Same person new thread, recovery......

[wantnormalagain]

I posted a new thread so th eold one would go archives, I am doing okay today, it was a hard morning but did what had to be done, did my chores, Grandma is comming, i am excited to see her now that i am clean, well recovering, i havent used in i think almost 2 weeks i lost track of time, but i still struggle some days over the last while, i think stress was a trigger, i have turned to food as a substitute, lol.. well mom hime baked goods anyways, and cookies. I know prob the the healthiest but better than what i was doing, I appreciate all the help and advise im gonna do this, i see the shrink Tuesday i will go through everything with her

[wantnormalagain]

I have been doing well, been clean and have kept it that way, I recently went to California with money saved from not using, Things on the ranch are hectic, its that time of year, mom is doing well and is happy i am back to my old self, I'm back up to 195, see my shrinks weekly still, but they help, I am still just friends with Christine, but we have talked about maybe trying again once i'm ready, life is looking up, Calgary Stampeed was a blast, except for all the royal horse crap,, had a good run, did the ranch proud, I know I should check in more often but i honestly am just busy, I hope everyone finds sobriety, life is so much better,,,,WE CAN DO IT....one day at a time

[wantnormalagain]

To: Tgtiffany also

   Thank-you very much, I honestly didnt know, and time does fly when your busy and dont have time to think about it. I will be keeping up with the shrinks for a few months, I'm not sure if they help but it gives me someone to talk to about diffrent things in relation to my cravings and my personal life. Life on the Ranch has been busy, we are one hand light for the next month, so I am extra busy and do not get time to think about my addiction or recovery.I have noticed my appetite has increased as well as my stamina, and energy. I feel good I am putting weight on. Some days the depression is still bad but i try to shrug it off as I can not find a reason to be depressed, I wont be on this weekend as I am going camping with Stephen and Christine for the long weekend, I hope everyone has a great weekend and does well with thier addictions/recovery.

[tgtiffany]

WOW!!!  30 days! YAY!  Time flies when you're sober ;) haha

[quitinoxys]

wantnormalagain--I just noticed you have been clean for 30 days so a big CONGRATS to you. You should be extermely proud of what you accomplished I know I am. So my friend Keep on Keepin on you are doing great. Just keep up with your aftercare as it will help you to stay sober for life. As far as the NA meeting you should find one that suits you so keep looking as it will help you immensly. God Bless---Rick

[wantnormalagain]

Morning

   I do find that, it is hard when I have a bad moment and no one understands how I feel, I haven't learned how to deal with that yet. I see the two shrinks, one is a substance abuse specialist, and Friday I asked her if she has ever done any drugs ever in her life and she said no, and all i could think is how is she telling me to survive this or give advise, everything she know she has read in a book, not saying she is dumb at all, but I doubt she understands how I feel in my mind.  I appreciate the advise, I did try one meeting and it seemed like everyone was simply talking about the days when they got high and such, I left craving more than I did when I went in, and maybe that was just that location I am not sure however it still left a bad taste in my mouth about NA, mom went to a meeting for people living with addicts, and she said she isn't going back, she said most of the ladies had given up or abandoned thier kids during the process and she isnt like that. Well off to get ready for the day, hope everyone has a great day, to those thinking about quiting, you CAN do it, just have patience and be ready, get what you can off the Thomas Recipe, and listen to those here, they have helped me greatly.

[gnarly_1]

HEY DUDE been following your post your doing good soon the good days will outway the bad days try to get involved with N/A OR A/A //////I think it will really help you this is hard to overcome I use a substance abuse conslor N/A and a couple of church groups for my aftercare and so far it is working you need to get involved with other people trying to get clean you can talk at N/A meetings to others like yourself it may help brig you more good days then bad the worst thing you can do is try to go threw thisby yourself or with people that dont understand if what your doing ant working change it up....Good luck and God bless......Gnarly