To everyone fighting addiction.........

[Jen777]

JUST STOP!!! Why, why, why would anyone want to go back to those nasty drugs and go through all the hell you go through to withdrawal! I am on 7 day clean from oxy and I swear yesterday was sooooo bad that I was about to check myself into the hospital. I am DONE I get sick to my stomach just thinking about having to go through this again. I NEVER want to see another pill again in my life!!!

To all of you quitting.....do it and stay clean....think long and hard about what you went through withdrawing before you pick up the drugs again! Is it really worth it? Do you want to feel this misery again.....it's is complete HELL! Fight, fight hard and think long and hard and get away from the people who are enablers. Tell them to take a hike.......IT"S NOT WORTH IT! I am praying for each and every one of you to get through all of this and stay clean you don't need the drugs they just ruin your life and your family.

Jen

[jekorb]

I am so envious of all of you who have gone through the fire and the burns are healing.  I'm not strong enough; I don't have the strength or courage.  I hope I do, one day.  Right now, I can hardly remember life without Trams.  I know there was one, I'm just finding it hard to remember it, even though it's only been 14 1/2 mos. since I started taking them "as a habit".  God bless all of you.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Sounds like you are doing great - - - but be forewarned. Many who felt as you do did relapse. Its a cunning monster with which you do battle. Stay strong and make no mistakes. I would highly endorse reading the health pages concerning triggers (shrinks call them "cues") and learning to avoid them. You are far from out of the woods. Although I do hope that you come to the tree line soon.  Good luck...

[swandive222]

Oh yeah, congrats on your success too!!!
You are strong!!!  All of us are strong!!!
It's all a mind trick thing!!!
This experience has showed me how powerful I actually am, and I like it!!

-Jess

[swandive222]

I am so with you Jen!!  15 days clean here!!!  Today I feel great, no fatigue or headache at all today!!  I actually felt "normal" today.  It is only up hill from here for both me and you and everyone else who is and wants to get and stay clean!!!  My mom picked up my prescription of Hydrocodone 7 days ago.  I can honestly say I have not had any urge whatsoever to take any pills!!!  I am done with it and will keep on being done with it!!!  The only way I am taking one is if my arthritis flares up really really bad and I can't function.  Even then though, I will take something else before for the pain instead of taking a pain pill!!!  I don't want to be a slave to those little white pills ever again!!!  I've got too much going on in my life to be weighed down by that damn demon (pills)!!

-Jess

[HR_PuffnStuff]

Good for you. I think the idea some have to journal throughout their w/d is great. It can serve as a tool for the future when the horror of it has passed.  You can look back and see just how you felt and that should be a good deterrent against using again. Congrats on a week!

[Jen777]

Yes, he still has them in the house but I am sooooo pissed at those little suckers and this was such mortifying hell that I would reject them even if he offered. I just keep thinking in my head....if they find a cure for his disease and he gets off pills.....what he will go through and I wouldn't want that again for anything. I AM STRONG!

[gizzy32]

It sounds like your pissed off at these pills, I love it:) Congrats on a week clean now, your over that hump. Does your husband still have pills in the house? Stay strong your doing great.

[laurel453]

congrats for your days clean and your determination, jen. keep your sprit as hiigh as it is now :)

i can understand your reasons but there are also some other alternatives therapies that can really help u like yoga, meditation ( this one is making a difference to me  keeping my soul strong and in order everyday ) apart from exercising and staying around here , right ?

good luck , jen :)

[KLM_81]

Best of luck to you. You'll be in my prayers! Peace, KLM

[Jen777]

No, I live in a very small town and have a very public job. I know it's not a good excuse but what I have been through with these withdrawals is enough to make me run for my life if anyone even comes close to me with a pill!!!! My aftercare is going to consist of getting off my butt and exercising!

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 7 days!!!!  Keep staying positive.  Are you going to any aftercare??  The mental part of this is the hardest.             sara