Suicidal

[badshadow]

Last night the Anxiety was so overwhelming and I felt so stressed from lack of sleep, I became Suicidal and went to the ER.  

[badshadow]

Yep, he does.  The Chemical Dependency people aren't any better.

You know those stories you hear about Kaiser?  Well, some of them are true.  Some of the Dr.s are so whacky I wonder where they find them.

My so called "Pschiatrist" is really, a Dr. of Osteopathy, with a "Specialty in Prescribing Psych Meds."  A few years ago when I was having alot of trouble with Depression, HE asked ME what type of psyc med I wanted.  Yikes.

That's why I know I'm just going to have to go it solo, with my meetings and the support from all the great people here.

[laurel453]

this is what i was going to say, vicki.....wow !!

i don't know if they are helping you or what, bad... wish you have a good day today and have some rest from the anxiety...my best wishes!!

[vicki595]

Your psychiatrist uses GOOGLE as a reference for pharmaseutical information and reference?

Good Lord...

[badshadow]

Kaiser doesn't offer that, they didn't accept me into the program they have, and we don't have the money for private treatment.

Thank you Imccoy for the support though.  I know I will make it throgh this.  Actually, there are people here who have suffered worse than I have with this, it's just that my PTSD, and already having an Anxiety and Sleep Disorder is what's making it harder for me.

Also, to be honest, I'd much rather deal this from the comfort of my home with  my family here for support, than on a Hospital or Psych Ward where the Docs are calling the shots.

Not that all Dr.'s are bad, but I wasn't fully informed of all the side effects of this med or I'd have never tried it.  I also had alot of clean time before this, and I never abused the medication.

Just was in the unlucky 1 percent of people who have a certain reaction to this medicatiohn.

[lmccoy]

I don't know what to say. Your body sure is puting you through it. I think the only thing I can contribute it to let you know I'm here and reading your posts. Maybe a Chemical Dependency program run through a hospital would be more up to date on the problems you are experiencing. It sounds dangerous.

[badshadow]

Well, last night was a little rough.

My PC Dr. asked me if there was anything that made me sleep, and I told her Phenergan made me sleep, so she told me to take Phenergan at bedtime along with the Trazodone, and the 20mg of  Valium and .01 of Clonodine, which I did.  I slept for about 3 hours and woke up with that weird Andrenaline/Anxiety running through my body.  (I also took the 25mg of Seroquel.

So I've been up since 1:30, have a fair amount of Anxiety.

My Psychiatrist also called me again last night and said that after he had "Googled" Tramadol, he was wanting Chemcal Dependency to put me on Suboxone.  He said he read that was the treatment of choice for Tramadol Withdrawal Syndrome.

However, the LMFT, from Chemical Dependency had already called me and told me that they didn't want me in their Program.

I feel like a bad episode of the "Twilight Zone."

I don't know what I'll be doing today, but try to keep busy, go to a meeting, work on some projects, work on meditation, exercise.