Really down

[Punkprincess77]

Today I am 12 days clean of methadone and 7 no oxy... Today has been a real struggle I feel horrible. Today has been the worst yet. I'm exhausted my body aches I have hot and cold flashes yet I'm constantly freezing no matter what I do. Terrible headaches that last all day and night. Feeling really close to my breaking point. I hope it doesn't last too much longer I don't think I can last if it does.

[Punkprincess777]

Hey guys made it another day.. Day 33 ..Eye is slowing getting better and so is my cold .. I figure in a another day or 2 I'll be out of the woods with that .. Then I can see how I really feel. I don't crave any pills or have any desire to use again. So that is a blessing.

[Punkprincess777]

Hey guys still here .. 32 days clean no methadone. It's been a rough week the flu and pink eye has really wore me down .. I went back to the doctor to get more antibiotics. I feel like train hit me.. I'm freezing hot/cold goosebumps .. Severe headaches .. A lot of restlessness and still can't sleep. I'm pretty sure a lot of that has to do with the flu. I can't wait for that to be gone so I can actually get a accurate feel on how I really feel. I've talked a little bit about aftercare on here not much I've tried NA .. Just not my cup of tea .. 3 times a week I go see a private counselor with 1:1 sessions .. That helps tremendously. Hoping everyone is well.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl  where did you go ???/ are you ok???  please post  to let us know how it is going................Gnarly...........................

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl  congrats on a month clean!!!! im so happy to here this is finly letting up for you.....people need to read a post like this  just to see how evil a drug methadone is and just what it takes to kick it....recovery comes in baby steps sleep will come and go and the ''energy crash'' lingers around for a wile  just know this drug is very cyclic and the stuff seeps into your fatty tissues and bones and slowly leaches out  it is truly the gift from he ll that keeps on giving  your doing ausum and you have fought a good fight   the brain fog will lift and you will soon realize just what this drug has been doing to you  there is one critical part of recovery I haven heard you talking about yet and that is aftercare....long after the drugs stop your still left with the addict in your head  as always I recamend the N/A program  it is free the meetings are only a hour long and it will give you the skills to stay clean  please dont try to skip this step   you dont want to have to ever do this over  keep posting for support
...............................Gnarly............................................

[Punkprincess777]

And tomorrow marks 28 days or 4 weeks! Clean of methadone! Such a blessing to be saying that.

[Punkprincess777]

Thanks Vickie.. I actually have a box of emergency c in my cabinet .. Not sure why I didn't think of using it earlier.. I think with withdrawals lingering and now being sick my brain is still slow and bit foggy .. But it's getting better everyday. I can tell that little corners are being turned .. There's no way that 1 week ago would I of had enough energy to call a doctor .. Make a appointment for my eye.. Get ready .. Go to the appointment .. Then go to  the pharmacy for my antibiotic drops and get that all done in one day. I even did a bit of shopping and picked up some much needed groceries and the whey protein drink gnarly suggested.. I know some people might see that as pretty easy tasks ..but getting that done today was a accomplishment. Feeling pretty good about that :)