You need to talk with your counselor about this. You are not mentally unstable at all. Let them help you with this okay?
Lynn, I have had experiences similar to this especially when I was younger..I feel for you honey. Yes, talk to your counselor about this. Let me know if you would like me to share more....
Sharon
HI I often say our battle is not in the flesh but ageist the powers of darkness lynn read a bible b/4 you go to sleep and ask Jesus to protect you in my early Christianity we studied about demons and you are experiencing classic symptoms of them attacking you.....pray the blood of Jesus over you when this is happening they cannot stand up to his name I will pray for you also this is nothing to mess with and dont try and fight it in the flesh this is a spiritual problem and it satins las attempt to hold you in bondage good luck and God bless.......Gnarly
I have had this happen a lot of times,,esp when I was using still. I never could fall into a deep sleep. Now that I have been sober a while,,I have not noticed having an episode. I know exactly how scary this is,,,I dont see the hallucinations but I feel the weight and pressure and am trying sooo hard to move and wake up. Once I wake up though and get myself together I can go back to sleep with no issues. I agree too,,you need to talk to your counselor about this,,its a common disorder Ive heard. ~Bkitty
You are NOT mentally unstable!!
Lynn, I have had similar experiences. You are awake yet asleep. It is so real. I have even thought my husband came in and had a conversation with me. It happens to me about twice a month and has actually been going on since I was a child. It happens when I take a nap during the day for some reason, like my body just won't completely allow itself to truly go to sleep. I guess I never thought of it as any kind of disorder. I certainly don't relate it to using. I just thought that's how my body is and sort of just accepted it. I'm glad you posted about it. Thank you for sharing the article. It helps to know that I'm not the only one who has experienced this.
I'm literally stuk awake because I am too scared to sleep. It's no joke and I dont think it's right what's happening to me. I don't believe in demons but when this happens it's so real I just can't help but think that it is just that. I think I need to have god more involved in my daily routine in life. Because when this happens I see shadowy figures and I can tell they aren't there to just look. I feel them wanting to hurt me. I may sound totally insane bt the first night it happened on Wednesday the figure stood by my bed. I could see him but couldn't turn my head to look it even yell for help. So I prayed to god to help me wake up and with in a few seconds of praying I woke. Call me crazy but u think it's a sign that I need more of him in my life period. I've never ever been religious until I had my daughter and still not very much so. But he helped me thru that night and in Thursday night the hand that was over my face wanted to hurt me I could tell I felt massive annoys of pressure on my chest as if I was being restrained. And once again I said a prayed asking god to be with me and it was over. I know it's a medical thing happening and has explanations but I think it is happening to me to make me realize that I am not right with god at this very moment. And I do not know how to be. I want him in my life more and how do I go about this? I need it to help me thru this. I am going to talk to my counselor in the morning. Scariest thing to ever happen to me. I am going to sleep as soon as the sun rises. I just feel safer then. Sharlola can you please talk tome about your experience maybe it can help me a bit.
Did you experience this before? You may be right that it is a spiritual type of growing experience. I never had the fear part, just the paralysis and the merging of awake and sleep. Talk to your counselor about it. This may be an important part of your healing. Thinking of you,
Minn
Yes when I first used methadone it happened but I thought it was from the drug making me nodd off. And it was never this scary.
This used to happen to me. Since I no longer take xanax for sleep it seems to have largely stopped. This sounds strange but I found that it tended to happen if I fell asleep on my back, rather than my side. It is the scariest thing ever.
Don't know if it will help, but you might try varying your position. I completely understand being afraid to sleep. I used to have frequent panic attacks that occurred about an hour after I fell asleep. And then the sleep paralysis...
Hang in there, you are doing great. I read all your threads but rarely post. You are really brave and you will make it!
Hi Lynn I had this exact same thing before.I was right in the middle of heavy using when this would happen.I saw an above post saying it was satan trying to take me down. I have news for satan....I was doing a pretty good job of that all by myself at that time..lol I hope this passes for you and you get better soon. Hope you get a good nights sleep free of all of that creepy stuff tonight.
When do you see your counselor again?
Hi Lynn
I've had these types of dreams at various times in my life, the most frequent when I was having anxiety/panic issues. They scared the hell out of me. I'm not going to write the details here - it would be a really long post! But suffice it to say, alot of what you dreamt is similar to my own dreams. PM me if you want. Talk to a counselor there - I talked to my doctor about it - the psych - who understood them very well, so it eased my mind a bit.
Well wishes,
Sandy :)
OMG That has happened to me alot! and i seen the same shadow person it looked like the grim reeper or death whatever that man in black is and your muscles are stuck you can hear and feel u just cant move! i thought it was a warning that i wasnt living right. i thought i was crazy but i do know how u feel its been years since its happened to me and i didnt do anything to stop it! are you sleeping on ur stomach when this happens?
Lynn I agree with you about getting some help from God. Pray before bed,
and read and sleep with a bible. I would strongly recommend saying the Lord's prayer as often as necessary. I believe that we are spiritually sick as
well as physically and emotionally. I've had what you're experiencing happen to me. I thought it was DT's as I had been drinking for several years every day and abruptly stopped. It was sheer terror and even though it happened 15 years ago, i remember everything about the room, the furniture, etc.
I Prayed, and I was also terrified to go to sleep. I laid down on the couch
(I didn't want to go back to that room!) and slept with a bible in my arms.
God can and will help us if we ask.
This happens to me more often than I would like and since it has been going on so long I am not as scared as I was in the beginning. I learned it is a form of sleep paralysis and since I accepted that I am not as frightened. Don't get me wrong, it still scares me but putting a name to it has helped.
I do not feel, or ever will feel it necessary to bath in holy water and cast the demons out before bed. I do not believe it is the devil at work. Really!
For your own peace of mind hun, please speak with your counselor. I know it is easy for me to say but try not to be scared. Your counselor may be able to help you with some techniques before bed that may help you. I am sure you now have anxiety about sleeping. Let us know what the counselor says and please hang in there. It will be okay.
I also do not believe that there is anything supernatural at work here.I was studying something about alien abduction theory and this guy took all of these electrodes and attatched them to a motorcycle helmet and he called it an "abduction helmet" because when you put it on it would throw your brain into that half sleep state and then the figures would enter the room and you feel the fear and are paralyzed.It was really crazy watching these people wear that thing and describe their experience.It depends upon your psyche what you see during this half sleep state.Some people see demonic figures,some see aliens,others just see shadows and so forth.
Lynn, I was 16 when it first happened. I awoke in the middle of the night and saw a shadowy fugure watching me from the corner of my room..scared me to death. I quickly turned around to turn the light on, spun back around and it was gone. A few weeks later I was sleeping, opened my eyes and there it was again about one inch in front of my face staring at me. Again I spun around to turn the light on, turned back around and it was gone. Similar instances occured throughout high school. There were a few at college as well. I have not seen the figure for over 15 years now, but there are still nights where I am afraid to go to sleep. I know what you are going through. We can talk more about this, I can message you or vice versa. Sharon :)
Wow, this happens to a lot more people than I thought! Lynn, this happened to me too but as a child so I never associated it with using either. Once I actually started walking to the bathroom and ended up on the floor. I don't know how I even got on the floor but it felt like something was holding my chest down so I couldn't get up and i could barely move. Yes, it is terrifying and I totally get how scared you are. Nothing has happened to me in a very long time, but I am still very anxious about going to sleep when no one else is in the house and I've stayed awake until the sun comes up as well because I feel safer. I feel like an idiot and never told anyone that because I was afraid being called crazy too. I truly don't think there's anything supernatural about it but I'm still terrified that something will happen that I can't handle. Fear of the unknown I think. Yes, talk to your counselor, I'm sure they will be able to ease your fears some by helping you understand it more. You are strong enough to handle anything that comes your way. Good luck and I hope you get to sleep peacefully soon.
That's wild! I have never even heard of that until now. And to think so many of you have experienced it. I can't even imagine it. Is this like being awake with your eyes open as normal but you can't move or react but you are cognizant of everything happening around you? But what's happening around you is not even real? So you are living in your dream, in a sense. Or if someone did walk into the room for real would you see them? Sorry i am just trying to understand this. I will try to look it up online. And Lynn....I think you are doing a fantastic job! Keep it up! And I'd definately speak to your counsellor about this.
For me, it's like living in the dream. It is also like, I think that it is time to wake up, but I can't move.
It never felt like a dream to me. I'm not sure what it was. It felt real enough to scare me to death and carry it with me all these years later. I might mention this all happened long before I started using.
What I meant about living in the dream is that events that didn't happen seemed very real. It is like I am awake yet asleep. On more than one occasion I thought my husband came in and talked to me or that I heard people downstairs but we didn't have any company. I would see the bedroom exactly as it is except there would be someone there. For me, it usually happens if I take a nap during the day. I haven't had it happen at night in years. It started years ago when I was a kid.
yes this happened to me even before I became a big drughead and alky.
The body is normally paralyzed during sleep but something gets off kilter and the brain paralyzes the body and you are halfway between asleep and not so to you it feels as though you are lying in bed and looking around but you are really ni a dream state.Usually auditory disturbances accompany this and a really deep profound sense of another presence in the room.I really believe this is a remnant left over from our cave man days where we had to be on our toes and semi alert at all times. It is really surprising how much of those cave man instincts affect our modern lives.
No matter the reason it is very scary when it happens.I used to think I was awake the whole time but I came to believe after really examining it after a few times of it happening I realized that my eyes were only open at the very end and by then I was in such a panic that the state jumbled the timeline of events when it was actually an awake dream that was taking place in my bedroom.It is reall a scary thing though and bizarre trick of the mind.