DAY 6!!!

[Rupp86]

End of day 6.  Longest and first attempt in 4 years!  Happy Holidays!  Hope u all are good.  Be strong!!!    :)

                                                                    RUPP

[Rupp86]

Yah that's actually funny.  I spent like 150 dollars on clothes this last weekend.  Couldnt tell ya the last time i did that but i could name 100's of times when i'd spend that in a day or two on pills.

[TakingAction]

As far as the money goes, addiction doesnt seem compatible with this recession does it?  Yes, I spent a lot of money on pills too.  Funny how we wait for a pair of jeans to go on sale, but will spend our last penny on few hours of being high.  But I have to disagree with you.  The money is definately a factor, but not the worst part of this mess we have found ourselves in.  The prospect of being able to actually like my life again is absolutely priceless.  

Keep it up and remember that better days lie ahead.
Matt

[Rupp86]

i just spent 20 mins writing that only for it to loose connection when i tried to submit it.  :(  hahahaha oh well i'll write it later.

[Rupp86]

Thanx alot everyone!  The mind game is the hardest part about it all.  But i know if i didn't read on here daily and talk to the people that i do i would have slipped up already.  The ONLY garuntee in life is that there isn't any!!!  Just takin it day by day.  That's one thing i hated the most about the pills other than i spent $500 a week on it was that they always had such a hold of me.  Wherever i was goin if i was gonna be away from home for more than a couple hours the most important thing was making sure i had enough pills to be comfortable.  Sad really.  I'm gonna write a story in my journal check it out if ya wanna hear bout the time i really realized i had a MAJOR problem and then how long it took before i wanted to "get better".  You all rock!!! Stay strong and be a fighter.  Would you stay with a BF/GF that was as abusive to you as drugs were?  Or had such control over you like the drugs did?  Didn't think so so don't give in to this.......

[TakingAction]

I am about where you are, and all I can say is keep going.  I am struggling with massive depression and such, but have to be present and remember this.  Just think, if we used again, we would have to repeat those six days.  Frankly, I'd rather chew broken glass.  Good goin- and listen to these people.  They care.  So do I.  

matt

[steven1959]

You got thru say 6! awesome. Its 7:45 a.m. day 6 for me and its good to hear it. I am struggling with shortness of breath, good credit, and too much time on my hands. By now most of us know what to do, and if it was so easy we wouldnt need this website(each other)for support,Honest to god(of choice)im getting weepy over you making it six days.(a grown man of 49). We are in the trenches right now and every minute is a victory! Your posting helps me Thank you.
steven1959

[Cissy373]

Congrats to you and hang in there.........good luck. I am on day 17 this time and I feel so much better off the pills other than my pain, but I still crave the drug. Some days are better than others........pray that craving goes away for life.

Cissy

[Cassie415]

Hey congrats on day 6!! And congrats on getting through one of your hardest nights (a few nights ago) that showed a lot of determination and strength!!

[IBKleen]

Good for you. I hope that now you are through the worst of the physical withdrawal that you have a plan for aftercare. I cannot stress how important it is.

I wish you the best.

[merrymaria]

congrats to you...keep on going....it s only going to get better...just remember aftercare and keep posting...happy holiday to you...maria