Ups and downs

[mindovermatter10]

I'm so tired of what I am doing to myself.At one moment I'm so driven to quit these stupid norcos then the next moment 3 days out of the woods the pain consumes me and I get back on the merry go round searching for meds to not feel so sick...I'm so dumb and I know it because I put myself here AGAIN!...I pray and pray and something goes wrong and BAM!...well I only have 10 now and I thought well that's good the sooner they are done...I'm in a lot of pain yes but the emotional pain of feeling there is no way out overwhelms me I feel hopeless. Yes I have chronic pain but this addiction is worse that any pain...I am so upset that I can be doing so well then I let myself get knocked down and go beg for more what gets me is the doctor does it....well I'm done I am going so they can ween me off I am Done I am so serious I'm moving cross country to get away from it all soon....So for anyone else I  this battle I pray for you and hope you will get a tight grip and fight against this...please pray for me...I'm sorry for those of you who I keep letting down...I need help and I need to change Forever. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU..HUGS...LOVE MINDOVERMATTER...PS I need to live up to my name...

[SuperRickHenry]

God Bless you too brother.. Stay in Christ.... He loves you and is never let down by what we do.. Yeah he doesn't like seeing his own wander.. But what did the shepard do when one lamb wandered.. He found it and brought it back.. He has us and if we seek him in all we do.. Or try our best to.. He will fix us... We will smile again... I'm on 25 days or so and still am at war spiritually but it is getting better.   Our brains are wired wrong from norco's so give it time.. For some reason 40 days seems like a number I keep seeing to see my blessing and fire of God back.. Bless you your friend Rick

[steve1220]

hey mindover hi there.....please dont get down on yourself to hard for for falling it's hard we've all been there !!! i was on oxys for 5 yrs the last two yrs it got a hold of me every month i'd go for the gusto for three weeks than a week of w/d !! stupid yep yep....i'm 58 yrs old and it had to take a toll on me....i used every excuse in the book to keep going back to my dr finally 14 days ago i said no more and threw them away and told everybody i knew to stay away !!! now my dr dont lke me neither does the other peole i used to do them with !!! short and long of this story if you really want off these you got to be strong and take matters into your own hands Yes it's hard like going through HELL but you can do it it's doable keep strong and keep your mind strong best of luck and keep posting it helps

[littlebit667]

You are not letting us down.  For some it takes time to get it right.  It took me a few to get there.  Getting thru the first week is hard.  The only way I was able to REALLY do it is to cut all my avenues and be truthful to myself.  I told my children, my husband and my doctor and that made the difference.  My doc helped me get thru the first week this last time.  I went to her office and cried like a baby and she did not turn me away but supported me and helped me get clean.  I feel so very lucky to have her in my life.  I will say I never bought off anyone and since I am terrified to try that keeps me able to keep clean.  You may need to give your friend a wide berth for awhile.  I hope you can find the strength to get thru the first week.  I promise it gets easier after that.