WE can ALL be your sponsors! We are here to support and encourage each other thru the good times and bad. Using different doctors and pharmacies can get you into SERIOUS legal trouble so my advice is STOP that IMMEDIATLY! As for when the cravings will stop?I don't know that they ever will but they do become more manageable...............Make up your mind and STICK WITH IT! you CAN do it!
Hi and welcome! I'm so proud of you! You may not realize it but you're already making progress: taking the first step and reaching out and admitting you need help is huge.
Now to turn on my stern mom voice ;p, what you're doing to obtain prescriptions is highly illegal and will get you locked up. It's not a matter of "if" but rather "when" it will happen. Therefore it's time to stop. Now/today.
I know you don't want to tell your husband and I respect that. I'm only clean 20 days and just told my husband recently. It's important to have support and this board is great, but be thinking long term / NA meetings / aftercare of some sort.
Why don't you quit today? Come down with the "flu" for a couple of days and let's work on kicking this, okay? Get the supplements in the Thomas Recipe, epsom salt (long baths are a must), bananas (for RLS), Ensure / Gatorade, and saltine crackers. The first 48 hrs will be rough but it gets better (physically). Stick to this site, find some detox buddies, and post often. Staying accountable and having support are key to successful recovery. Oh, did I mention to go ahead and flush any pills you have left? We love flushing parties here? Just let me know the time and I'll be there with my pom poms. :)
I'm really glad you're here. I know you're scared and that's okay. We're here to help you. You can do this. Keep taking the steps you need to take and we'll hold your hand along the way.