Stealing pills from neighbor

I know many of you have faced something similar to this, but I have an elderly person who lives across the street from me, and has a large supply of vicoden.  I have cut off all other sources of the pill (told my doc, been red flagged at ER, won't associate with friends who use) so this is my last source.  Why do I find excuses to go over there?  I have gone 3 months, 4 months, 1 month without using, so I now I can do it.  Why does this keep coming up?  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated, as I am also worried that I will eventually be caught and lose everything.  Thank you for letting me vent.

[confused456]

Have you thought about telling your neighbor that you are an addict and that you are aware they have meds. and that you are letting them know because you don't trust yourself? If you have cut off all other ties, maybe this would be something to consider.

[kim715]

I agree with the last post,you should tell your neighbor.Also aside from just cutting off your sources you should have some type of follow up plan. Putting down the pills is only the first hurdle,fixing what your addiction has done to your life is the next.Goodluck.

[untwisting]

That final step is so hard - for me anyway. If I give up my last "security source" it really means I've accepted that I can't control my addiction on my own. I would be careful about  telling your neighbor, though, make sure they will understand and can be trusted. If you are in NA or have a friend who knows your situation, could you confide in a sponsor or a friend you trust? When the urge hits, you can touch base with somebody before you pay a visit to your neighbor. If you visit, make sure to stay away from the area they keep their pills (don't use the bathroom when your there, stay away from her purse, etc. I think we need to be honest in our addiction, but not put ourselves in harms way (maybe I'm being hypervigilant). That's my 2 cents. Keep up the great work!    

[mr.lucky66]

I have done these sort of things (stealing pills) for years . Now I don't do it and think more about the stealing aspect that anything. How sleezy and sick is it to steaL someones medicine if you  aren't even suffering?. That's how I think about it now.

[poetrygirl1960]

Cutting off that very last source is really hard.  I am 2 months clean now and still haven't really cut that one off.  It's a doctor in a neighboring town, and he is actually friends of my parents.  Being in another town helps, but I'm sure you don't want to have to move away because your neighbor has vics.  I guess if you don't trust this neighbor enough to tell them you are an addict you have a moral obligation to them and yourself to stay away.  I don't mean to sound harsh but if you continue to steal their pills they're going to figure it out anyway, then you could be in a load of trouble.  Be well and keep off of those!