did anyone have manic behavior after w/ds?!?!

[Mandapanda17]

okay...I think maybe its the anxiety for me. I've been acting sort of manic almost. my roomate is bi-polar so I know what manic behavior looks like and almost feels like..I either have to be sleeping or moving around staying busy! Its a strange feeling for me, as I don't remember this happening to me before. maybe the vitamins?!?! Had a REALLY bad panic attack this morning, literally thought I was going to have a heart attack, so I went and saw my doctor and he put me back on 10mg of Lexapro and xanax twice a day for two weeks. I'd already been taking xanax during w/ds but now I need to cut back to only 1mg a day for the next two weeks. hopefully this won't make my manic behavior worse! anyone else had this happen or am I insane?!?! love you guys!!!! :)

[Mandapanda17]

I know theres definitely good days and bad days for sure...day 7 wasn't half bad for me! hopefully day 8 will be good. :) going to go attempt to sleep now.. take care!! congrats to both of us for getting off those evil things.

[tjrox]

Very proud of you manda for your 7th day!  I had forgotten how manic I was at first but I went through what all of you are going through.  I too was happy when I put my makeup on for the first time clean and I was so proud of myself!  Crazy huh??  The littlest things make a huge difference.  You guys are lucky though, instead of me losing weight I gained 15 lbs (dammit!!) LOL  I did the cleaning thing too for a little while but then had some bad days so I'm not doing all that anymore.  I'm finding that I have really good days, then really crappy days, that's why I'm here now, I haven't slept good in 4 days and I'm ready to hit my head against the wall!  So I figured I get on here and see how you're all doing.
TJ

[Mandapanda17]

I'm so happy this is normal...LOL...I laughed so hard when I read your posts :) I feel so much better this 2nd half of the day. BBQed with family and actually had fun!! what, fun? I almost had forgotten what fun was!! Oh, and joangy I cleaned EVERYTHING in my house on day3 for gods sake, I felt bi-polar that day for SURE :) good to know that hopefully I'll be able to relax again someday...LOL..I'll talk to you all soon!! thanks for keeping me strong through this..and keeping me laughing! xoxoxoxo

YAY, it says 7 days now :):):)

[justme__]

Manda!! I've lost 5 pounds (thats a lot to me cause im only 115!) after w/d and I also had manic behavior.. you already know most of my story girl!! But I think the xanax helps... just not for long term. Anti depressants are great help for long term. Good luck and you can talk to me any time!! I hope you start feeling better soon. You get all these days off!! Enjoy your vaca sweetie!

[joangy]

We are so much alike it's CRAZY!! I was looking back @ my journal posting because I remembered feeling manic on one of my w/d days... and on day '6' I posted that I was on a bi-polar rage all day! I cleaned out every closet in my house and went to walmart spending $300 on organizing cra*... if that's not manic I don't know what is LOL :) I hope you have fun @ your bar-b-que.

[dominosarah]

You are more than welcome to come to my mental ward!!!!!  LOL  We love new people!!!!  You are doing really good manda so keep up the great attitude.  Look you are at 6 days already!!!!!  That is awesome!!  Stay strong           sara

[Mandapanda17]

I love you guys!!!! Its the strangest thing, but I'm happier at this moment than I've been in 5 years. :) I'll let you know how I feel after the BBQ... I look better too.. I did my make-up and it actually looks good!! I'm definitely a little ADD lately..I was ADD on the pills too.. so thats kinda strange!! The fiance has convinced me to go to the gym with him, starting tomorrow! thanks coolio too, and shelly..I felt like I needed to be in the mental ward this morning and now..I'm all good! :) thanks pamela for everything too, you've made me LOL sooo many times. i'll be back later tonight for sure! xoxoxo

[enemy48]

Whoa!........Horsees!  Manda, you're so precious!  

I'm sure you're experiencing lots of different behaviors right now.  I understand how you must feel mentally ill.  I felt so ADD (I already am to some degree), but I couldn't remember what I was doing just 5 minutes ago for the first couple of months!

Yeah, maybe something you're taking for extra mental alertness or energy.  Sometimes I hear that it can make people a little nervous.  

You're doing great.  Have a wonderful weekend........eh, or the next 10 days!  I'm keeping up w/you.

Best Wishes,
Pamela

[shelly750]

Every time I went through withdrawals I got pretty crazy at times (each withdrawal slowly got worse) I broke my husbands radio by throwing it on the floor just because the anxiety of trying to find pills or the deal fell through.  I'd totally fly off the handle at little stupid things.  There were times I think I shouldve been put in a mental ward.  I know what you mean about thinking about the heart attack thing thats happened to me quite a few times but my EKG was ok.

[Coolio Hernendez]

Your doing great Manda........I dont even know you and i'm proud of you....

[Mandapanda17]

maybe we are nuts....LOL :) I think we'll be ok after a couple months. thanks for the encouragement. I'm going to BBQ at my sister & brother inlaws house. should be fun! They're a little nutty too, so they won't think I'm acting weird at all! haha... congrats to you too, so happy we're clean :) GO US!!!! xoxo

[monkeyonmyback68]

i have lost 20 pounds also which I needed to do:) But I have good days and bad days I am over 3 weeks clean closing in on a month and I did a taper before that. I think Monday was horrible for me but I made it barely I felt.  the anxiety is hard for me so hard but I just really talk to myself alot and do Truly feel crazy at times LOL!  I am off to Do a few errands, Gotta keep busy i am starting to feel that anxiety just thinking about it. We are both Probably Nuts But thats okay hahahaha :) Good Job on your day 7 I am very happy for you. take care! *Hugs*

[Mandapanda17]

geez, if I lose any MORE weight LOL....I've lost 20 lbs over the last 3 months, from going back to work...well going to the gym more often isn't going to hurt anything! I've only exercised so far by working (lots of running around) and taking walks. thanks so much, I'm very proud of myself so far, and today didn't start out too good (day7) but has progressively been getting better. :) xoxo

[monkeyonmyback68]

I felt the same way, Its like your body is grieving I think. I had to keep busy and still do, and at night I had a few panic attacks also, and a few meltdowns. hang tuff you are gonna be okay. Try excersing That really saved me.And the good news is I lost weight and that made me feel heathly. The closer i got to ending My taper the worst My anxiety got so thats when i finally just said The Heck with it and just stopped taking anything and It kinda was like relief for me anyways. good Luck and You are doing a good job :) :x

[Mandapanda17]

soooo am I nuts?!?!?! :(