Today

[lynnalb15]

I feel like death. I need support. No sleep and aches everywhere ugh god help me.

[minn66]

I'm with you, Lynn and Iwill. I am having a rough time too. Let's just keep encouraging each other. We'll make it. One day at a time. That's what keeps me going. I am thinking about you guys!

[IwillDoThis]

I'm right there with you today - this day *****, I am in pain.  I am taking it one hour at a time - I wish I had words of wisdom for the pain today but I don't, I can't even do my yoga I hurt so bad.  I just wanted to throw some support your way and let you know you are not alone.  Hugs to you.

[Sharon0255]

Yes I'm with you the sleep thing is really tough. I'm not getting much at all.
I know if I hang in there it will get better, yours will to.

[Teri9498]

   Hi Lynn, I'm sorry u r feeling so bad.  U will get through it I promise!  I'm right with u on the sleep thing and the aching all over, but it will pass.  Just remember that it will get better with time, I know it don't seem like when u r going through it.  Hang in there sweetie!  Sending u love and support :)

[dominosarah]

I hope you are feeling better today Lynn.  Keep putting one foot in front of the other, focus on the journey, not the destination.  You are stronger than you realize~~sara

[Shauna13]

Stay strong, lynn...you can get through it, you have an amazing life to live when youre through this....each day youre getting closer, and each day clean, youre gaining power over the drugs....soon you will have so much power, the drugs dont stsnd a chance. I use silly analogies....like when i started to feel again, i compared it to organizing and purging my closet, or my desk....each day that goes by and i havent taken tramadol, i compare to watching the battery symbol charge up on cell phone.....like my power and strength building up, and it has to build every day in order to continue to be able to use my phone. Silly, i know but im a visual thinker lol but most importantly, its something that helps.   S

[sandstone27]

Hi,

I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time of it.  I wish I had some magic words of wisdom that would make your situation better, but all I can say is that it WILL get better...it always does.  Please believe that.  

Hoping that you get some much needed rest....

Sandy ♦

[bewitched_queen]

Lynn I'm so sorry you're feeling bad & sleep is such a terrible thing not to get....but it will come & you are doing great. I know its such a struggle, I'm on day 14 today and my sleep is much better now but still not as good as I would like. But I'm FREE!!!  I can say that today and even when I'm having a rough day (or night) just knowing I have broken the hold that opiates had over me makes me feel stronger. Sending love & light to you Lynn. Wish I could send you some sleep too lol

[minn66]

Hi Lynn, thinking of you and sending you a hug :)

I don't think the playdough is childish at all. I had never played games on my phone until I stopped. It is a great way to take our minds off of the physical and mental symptoms. I hope you both get some sleep soon.

[Bkitty]

LOL I obviously and experiencing some insomnia tonight as well Lynn,,I am right there with you. We will sleep when ready~Bkitty

[Bkitty]

They also had us play with playdo in the beginning to help distract and pass time. I still carry some in my car. I know it sounds childish but it calmed me down a lot! You are going to be okay!! Just take it one day at a time,,,everyday you will get a glimse of the old you peeking thru. Id laugh or make a joke and it would remind me of the old me,,I also noticed subtle changes like taste and smells and a clearer memory!! It will come,,I promise!~Bkitty

[lynnalb15]

How weird u said that bkitty we just write ourselves a letter yesterday   And also wrote a good bye letter to our drug of choice ad one from our drug to us. It was strangely gratifying. It helped a lot. I know I will get thru this. I have no choice but to. The pain is only temporary. But using can last forever if we don't take the leap to face that pain. I'm slowly getting thru this. I just cannot wait till I'm back to normal I don't even remember what normal feels like to be honest. I remember when I didn't know what being high felt like when I last got sober. I so wish I still wondered that. Day by day. Love to you all

[Bkitty]

I am so very sorry you are feeling this way now,,,keep in mind though this physical withdrawal will only last a few more days and you will start feeling better. In hindsight Lynn,,it was worth all the pain and suffering I went thru in the beginning to get to this point today. I know you are in the midst of it now and literally counting the hours and minutes that you have been feeling this way but somehow some way you need to distract yourself ( Good God I know how hard that is and I wanted to punch someone when they would tell me that) but that really really helped. Id read,,play bubble witch on facebook ( I got addicted to that game),,take 2-3baths a day for the aches and misery,,Id set a small small goal each day (make bed or change sheets) and focus on that goal. I also read the NA book online and chatted in a NA forum with other people. Believe me,,I never thought I would last thru that first week,,but I did. I had wrote a letter to myself in aftercare my first week off the pills and it basically was everything I was feeling at the moment (mostly physical symptoms) and we addressed it to ourselfs and they held on to it. Yesterday I got it in the mail,,,,I was sooo miserable when I wrote that. I too was praying for God to help me. When I read that letter,,I realized the physical pain was sooo worth it and was only a small blip on the radar on this timeline of addiction. You will get thru this,,God is holding you tight right now,,feel his arms holding you tight and find comfort in him. Sleep will come,,I promise. (((Hugs)))~Bkitty

[overopiates]

I agree1million percent with gnarly(I always do).HE knows exactly what he is talking about and he was my go2guy when I came here.He is awesome(sry I just appreciate him so much cause I dnt think I would have made it those first few weeks without him).ur doing it and its so worth it.u r n my prayers

[gnarly_1]

HI Lynn .......man I feel your pain the sleep deprivation is the worst and for the first 2 weeks it feel like somone beat you with a pipe the next thing you will get hit with will be the energy crash you got to remember methadone has it own set of rules it plays buy ......Lynn your strong YOU CAN DO THIS   yes it uncomfortable but the bottom line is you just got to persevere threw it just look to God for strength and remember your daughter she will have her whole momie back keep posting for support good luck and God bless..........Gnarly