Source won't leave me alone

[uphill7584]

So i have been clean for 3 days and want to keep going, but my "source" keeps bothering me about what he has to offer. I want to stay clean, and the withdrawls haven't even felt that bad. I am doing really good. But getting those kinds of calls is really overwhelming. Should I change my phone number. We know a lot of the same people, so I doubt that will do much. Has anyone experienced a problem like this...how did you handle it. I have made it really clear that I am no longer interested, but he keeps calling just to "let me know" what he's got. Its like he is taunting me. I have stopped answering and dont listen to the messages, but just seeing the phone number pisses me off and gives me cravings.

[wickedwanderer]

ignore those calls!  i gave up my cell phone for like 3-4 months while trying to get clean so that my source could not contact me.  he finally got the point after such a long period of time.  distance yourself from people that use (and sell!).  

i know how you are feeling about the friendship issue.  i think you will find that drug-free relationships are much more fulfilling.  if your "buddies" are really buddies, they will support you and respect your decision to get clean.  plus, you're going to NA.  lots of people there.  i know i met people in treatment and at 3 different NA groups.  not that we're best friends or anything, but you know what i mean.  

[bettie1976]

I have that SAME EXACT problem. My "source" was my ex who would have me do "things" to get the pills. I saw him yesterday while I was driving and then he called me. He is a HUGE trigger for me cuz its sooooo freakin easy to just go humiliate myself for ten minutes and then get high but I told him I needed to cut ties with anyone I associated drugs with. He then asked me 5 more times (in different ways) to get me to come over. I still said NO. First thing I told the counselor in detox was that I was changing my number (yet again) to get away from his calls (and my cravings) so NO, its not only you going thru this. Hang in there.

[narc-vet]

I can commiserate, but I don't feel pity.  Leaving yourself an excuse means just that, and all of us have excuses why we pick-up, right?  

Time for excuses is over...

[desertgirl]

unplug your phone so you can't even see the caller id, lock your doors too. sounds like they are just jealous of you for being so strong, and they want you back under thier control.

[awakan]

And good move with the N.A. My friend you will get good support, hang in their you WILL make it...a-wakan

[awakan]

You know what uphill you will find that the people who are really your friends will hang with you and not bring that stuff around out of respect . And out of the same respect they will stay away when they are obviously loaded...AAnd you will be the first friend they will turn to for advice on how to get help when they are ready, you will see this you will be respected for your stand...a-wakan

[uphill7584]

******* just called from one of my friends phone literally 2 minutes ago. *****. man i let him have it. not as ballsy as you awakan, but i dont think he will be buggin me anymore. its a shame though...when you do drugs with your friends for so long then you quit, you find out what really matters to certain people. i got a feeling i am going to be losing a lot of close buddies over this. but in the haze of opiates who the hell knows how close you are to people. oh well...hopefully this bs is over with. i am heading to my first NA meeting tonight. hoping it is helpful. thanks to all for listening and responses.

[awakan]

Uphill I know exactly how you feel when I quit heroin some years ago I got so mad at the connection for dropping by to offer me a taste, that. I finally went off my nut and with shotgun in hand asked him how important my business was to him, certainly not worth dying over, he realized at that point I was dead f**king serious about my recovery. And no more was ever said nor did I see him again...I would not suggest doing that but you have to realize this is life and death for some. I was so far down and did not care anymore if he would have shot me it would not have mattered. You need to tell your "source" that he needs to seriously lose your phone number and sell his misery somewhere else..You know what the right words are you know this person..a-wakan

[PrettyIs]

I know what your sayin, my friends kept hittin me up to hook them uo even after I was clean for like 10 days. I just told them to stop. I wasn't gonna do it antmore. If they were they had to hook it up themselves....Just either tell your guy you know he is used to makin $$ off you, but its over. Your done. You have been diagnosed with cancer or somethin.... who cares if its a lie....if it will make him quit calllin you, than its worth it. Besides who cares what he wants anyway, he only wants to hook you back up to make more money. Thats his bottom line.You are doing GREAT!!!! I know how hard your working!!! And to have someone keep puttin it in your face is torture!!!!   Maybe you could just leave the phone off the hook????  I hope he quits callin ya :)   Sarah

[Two222]

This is one of your tests. It always seems to happen after you get clean. if they won't listen to you when you tell them you are no longer interested, tell them you will call the cops if they do not stop calling you about it. If you really want to stay clean you got to do whatever you need to do, even if that means threatening them. You are no longer using so there is no reason to fear the cops if you do have to get them involved. If you must...change your number even. Or block their number completely.