Oh What a Night & Day 30 For Me!

[troubleinohio]

wow what a night we had! as I feared we lost power from the 60 mph winds that ushered in the arctic cold front! It went from 50 degrees around 11 pm last night to 4 degrees sometime over night and I woke to hear the loud buzzing sound from a transformer shorting out from a tree limb that fell on it! It sure got cold in the house in a hurry, but not too much that we had to pack up and go to my moms. If we had been without power too much longer, I would have had to pack the kids up and go! I sure hope it stays on now , as the windchill is at least 20 below zero still!
ANyhow I hit the big Day 30 today!!! woohoo!!!!! Im so happy to hit this milestone! Ive never made it past day 24 previously! My back feels better today too btw! Soooo grateful for so many things!

[GoingToMakeIt]

30 days is so good.I am very proud of you. What will you do to celebrate?

This week I just read up on PAWS. GreatGreebo has it in her journals. If you have not read it. Do so. If it has been a while, re-read it! We need to celebrate our milestones but we need to be armed with what can lie ahead.

Way To Go!!!!!!!!!!!

[VicUser]

In west central Ohio at my house the wind speed peaked at 48 mph (it may be that is the highest my wind speed meter would register) and when I left home this morning it was 9 deg. It sure was windy and at times the whole house rattled

[lostsoul2]

Nice job!!!!!!!  We got the same weather you got but about 6 hrs. earlier here by Chicago.  Like out of nowhere the wind just slammed us and went on all night long.  Blizzard conditions, although we didn't get as much snow as they thought.  We didn't lose power however.  And it's cold as a witches teet this morning!!!

[CATUF]

Good job, Trouble.  Thirty days is a BIG deal.

From time-to-time, my disease tells things like: "This is CRAZY!  You can't not-use, you must use!  You've just been fooling yourself (and everybody else), it's time to give it up.  What were you thinking . . . ," etc., etc., etc.

At the moment it's telling me that stuff, it feels very real.  I'm like "Oh my God, what WAS I thinking?  That's right, I CAN'T do this.  I DO have to use."  At those times I have to yank myself out of that phantom, internal debate (which I was losing) and look at the simple facts of the matter.  

And those facts are painfully simple.  

First. all I need to worry about is staying clean and sober TODAY.  If I stay clean and sober TODAY, I win. That's the only question on the table:  Can I stay clean and sober TODAY?  I get no credit for yesterday or tomorrow.  I can't stay clean and sober (or relapse) yesterday or tomorrow I can only do that TODAY.

Second, I KNOW I can stay clean and sober TODAY.  This TODAY is just any old TODAY.  I've already stayed clean and sober back when every TODAY was a horrible, never-ending agony of physical and/or mental torture.  If I could do those TODAYs, surely I can do this TODAY.

And just like that, it's gone.  I'm not only OK, but it's hard to imagine how or why I got all worked up for a minute there.  My fear, and the feeling of impending doom, are suddenly and completely gone.  Like monsters under my bed, they are simply not there - they were not real (but man did they seem real for a minute . . .).

If monsters start acting like they live under your bed, just remember that they don't.

CATUF

[IBKleen]

Congrats honey!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you. You worked hard for this..keep it up!

We re now getting slammed with your storm btw....not fun....

[traveladdict]

Great job on reaching one month!  Keep on going you are doing great.

[toxictome]

CONGRATS on 30 days!!!!!...hold out your hand and I'm going to give you a 30 day token.....and now a hug...you go, girl!

that's awesome...

got the same weather her...BBRRRR... thought my screens were going to blow off the windows last night!

[ohisleguy]

Brrrrrrrrr here in Ohio......and WINDY!! I'm between Cleveland and Toledo....what area are you in? Way to go on day 30!!!!

[avisg]

ohiooooooooooooooooooo woooo hoooooooo i am so proud of you ........
avis

[road2recovery]

CONGRATS ON DAY 30....So happy for you..
i hope things get better with the weather!!!
r2r

[Imtired]

I was thinking about you last night and how you were handeling the weather.  We had strong winds here and lots of grass fires.  The temp is no where near what you and gizzy are having, (it's about 32 and to me, a true Texan, that's cold) so I couldn't imagine below freezing and no heat. Take care both of you and congrats on long term recovery. Sounds heavenly.

[gizzy32]

im so proud of you, 30 days is remarkable. for me that first month was the toughest. the weather sucks here too, 100km winds, flash freeze warning and now blowing snow, uggg, i hate winter.

you should buy yourself something for your 30 days, you deserve it. way to go?