A few questions

[Hopeless27]

Can anyone tell me what detox is like, how long it takes and, if possible how long until you feel NORMAL?  Ive been hooked to fentanyl, roxicodone, baclofen and zanaflex for about 10 years, and I dont know how much longer I can do this.

[dominosarah]

I am 47 and have been addicted to substances since my early teens.  I am now a little over 9 months clean.  I know you feel alone and think this is hopeless but it isnt.  You can take control of your life again and like Kim said the doors to many possibilities will open.  You dont have to surrender to a life you are used to living.  It is hard work and you can get to the other side of this.  Think how nice it will be to not be a prisoner to these pills anymore.  As Kim said, get mad, come out fighting as you are worth it.  We will be right beside you fighting with you..........sara

[kim715]

Well hon,our doc may be different,but our stories are probably pretty much the same.You're amongst a whole community of 'friends' here.We all relate to each other in one way or another.What you said to sara isn't true hon.I KNOW thats how you feel right now.I felt that way myself plenty of times.I'm 40 years old and I can't even remember most of my thirties,I know I closed a lot of doors and burned a lot of bridges though.Much like your screen name I felt hopeless,thought I had done too much damage to my life to ever repair it,but I was wrong sweetie,and you are too.It's NEVER hopeless and it's NEVER too late to take your life back and start living again,really living.Even after 11 months I'm still adjusting to taking on new things with a clean clear head and I struggle some times.Whats changed for me though is that I actually love myself again and I have faith in me,for years I hated the person staring back at me in the mirror.That person wasn't me though,not the 'real' me.Addiction does not define the person that I truly am deep inside,nor does it define you.Just because you feel as though you have lost control of your life right now doesn't mean you can't get it back.You're stronger then you think you are.Don't give in to it hon.Get mad,fight,take that control back.You can do it.Your life is worth fighting for.

[Hopeless27]

Sara I dont think thats possible. My old illness and addiction has ruined my life, but more importantly its ruined me.

[Hopeless27]

Thats great being clean for so long, im happy for you. And yeah it would be nice to talk to someone. Im  to tired to tell you the hole  story but I got sick, got hooked on oxy, then fentanyl, got better in late 07 but still getting high. I have no life and no friends, and ive gotten by for so many years alone, but now im having such a hard time I really really friend!!!

[dominosarah]

Hi and welcome to the forum.  I dont have any experience with some of the meds you listed either but wanted to let you know we are here to help you.  You can get your life back.     sara

[kim715]

Although I don't have any personal experience with the drugs your on,I'm an addict.My drug of choice was vicodin,which I have been free from for a little over 2 years.I got on methadone though and in I believe 2 days I will be 11 months clean from that.I'm here if you want to talk.We could talk here or send me a pm.You're not alone.

[Hopeless27]

Thanks, I really need some support right now, I dont have anyone to talk too.

[kim715]

Hi.I don't have any personal experience with the drugs that you mentioned,but there are plenty of people here that do.It's late and there are not many on right now,but just hang in there in a few hours more will be here and I'm sure someone will be able to help.This forum is a great place for help and support.I wish you all the best..Kim