serious update

[strong_woman]

ok guys here goes...today was last day of taper and was going through wds the crumb took the edge off but not much...i feel my stomach bubbling already and was crying alot today...the only thing that will be different 2mrw is that crumb of sub wont be there to take the edge of 2mrw and all wds will be full blown...my eyes are burning too like really dry....not real bad aches but i had no energy today...anyway just wanted to update you guys....i hope that i am stronger than i even know...relapsing isnt an option and there are no pills around and no way for me to get them even tho that really is the farthest thing from my mind....i just want to get over that hump day where i can see a glimpse of the sunshine and never ever look back again....please keep me in your prayers....whoever you pray to....thanks for the support

[broknbck]

well you are here now. and you are going to do it. you have to because you said yourself, you cannot get anymore pills anyway. so lets face this head on.
you are expecting the worst, but do realize that you have been experiencing it in pieces while you have been tappering. it is not going to be full blown.
set a goal to try and work out everyday. even if it is just for minutes.
when i quit it was a huge chore just getting dressed to go and work out at my gym-ha
which is only about 50ft from my apt. i could only do the stairmaster for like 5 min. and after a week i was up to 12 minutes.hah but i do think it made a difference. i was completely whipped by the time i was done each day.
stay away from the caffiene, it will make you feel like ****. try to eat lots of good fresh foods instead. that will give you more energy than the processed foods.
you are going to be great, you will see!!

[TysonRed]

Just stopping by to tell you to stay positive about this process, it will be tough but you can get through it. Try to stay hydrated and take some vitamins, mainly your b vitamins and some amino acids if you can. Also anything you can do to stay busy, whether it be on here talking with others, playing games, just anything to occupy your mind rather than lying in bed or on the couch watching tv, will help with the w/d's. When you feel able you should start going for walks, it can get some endorphin production going which will improve your mood and help relax you when you get back to the house. The next step would be to move into a routine of excercise but thats a choice you'll have to make when it comes time,but when I came off sub it really helped speed up the process of feeling good about myself again. We're here if you need us, feel free to hit me up anytime, even if your just trying to kill time. Im at home dealing with some nerve pain issues from a back problem so all I got is time on my hands, so I like to check medhelp quite a few times during the day. Remember that you are stronger than you think, we all are, Id be lying if I said I wasnt scared going into sub w/d but I made it through and it really wasnt that bad for me. I'll be saying a prayer for you, good luck with everything, I'll talk with ya later. Take care.

[bigalspal]

I'm am promising you right now that I'll say a HUGE prayer for you tonight before I go to bed! This **** *****, I know!  I don't know why we all have this cross to bear, but we do.
But, I look around and see there are so many people worse off than me. Really.
That's I get through this. I try to find gratitude for what I do have.
But look-I couldn't do that in the early stanges of withdrawal! I'm just now coming back to my senses.
Hang in there sweetie!
Oh before I go, guess what? you were talking about not being able to get to any pills?
Well get this-I have about 300 Darvocets at the pharmacy! I kid you not. My DR always made me come once a month & wrote me a script for 120 with 3 refills. They just built up! And my last appt when I told him to only give me Valium? I was starting to get sick from the Fentanyl WD that I didn't realize that he wrote the Darvocet script.
I told my Pharmacy what I was about to do & do not fill the Darvocet & don't give me any if I ask. But I guess they are still on file, so I'll have to be careful & deal with that soon. My husband will be home in 2 weeks & I'm not going near that store. I'll let HIM talk to them.
Feel better soon!
Bigalspal

[outotown]

You will be on my mind and i will pray for you as i have for you and everyone on here!!

[snowflake620]

take strength from your name and I will be praying for yu tonight
snowflake