Hello, In short I was on subs for 4 years, kicked in 2008(using a quater of 8mg pill). Best couple months in the past 10 years. Long story short, I feel in with a bad crowd got readdicted to heroin, then went back on the subs for 9 months. I'm 6 weeks off, but I haven't been an angel. Off and on I have taken Xanax, Oxy about a week ago. This came after I had a seizure, and I sometimes take 10mg of percs, no more than 3 days in a row.They make me feel stupid. I'm not trying to get messed up, I'm trying to function and not get readdicted to anything. I'm trying to look for the chemical in subs that inhibits the desire to use. I know myself well enough that if I calm my mind down, I can deal with the menial withdrawl I still feel. My mind this time is really doing a number on me.
Any comments would be appreciated, and I wish nothing but the best for all of you!