Trying to beat a 3 year addiction to pain pills - I need all the support I can get!!!

[NewYorkChick]

I wanted to start a new post to introduce myself. (I know these forums become like a small community : )I go by NewYorkChick on here. I am 25, a single mother of 1 (Isaac, 2 1/2) After my son's birth, I was given a script for lortabs for back pain. When my son was 2 months, I couldn't remember if I took my pill or not, so I took one.  20 minutes later, I was high. I got all the laundry done, I wasn't tired, and I was enjoying time with my son.  And basically it all went downhill from there. Now it's at the point where I take 9-10 10mg lortabs to get high, 2-3x's a day. I've been trying like hell to get sober.  Today is day 2.  Yesterday I took 4 10mg pills in the morning, and then in the evening I took 4 10mg pills plus 2 klonopins .5mg.  At nighttime I took flexeril 5mg for muscle aches, and a lunesta to sleep, but really didn't sleep much (Maybe 3 hours total) I know as soon as I get $ or a Rx, I'm going to get high again. I want to stop, but I can't control myself.  It's ruining my life. (I'm actually crying while I'm typing this) I know I need to stop for myself and my son.  But I won't go for help because I don't want DRUG ADDICT on my record. But even weaning leaves me tired and irritable, and craving more. I just want to be normal.  I want to wake up and not have to worrying about where can I get more pills, or do I have enough money. Anyone have any advice for me? Maybe some home remedies for dealing with my low energy and anxiety? Once I go through the detox and am clean, how do I keep myself that way?  Any advice is appreciated! Thanx! : )

[NewYorkChick]

also, I was wondering : I get restless leg syndrome (I saw the ad, made me think about it) alot.  I know it's that and not just wd pain, b/c i've had it since i was abou 16. do you think meds for RLS like requip would help with the aches and pains of wd? because it feels like RLS at night when I am withdrawing.

[addictedtoloratab]

Welcome, NY, East coast is my favorite.  You are definitely in the right place.  I am also a mom, like so many of us here and I just like all the others fell into the same boat.  It is just seems so much easier and makes you feel like supermom.  You can do chores, take care of kids, errands, play with them.  And then you reach the point where you keep needed more to get the same feeling.  To answer your question, many people have been trying requip on here and they seem to like it.  You have to decide for yourself if you want to taper or go C/T.  It would be nice if you could tell your doctor, you will burn your bridge, but, he can give you some meds to ease the w/ds... Any questions you have go ahead and ask. Everybody is really helpful here.  The last couple months it has gotten to be like my family... Welcome with huggs,,,G