Rough Day

[Pat1956100]

Wow this was a rough one.  Started out so lazy and bitchy.  ImDone made me go for a walk which I did and the fresh air felt so good but it was cold.
I feel like I have to accomplish something around this house every day so I did a few things, laundry, dishes, made supper.  I had to rest and that's when the anxiety set it.  I had been having cravings all day but wow they hit hard all of a sudden.  My body was screaming for pills.  I had to jump up and do something. I couldn't sit still.
It did pass and I felt so much better.  Kind of like having an aching tooth pulled.  Just relief.  I don't know what to expect from here but I really feel like I weathered a storm today.  It's day 8 or 9 so it has to get better, right?

[notordinary]

I'm so Sorry to hear you had a bad day pat.
You know the right things to do.
You are staying busy and keeping your mind off of it.
I posted a song that has helped me the last few days, it's on my post.
Go cut and paste it. If you like. I just wanted to share it with you. I have an idea you know the song.
You know the paradox of life is that we only live it going forward and understand it,  looking back, if at all
Hey that might be a good post topic????  Lol. Sorry. Thought u could use a laugh.  ((Hugs))).

[Pat1956100]

Thanks hun, I will check it out now.
Thanks for your support.

[notordinary]

Thank you.  And you are very welcome. If there is anything u need, if i can help u you know i will.

[Sonrissa]

That darned ImDONE for making you go for a walk!

The very good news is that you made it through the day! I know how tough it was! They won't all be like this! Better days are ahead! The other good news is that when the next bad day comes, you will know that you can make it through it! Time to relax now and do something you like! Watch a good movie, read, whatever! Be happy that the day is over!

The bad news? My toilet is plugged up and it's Thanksgiving weekend! Do you know how much it costs for a Plummer on Thanksgiving weekend? It will just have to stay clogged until at least Monday! I have to walk all the way upstairs on my broken toe/foot to tinkle!

[conhall]

I am glad you went for walk Pat :) that always helped me when I felt like I might you come out of my skin I walked and walked and where I live It was 115 outside soooo hot/humid ughhh it was miserable but I just walked better than sitting and making myself crazy and walking did work. I am glad you pushed through today and you accomplish something everyday You are Clean thats your accomplishment One day at time batGirl :)))

[dominosarah]

There will be days like this Pat but you did the right thing, you got busy and posted here.  The walk did you good.  Everyday you are getting better and we can see the improvements.  I am proud of you~

[Pat1956100]

Thanks so much
It's good to know, I am doing it right.  I really know what crawling out of your skin means now.  I wanted to take all my clothes off lmao.
Good thing I live alone.
What a horrible feelig and it came out of nowhere.  I just could not sit still.
I will be flying tonight bat ladies and it's nice and cold outside.
Like a Bat out of Hell.

[ImDONENoMore]

Yup.  Those first couple of weeks are ROUGH.  I also remember the major anxiety that would hit you like a ton of bricks, it does make you feel like you're going to lose it.....  it was all I could do to calm myself down.

Hot showers helped (temporarily of course) so there were some nights I took several showers to try and calm down.  But moving around seemed to work the best.  Release that pent up energy/anger (at least it was anger for me a lot of the time) by moving around.  Good work, Pat.  One more day under your belt means you're one day closer to feeling better.

[Pat1956100]

Wow it hit hard and fast.  I will try a shower next time too.  I folded laundry and made supper and did dishes.  It seemed to help.
If it didn't I was going to go for a walk, freezing or not.  What a horrible feeling. So glad it passed.  It brougt great relief when it did pass.
Totally exhausted now so hope I sleep well.

[ImDONENoMore]

i'm really proud of you today pat.  hope it's okay I say that?

[Pat1956100]

Yes it's okay.  It was rough and I like to hear that.  I just reacted and I'm glad I did the right things.  It's good to know.

[NowOrNever43]

I was bitchy today too! :) Of course it has to bet better :) So proud of you!!! Xoxox

[Brightfutureahead]

Pat...just wanted to say I think you're doing fabulous :)

[Teresa1717]

Im really glad you pulled yourself out of it today Pat without reaching for your crutch! the stress, anger and anxiety you had today, and the fact that you were able to handle it healthy (no pills) shows me how far you have come!! Im proud of you for getting out and walking. Im just plain proud of you :)

One more day under your belt!

[marycarmel]

I don't post all that much and was dependent versus addicted but went through a very long, nasty taper.  I didn't feel like myself for longer than i want to say.  I've been watching your posts and silently cheering you on.  So sorry you had such a rough day but I love that you just kept plowing through it ... and posting the good with the bad.  While helping you, you're helping so many others.  Hope today is a better day for you!  Bitterly cold here this morning though.

[SmokeyTheDog]

Hang in there Pat and stay strong, we have all been there OR are reading these posts and are so scared to go there. The journey to a truly happy life is now in reach. I am so proud of you and following your each step. XXXOOO

[Pat1956100]

Thanks everyone
I am sure today will be better.
It's cold 27 and they are calling for snow showers and it to be windy today.
I wonder if ImDone will let me off without going for a walk today?
I mean it's Sunday.  The Day of rest lol.
We shall see.
Fuzzy headed again and I do need to clear it and get some things done today.  Hoping for a better day and I don't feel miserable like yesterday.
What a battle though.  It takes so long to get your body back to normal.
Another day closer.  Yay me.  
thanks again for all the support.  It means so much and gives me strength.

[ImDONENoMore]

morning Pat..  ok well I think you know me well enough by now to know what I'm going to say to you?  lol..

But actually I'm going to sit back and see what YOU decide you should do today.  It's your turn today.  :)

[ImDONENoMore]

It's 29 degrees here today and I've been out twice already... now tell me, how annoying is that?  But I will admit, the posts that tell folks to keep moving during early detox used to tick me off more than any of the others... I'm pretty sure that meant I needed to get up and get moving... LOL!!

[ImDONENoMore]

How about we make a deal... you get something done this morning, and get some fresh air.  Then I'll give you the afternoon off to be as lazy as you want to be!  Deal?

[Pat1956100]

Well Good morning ImDone.
I will be bundling up and going for a walk today.  Maybe not right away, but I will go.  It seems like a lovely day for a walk and I am sure it will cure this fuzzy head of mine.
Thanks for asking.
I hate you , I mean I love you
Pat

[Pat1956100]

Deal

[ImDONENoMore]

haha - I hate you and I love you too!  Good girl, keep your word and you'll  have an entire afternoon to yourself!!  :)

[Teresa1717]

awwwww you guys are so sweet its giving me a toothache!!  LOL Geez, its this kind of affection that keeps me warm and fuzzy :)