Day 14 off subs

[Kelly98_]

I took someones advice and called local hospital and I was told to come in to e.r. yesterday to be evaluated by a counselor and a doctor! So I did yesterday and it was weird yesterday after sleeping like 5 to 6 hours I awoke feeling drained and weak and clammy and cold! But I took a daily vitamin and 5000iu of vitamin D and soon after I felt no w/d I was like wow I feel like 96 percent better right! So as I'm at the e.r. my stats are good they take my blood and urine and find out I'm completley clean but I was a tad shakey so they gave me more fluids and a nausea med in the I.v. even though I wasn't nausious! The shaking stopped though and I was able to sit there for 5 hrs waiting and well the counselor came after finding out I was still clean of any drugs whatsoever and asked me a series of questions and I was honest about my history so I explained my story that I've been looking online for rehabilitation centers that at least tool medicaid and suprisingly she gave me a whole list! So I'm very happy about that because I'm really not allowed to be around my kids! I could lose them! But its like every other night I can sleep and then I can't and tonight or I should say last night I couldn't and I'm wide awake still at 5:44 a.m. I really don't want to feel yucky today cus of this! But I think its cus I was stuck in a room for 5 hrs yesterday under security not able to at least walk around to wear myself out! But today is my 2 week mark and I'm overwhelmed I've made it this far! The drug is out of my system! I'm just trying hard to take the right steps to my recovery! I want to learn to live sober and not ever fall backwards so that's why I want at least a 28 day program! Its been a tuff night to because 2 of my kids woke up a couple times throwing up now I'm not sure they can go to school! Omg its overwhelming me! Everytime I was possibly falling asleep they woke running to the bathroom and I had to tend to them! But I'm still wide awake! Oh please god get me through today! Well wish me luck cus I'm fighting hard to recover here!

[Merri123]

I amso happy that worked for you. That the hospital helped you do much. Their referral services are great.

Now you can find a program. Even if not inpatient, there are so many really good outpatient ones too. Your hospital's Behavorial Health area most likely has one too. You spend most of the day there and could be home with the kids at night. Even on Saturday they have it. Then you go to AA or NA meetings as you need too.

You are doing great. At 2 weeks you should've past most of the physical wds so that is why you are feeling better. Another week should be great. Sleep will come.

I hope your kids feel better and you don't get it either. Keep posting here. Let us know what is happening.  

[Merri123]

I amso happy that worked for you. That the hospital helped you do much. Their referral services are great.

Now you can find a program. Even if not inpatient, there are so many really good outpatient ones too. Your hospital's Behavorial Health area most likely has one too. You spend most of the day there and could be home with the kids at night. Even on Saturday they have it. Then you go to AA or NA meetings as you need too.

You are doing great. At 2 weeks you should've past most of the physical wds so that is why you are feeling better. Another week should be great. Sleep will come.

I hope your kids feel better and you don't get it either. Keep posting here. Let us know what is happening.