tryna hang in there......

[determinedagain]

I am.only in day 3...I am in soo much pain...physically & mentally.  Although I am familiar with the withdrawal process..that does not make it ez by no means.  & each withdrawal is different...some. harder than others each different time u withdraw urself. I'm soooo tired of this ****.   It total insanity to keep doing this to myself. When will I stop this madness?.  Well just wanted to share on day 2 I did manage to go to the track & walk & jogg...I'm pushing hard right now...to make myself go again today.  My chest kinda hurts...& my leggs are killing me.  Yes I'm taking some of the things on thomas recipe...but this just feels like I'm soooo sooo far away from feeling better...its hard to keep fighting.  I'm gonna push thru tho...even tho mentally I am a complete mess..I truly feel like a insane person..my thoughts are not strong..they are all over the place..I have little confidence...& the pain makes you doubt u will make it another day.  The days are sooo sooo very long when your in this battle that I feel sometimes that id rather be dead than deal with this ****.   Omg...this is horrible.

[Pits253]

You can do itttttt... It does get better

[gnarly_1]

Hey  so it sound like it has been ruff for you it is ok it will be what it will be just know with time you will heal it never amazes me that someone is up a 3 am  I know I was for weeks  methadone is a monster to kick but I did it a long time ago but I will never forget it today I live in recovery  im a member of N/A I go to 4 meeting a week if you want to help your recover google n/a meetings in your area.. keep posting for support.......................................Gnarly...................................

[freedomahead]

Here I am at 3am feeling exactly what you are going though physically. Day2 I ran 3km o sweat it out. I'm really hurting two days later. I'm on day 4.. major night sweats tonight. I'm trying to focus on how much intrulynhate this and how being sober and facing life raw is so much more real and a blessing then hiding addiction, looking for more and the self hate each day brings because u know its a slave you are when you use. Freedom is worth it. God is worth it, helping others too. I'm going to juice daily. Check out by Google how juicing helps people with addictions and changes everything mentally, physically and you can heal the damage from daily use. Keep pressing forward. Pray

[gnarly_1]

Hi  well it is 10 oclock phx time  I often write these to encourage you to keep pushing threw I have said this a million times...''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' this to shall pass...Keep in mind this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental so be prepared to fight on both fronts.. it is vital that you stay hydrated gatoraid helps do that a good hot soak will help the ''creapy caraling skin and will tame down the anxiety.I always tell people to pray...God is all you got a 3am when your up shaking and alone.typically the withdrawals get harder each time we put our body's thew this   this is a progressive disease and only will get worst with time.. the real thing here is you have to treat it addiction it is a disease with no know cure it can however be arrested and then recovery is possible I have tried many things over the 35yr I lived in active addiction the only thing that worked for me and still does is N/A it is free and it will change the very way you think our best thinking got us here please take the time to google N/A meetings as soon as you can the support you will get there is ausum the people have been where you are they wont give you that ''deer in the headlight stare'' when you talk to them for me  well im an old dope fiend so I go to 4 meetings a week it is cheep insurance to stay clean keep posting for support I will pray for you................................Gnarly......................................

[cindeebfree]

I'm on day 9 of opiate withdrawal and I understand your pain. I'm just now having most relief from pain. Don't give up! I know everyday I wake up and go to bed I count my days. Each day that number increases of being clean and I feel empowered. Don't give up!

[jifmoc]

I feel for ya. You reminded me of how I felt on day 2- just total sh!t. You know what? It's only day 2...you have to give yourself time. It's gonna take a while. It does change, I promise you that. All you have to do is tolerate it. That's it. You know you will get thru the acute wd's soon. Maybe this part is a blessing: you know you never wanna go back to this. You can remember this so you don't go here again. Yes, you need to choose an aftercare. We can't just remove the pills and that's it.

Keep posting!

[lulu747]

Hey there congrats on day 3 and for hanging in and getting your a$$ to the track.  That's impressive to me.
You've been here before and as you said you don't understand why you keep doing this.  It's insanity.  You're right.  It is.
This is the purpose of aftercare.
The three pillars of recovery- of getting clean and staying clean are:
Aftercare (counselling, therapy, NA/AA, SMART Recovery, CBT etc)
Good Health and nutrition
Exercise.
You work your a$$ off at those things as hard as you worked at getting drugs and hiding your addiction and your recovery will move forward.  You have to invest in yourself because no one else will until you do.
You've got one life here on earth.
Make it count.
Sending support...
Lu