Did something stupid - prescription tampering

[fightingtobeclean]

I am addicted to adderall and have realized that I need help.  I put myself into an out-patient program last week.  I went to get my Rx filled today and was told it was too early.  So I changed the dosage from 20 to 30 and had it filled at another pharmacy.  I did not want to wait the 6 days until I could have it filled because I was getting them to taper with so I could stop, all while starting rehab.  The pharmacist spent a lot of time looking at the prescription and checking the computer, but he filled it (I had several legit prescriptions for it filled, but even though they were legit they were still excessive).  I am terrified now that it will be sent back to the doctor and they will turn me in for prescription fraud.  I have no record and am honestly trying to get clean - I just did something very stupid.  I wish I could go back to tonight when I did it and never tamper with it or turn it in.  I'm going crazy with what's going to happen!  I won't let this ruin my fight to get clean, I just hope that I don't have to do it in jail :(

[evildrug]

You called in percocet?

[oxygirl487]

i did something really stupid once...i used to work in a medical office (secretary)so i knew the drill....i called myself in a script for 12 percocets....i didnt get caught and no one ever knew but that was dumb...like u i was worried sick....now i just feel guilty because of people like me ....legit peope with pain here cant get their meds called in....hmm  i wonder why?....thats  just the lengths and addict will go when they need a fix though....stupid,stupid ,stupid   im not calling u stupid..im calling myself stupid......lol....

[Lotsatrout]

You can bet your A$$ that if it was a schedule II narcotic such as Oxycodone or Oxycontin that it probably would have been verified with the doctor.  A lady here in my home town (1700 people) changed her Xanex script from 6 tablets to 16 tablets and got caught.  She didn't realize that the doctor not only wrote the number 6 but he also spelled it out like this (six) on the presctiption... When the pharmacist saw the 16 and the (six) he knew it was fraud... He didn't call the doctor... He called the state police and she was arrested before she could even leave.  The police barracks are literally less than 100 yards from the pharmacy so once the phone call was made they were there in less than a few minutes....

Trout

[GoingToMakeIt]

Is that called a computer hiccup?

[GoingToMakeIt]

You have made the right choice to quit. You have come to the right place for help. We all want to see you through this thing. Tapering is a way better way to go if you can control the doses. Ask away with all the questions you want. This forum is a godsend. The help and support is unparalleled.

[GoingToMakeIt]

You have made the right choice to quit. You have come to the right place for help. We all want to see you through this thing. Tapering is a way better way to go if you can control the doses. Ask away with all the questions you want. This forum is a godsend. The help and support is unparalleled.

[GoingToMakeIt]

You have made the right choice to quit. You have come to the right place for help. We all want to see you through this thing. Tapering is a way better way to go if you can control the doses. Ask away with all the questions you want. This forum is a godsend. The help and support is unparalleled.

[fightingtobeclean]

u812, as far as detoxing, or withdrawals, it's hard to describe - it is like you go from living life at it's best - to just a HALT.  Everything stops.  Your energy, your motivation to even get up in the morning, your desire to do ANYTHING... and there is a horrible depression that hits.  

[fightingtobeclean]

I don't think any of those women would actually judge me, it is just that fear inside of me.  They have all shared about things they've done in their lives and everyone has done nothing but love and support them regardless.  All they want is for all of us to overcome these things, and know that no matter what we've done, we can overcome.  I think tomorrow during our "ask for support" part of our first group meeting, I'll be raising my hand and talking.

[fightingtobeclean]

I'm definitely not going to blow it off - I need to remember how low I've let myself become because of my addictions.  If I forget those things - or justify them - I won't beat this thing.  I have many addictions - adderall, pain pills, alcohol... all of which have destroyed things in my life.  Well I should say I'VE destroyed things in my life.  I am clean from the others and fighting the same fight with this.  I think a 12 step is a good idea, as you said for more than one reason.  In the past I tried to quit on my own, which for a time I was successful - but then I let my guard down and thought "ok, all better".  I have learned it goes sooooooooo far beyond that, and I need to reach out in as many directions as possible.  I am going to get all the help I can and never stop fighting - and I know that a new clean life is right in front of me.

[u812]

if you dont mind me asking, what is adderall detox like?

[lurker]

If these women judge you, shame on them.  It isn't okay for anyone whose addicted to judge another addict.  They should be supporting you and if they haven't ever altered a prescription then they should be saying "there but the grace of god go I" because every addict is on their way to that if they haven't done it already.  Some people don't reach that point, but we've all done something in addiction that we are ashamed of and that's why we're trying to get clean.  We are ashamed of what we've become as addicts and want get well.  Keep on fighting, it's worth all the hard work!!

[addictedme]

Yes that was stupid,I think its on page 3 of the book of dumb things we addicts do. I hope nothing happens but I wouldnt blow it off and not worry ( and I know your not),I"d think about it long and hard. Let this be your bottom, remember the holes only as deep as you dig it. Stay in that out patient program and you might even add a 12 step meeting or 90. That would help you in life and legally should you need it,,gl

[fightingtobeclean]

Yes, they know I'm tapering.  While enrolling I had to show my counselor all my medications so she could note what I was taking.  I also told her of my tapering plan.  Part of me thought I couldn't admit this to them because that would be me coming out and saying I broke the law - but in all honesty, what would they do, call the cops on me?  These women have been through hell, some of them far worse than I could ever imagine, so I would think they would understand more than anything.

[fightingtobeclean]

Thank you guys for your fast responses.  GoingToMakeIt - as far as quitting or living the lie - QUITTING is the answer.  I have done so many things in my throws of addiction that I would have never imagined myself doing in 100 years.  I became the person I used to read about or watch on tv.  I grew up being someone I was never supposed to be.  I don't want another day of living like this.  I want my life back, and I want it back BAD.

[lurker]

If he's smart, he'll realize that by filling it without double checking it with the doctor, especially with a substance known to be addictive, he violated his oath and no less than two laws and won't report you but I would not go back there.  

Does your op group know you're tapering?  So they are expecting you to test positive right?  If not, you may want to tell them - the biggest obstacle we have in recovery is honesty.  You are only as sick as your secrets. You should talk about this prescription issue if you can - these women, like this woman, has walked in your shoes, will not judge but will support you to hopefully prevent this from happening again.

Keep on fighting.

[fightingtobeclean]

It is an out-patient program for women with drug and/or alcohol issues, and we meet during the week and have several different classes, groups, individual therapy, etc.  It is really good and I think it is the help I need.  They do drug testing and make sure you keep straight, after so many offenses you are discharged or moved to in-patient.  They are strict but supportive at the same time.  And yes, definitely scared straight!!!  I have heard of pharmacists holding the Rxs until they notify the doctor but I don't know if the fact that he filled it means something good in my favor?  Or just delaying the inevitable?

[josh231]

dont worry about it

you dont no if anything is even going to happen

and even if somthing did happen you would get a slap on the wrist for having no record yada yada youll have probation at the most and impact weakend a

[lurker]

also - if a pharmacist feels a prescription is fradulent they are supposed to call the doctor before filling.  If they call after and tell the doctor that they felt it was altered but filled it anyway, the doctor can turn them into the board of pharmacy - I know this has happened at my doc's office.  He told me about some instances and told me that he understood what the patient did as they were addicted but the pharmacist knows better and has an obligation to not fill altered scripts so he turns them in.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Welcome to the throws of addiction. There will probably be no one checking up on this.But...you now know that you have a serious problem. What are you going to do now? To quit or live the lie? The decision has to come from you. We here at the forum want to help and give support.
btw Welcome to the forum.

[lurker]

We've all done something like this as addicts - altered rx, lied to get one - something.  Hopefully it won't be a problem but learn from this mistake and get the help you have decided you need.  Scared straight - hopefully.  Good luck with the taper - what kind of outpatient program are you in??   Keep posting, don't beat yourself up - you'll be okay