STEP AWAY FROM THE BAT!! smile, and big hugs!!
I am in tears I can't express my gratitude to all of you who have been here for me through this.
I'm going to try and relax and be gentle with myself the bats aren't helping but your caring and support has turned my day around.
Peace to you all xo. Sharon
Hang in there---you will be fine. Next time, if you ever have to take pain medication or what not, have someone hold it for you. Be responsible with it and you will never have to put yourself through this again.
For now--relax and do something nice for yourself today!!
Wow that was fast and so helpful thanks so much for being here and caring.
Hey Sharon! Hang in there sweetie! You are going to be fine! This is just a bump in the road! It's called life, right? They happen! Try to get positive and stay positive! Sending you prayers for strength! Just keep moving forward and this will get farther and farther in your rear view mirror! Big hugs!!
I have faith in you and know you can make it.
Thank you all for your support I'm trying to put the bat away today but you're right it takes work. I have to focus and really concentrate on what's good in me and my life. This is the first day I feel a little better physically.
Mentally I'm trying I took my grandson this morning he's 6 mos old and it was hard. My head wants me to feel like a looser. Just for today I'm trying to do some healthy things.
I'm really trying to talk myself into feeling good. And praying that I can move forward and not let this take me down anymore.
Thank you all so much for being here when I was just feeling like crap I read your posts and now I have hope Peace.
"To me this is a big deal..."
I just realized I didn't address that part and wanted to ease your mind. You didn't damage your brain any more than anyone else who took a bottle of Tussionex over a one week period. If it caused brain damage they would take it off the market. It's not going to take your brain another 90 days to heal.
That said, you can talk yourself into feeling bad, just like you can talk yourself into feeling better. It's called "visualization" and athletes do it to see themselves being successful.
Hey Sharon,
I relapsed after day 56, and took some pills for a few days. I am back on day 35 or so now. Getting back on the wagon so to speak was pretty easy physically. Mentally, I know how you feel. But it gets better, and the closer I get back to 56 and beyond, the better mentally I am doing. I am surprised you were given hydro cough syrup with pneumonia, seems counter to wanting to clear it out, but no matter. If you have not done so, flagging yourself with docs and pharmacies would have prevented getting narcs like the syrup you got. Forget it happened, flag yourself now and ou will feel better. You will be taking back control. You will get back your 110, I know it.
Bryan
I don't think you're an awful person, a failure, or weak. I think you're feeling guilty, and unduly so, about having taken something prescribed for you that contains a narcotic after being clean for that long. To me, abusing it would be drinking half the bottle at a time. I think you did take it as prescribed, more or less, and so what if you didn't.
I'm giving you permission to forgive yourself now. You've beat yourself up and suffered enough and have paid penance. Now you can move on. What you did did not put a black mark on your soul. Peace be with you.
There was a lot of emphasis put on the 90 days for that part of my brain the dopamine receptors to heal themselves. What I was asking was that yes it's true that part of my brain has healed in the 110 days not someone to tell me no it hasn't healed. Maybe you misunderstood me I'm not a very good typist.
To me this is a big deal and no I don't believe I took it as prescribed. I can't help the way I feel right now and it's awful.
Thanks you all for your support and not judging me.
"Someone with a lot of experience please tell me my brain receptors are all messed up again and it's going to take another 90 days before i feel ok again."
Why? Do you not want to feel good for another 90 days?
It sounds like you more or less took it as directed if you took it over the period of a week.I think you're over reacting just a little. Stop beating yourself up over it, it's not the end of the world.
Now I'm crying yes I was clean for my sons wedding and I'm loving every minute with my grandson. i did relapse but i don't think I will go through the hell i did last time i haven't felt well at all and i could feel it going in and coming out of my system and i definately got high.
I am able to accept that and stay in today i've really felt sick all week.
I'm a bit better today had the last dose last Sunday but I'm starting over but everyone here said that my brain would re set itslf after 90 days. I'm praying that's true i don't want to go back to that hell i couldn't be addicted in a week but I definately went through withdrawal and there is something very strange about that time release I could have died.
Someone with a lot of experience please tell me my brain receptors are all messed up again and it's going to take another 90 days before i feel ok again.
I really was feeling great at 110 days abd the valium taper is going very well I'm tapering every 10 days and it's working on schedule.
Thanks to all of you for being here for me and supporting me.
Sharon
Pat is right, even if you slipped and drank the whole bottle you never lose the time you were clean. It would just be a minor setback in a moment of weakness and nothing to beat yourself up about.
I know I couldn't have it sitting around or I'd chug it, and if I did I'd forgive myself and get on with life.
Sharon you will never lose those 110 days clean. You were so happy and you were able to be at the wedding clean. Life happens and pneumonia isn't anything to fool around with. It was prescribed and you had to take it to live. I don't think you are back to square one. We have to deal with things that life throws at us and it wasn't a relapse. It was survival. Don't let this get you down. You will be back in no time.
I developed pnuemonia and was prescribed this. I had over 110 days clean and now it looks like I'm back to square one i'm having a very hard time with this. I am beyond dspair and really can't talk about it> It was so stupid and i got so upset now I'm starting all over again.
This really *****. But i also heard it was very dangerous and i wasn't sure why now i know.
I used to buy Terpin Hydrate with Codeine cough syrup when I lived in Illinois. It was 40% alcohol and like taking 4-5 tabs of Codeine and chasing it with a shot of Whiskey. They took all that kind of thing off the shelves here long ago.
"Why is it considered dangerous?"
Who says it is? Just because you heard someone tell a horror story doesn't make it true.
Each teaspoon contains 10 mg of Hydrocodone, equivalent to one Lortab, and 8mg Chlorpheniramine, which is an antihistamine. It's more prone to abuse than dangerous and why you can't buy it OTC.
I'm confused.. have you quit yet?
they took it off the shelves in iowa here u can only get codeine cough syrup idk if it was being abused too much or for other reasons
Why is it considered dangerous?
Is it because if you take too much that offstage eased slowly in your system it takes 12 hours for the opiates to be released.
I just remember hearing horror stories about this stuff.
Each teaspoonful (5 mL) of TUSSIONEX (hydrocodone and chlorpheniramine) Pennkinetic Extended-Release Suspension contains hydrocodone polistirex equivalent to 10 mg of hydrocodone bitartrate and chlorpheniramine polistirex equivalent to 8 mg of chlorpheniramine maleate. TUSSIONEX (hydrocodone and chlorpheniramine) Pennkinetic Extended- Release Suspension provides up to 12-hour relief per dose. Hydrocodone is a centrally-acting narcotic antitussive. Chlorpheniramine is an antihistamine. TUSSIONEX (hydrocodone and chlorpheniramine) Pennkinetic Extended- Release Suspension is for oral use only.