stopped taking Lexepro. I am now 8 weeks and have gone down to 4 Norco per day and went cold turkey on the Soma.  My PC wanted me to just quit taking them and supplement with Benadryl.  I couldn't handle the double wammy of pain and withdrawals. (The Lexepro withdrawals were enough to go nuts).  I ended up calling an OBGYN who works with high risk pregnancies.He suggested not doing the cold turkey thing. I called my PC and asked her to drop me down down to Norco 500/325 two times a day. I have had some withdrawals from lowering my dose. I can't get to the 2 prescribed I still take 4 per day even though the dose is lower. I feel so guilty that I am in pain and have withdrawals. I can't function and take care of my wonderful 5 year old without the help of pain meds. Its amazing how easy it is to become a prisoner (my first pregancy was wonderful. I was so against any kind of medication, that I even passed kidney stones at 8 months pregnant with dothing for pain.  Definitly don't feel like the hero now.  I see the OBGYN and pain management tomorrow. Is there anyone else that has had  this happen? I know not everyone is the same and the best thing to do is talk to the doctor but I feel so alone and guilty for still taking 4 Norco.

[mellie4]

I hope you can do well with this and wean off.  You're not alone.  There are many women this happens to.  You can do it.  Get the doctor to help you and keep coming here for support.

[sway1]

the closest i came was my second pregnancy. i was addicted to heroin and went to the high risk ob/gyn who had me wean myself down. he was so kind to me. i can only imagine what you are going through. you will be in my prayers. keep us posted on your situation. peace, sway