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Today makes 5 weeks...
Just a small update. Today makes 5 weeks clean off oxycodone. As you all know my bowls were really bad, but i can say now they are getting back to normal. I feel good, but my mood swings are pretty bad. I feel anxious a lot. Worry about my health a lot lately. Had complete blood work done everything and they only said my Liver ALT was slightly on the high end...it was 51. For 2 weeks i have been obsessing over that test. Still have to wait 2 months before i can retest it. physically i feel good sleep 8 or more hours a night. my energy is good. I must say sometimes i just wish i can have 1 more pill just to calm my body down...its just a dream because in reality that part of my life is over. Life seems boring lately, but i guess that just means I am growing up??? Who knows, but i am struggling mentally. Good luck to all
hi there
I know you are worried about your liver but that mild elevation in liver enzyme is not something to be too anxious about....our liver has remarkable recovery and an elevated enzyme was just your liver being pissed off....it will recover....as for the rest...yes life can be boring...or seem that way...because the drugs gave us a huge stimulation to the pleasure center...everything we did just seemed more...more fun more exciting more stimulating....but it wasnt real....it was the drug releasing neurotransmitters in our brain....but at massvie doses compared to what real everyday pleasures release....so now our brains our "reset" and require much higher levels of these neurotransmitters to feel even every day happiness.....this is sort of simplistic but I hope it helps....we took drugs causing massive release of chemicals in our pleasure centers...the body was overwhelmed and down regulated the receptors for these chemicals so it took more and more to get the same effect and these levels were way over what occurs naturally....so we stop drugs....we get through physical withdrawal....and then we have to give our brains time to catch up and create more normal numbers of receptors so we can "feel" the good stuff....but there will never be that overwhelming rush...well rarely in real life I think....that will be like the high of drugs.....but you will get there...I found myself laughing and smiling at silly things again...when at first everything was just so tedious.......well that is how it was for me....and I still struggle but mostly i am much much better
I know you are worried about your liver but that mild elevation in liver enzyme is not something to be too anxious about....our liver has remarkable recovery and an elevated enzyme was just your liver being pissed off....it will recover....as for the rest...yes life can be boring...or seem that way...because the drugs gave us a huge stimulation to the pleasure center...everything we did just seemed more...more fun more exciting more stimulating....but it wasnt real....it was the drug releasing neurotransmitters in our brain....but at massvie doses compared to what real everyday pleasures release....so now our brains our "reset" and require much higher levels of these neurotransmitters to feel even every day happiness.....this is sort of simplistic but I hope it helps....we took drugs causing massive release of chemicals in our pleasure centers...the body was overwhelmed and down regulated the receptors for these chemicals so it took more and more to get the same effect and these levels were way over what occurs naturally....so we stop drugs....we get through physical withdrawal....and then we have to give our brains time to catch up and create more normal numbers of receptors so we can "feel" the good stuff....but there will never be that overwhelming rush...well rarely in real life I think....that will be like the high of drugs.....but you will get there...I found myself laughing and smiling at silly things again...when at first everything was just so tedious.......well that is how it was for me....and I still struggle but mostly i am much much better
Hey Dude great to here your going to start to treat the ''mindscrew'' with N/A those meeting are a addicts life line I know your wife has been supportive but I do recamend going to the meetings alone that way you dont have to hold back what you share wondering what your wife is going to think I go to 3 to 4 a week all my wife will ask if if im going tonight?? this is the single best thing you can do for your recovery after you get use to going you will look forward to going to each meeting hang in there it will get better......Gnarly...........
thanks all. i know this process takes time. I am feeling better today. I am going to a NA meeting tonight. My wife has been great thru this entire process, but you guys were right from the beginning, i need to talk to ppl who can relate with what i am going thru. People who didnt use drugs will never fully understand the pain and emotional pressure that comes with drug abuse. I thought i could do it without meetings, but that is not working. i need to give this a chance if i want to stay clean. peace ppl
Congrats on 5 weeks Oxypain ! I have always found at 6 weeks it was a kind of turning point so patience is needed still. I agree with the others you need to get plugged into something what it is only you can figure out There is church NA AA Nature the gym yoga there is all kinds of ways to get plugged in.. Keep a Positive mind set and stay active.. I wish you well, lesa
hi there
I know you are worried about your liver but that mild elevation in liver enzyme is not something to be too anxious about....our liver has remarkable recovery and an elevated enzyme was just your liver being pissed off....it will recover....as for the rest...yes life can be boring...or seem that way...because the drugs gave us a huge stimulation to the pleasure center...everything we did just seemed more...more fun more exciting more stimulating....but it wasnt real....it was the drug releasing neurotransmitters in our brain....but at massvie doses compared to what real everyday pleasures release....so now our brains our "reset" and require much higher levels of these neurotransmitters to feel even every day happiness.....this is sort of simplistic but I hope it helps....we took drugs causing massive release of chemicals in our pleasure centers...the body was overwhelmed and down regulated the receptors for these chemicals so it took more and more to get the same effect and these levels were way over what occurs naturally....so we stop drugs....we get through physical withdrawal....and then we have to give our brains time to catch up and create more normal numbers of receptors so we can "feel" the good stuff....but there will never be that overwhelming rush...well rarely in real life I think....that will be like the high of drugs.....but you will get there...I found myself laughing and smiling at silly things again...when at first everything was just so tedious.......well that is how it was for me....and I still struggle but mostly i am much much better
I know you are worried about your liver but that mild elevation in liver enzyme is not something to be too anxious about....our liver has remarkable recovery and an elevated enzyme was just your liver being pissed off....it will recover....as for the rest...yes life can be boring...or seem that way...because the drugs gave us a huge stimulation to the pleasure center...everything we did just seemed more...more fun more exciting more stimulating....but it wasnt real....it was the drug releasing neurotransmitters in our brain....but at massvie doses compared to what real everyday pleasures release....so now our brains our "reset" and require much higher levels of these neurotransmitters to feel even every day happiness.....this is sort of simplistic but I hope it helps....we took drugs causing massive release of chemicals in our pleasure centers...the body was overwhelmed and down regulated the receptors for these chemicals so it took more and more to get the same effect and these levels were way over what occurs naturally....so we stop drugs....we get through physical withdrawal....and then we have to give our brains time to catch up and create more normal numbers of receptors so we can "feel" the good stuff....but there will never be that overwhelming rush...well rarely in real life I think....that will be like the high of drugs.....but you will get there...I found myself laughing and smiling at silly things again...when at first everything was just so tedious.......well that is how it was for me....and I still struggle but mostly i am much much better
5 WEEKS!!! Yahoooooo!!!!! Keep it up!
I DITTO both the Above.
I heard a saying a long time ago..when I would say I was bored, someone would say, your not bored you are boring. Of course they were kidding, but just think of it. WE have to make these Changes and there are many, many changes that have to be made. Recovery is just that, we have to work at it every single day.
Yep, being alone in our head when we are bored or lonely is a dangerous place for one who liked to get a buzz. Make sure you keep yourself as busy or re-directed, as much as possible during these times.
No one said it would be easy..I know I have to take it day by day. Also, any or all aftercare is a part of my New Survival. I now try to feed that Brain with good info or food then bad thinking and bad water. Ha! You get my drift!
Just keep on doing what you have been. It will all get a bit better to understand. Hit those meetings!!!!
Bless
I DITTO both the Above.
I heard a saying a long time ago..when I would say I was bored, someone would say, your not bored you are boring. Of course they were kidding, but just think of it. WE have to make these Changes and there are many, many changes that have to be made. Recovery is just that, we have to work at it every single day.
Yep, being alone in our head when we are bored or lonely is a dangerous place for one who liked to get a buzz. Make sure you keep yourself as busy or re-directed, as much as possible during these times.
No one said it would be easy..I know I have to take it day by day. Also, any or all aftercare is a part of my New Survival. I now try to feed that Brain with good info or food then bad thinking and bad water. Ha! You get my drift!
Just keep on doing what you have been. It will all get a bit better to understand. Hit those meetings!!!!
Bless
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Congrats on your 5 weeks clean!!
The mental part is coming into play now and that is why we say getting clean is the easy part, staying clean is the hard one. You said life is boring. I said the same thing years ago and i got alot of responses at that time. They told me it was up to me to make life not boring. I had been in my own shell for so long that life continued without me only i didnt realize that. The pills give us a false sense of security in every aspect of life. I got back into my music, nature, my animals etc. We have to create a life for ourselves again and it is such an amazing discovery. Step out of your so called comfort zone and make a move. There is no growth in staying in one place, not to mention it plays he!! in our head. Have you thought about aftercare?
The mental part is coming into play now and that is why we say getting clean is the easy part, staying clean is the hard one. You said life is boring. I said the same thing years ago and i got alot of responses at that time. They told me it was up to me to make life not boring. I had been in my own shell for so long that life continued without me only i didnt realize that. The pills give us a false sense of security in every aspect of life. I got back into my music, nature, my animals etc. We have to create a life for ourselves again and it is such an amazing discovery. Step out of your so called comfort zone and make a move. There is no growth in staying in one place, not to mention it plays he!! in our head. Have you thought about aftercare?
Hey Dude good to see you great to see you clean.....congrats on 5 weeks clean.....as you can see the detox was the ez part it is the mental ''mind screw'' that takes the work....as time goes by the anxiety will get better but please understand aftercare is critical....long after the pills stop the addict in your head is alive and well....those thoughts of 1 more pill will not go away on there own you need to treat the disease....N/A is the only progam that I know of that with time working the steps you can loose that desire to use...that will only get worst if you dont treat it as always keep posting for support....Gnarly
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