WOW just canceled ALL meds

[dfr3]

last nite got on my hands and knees, and asked GOD to help me feel better,
But in good faith in the morning I would cancel ALL my connections to my meds.
well, today this morning is not bad!!!!!!
I DID IT I CANCELLED ALL MY PHARMACIES
not a small step for me but I have a plan
i stick to this plan and i will me total free of drugs in 3 weeks.  
i have to because I just cut my life line.
it feels really good, SCARY but really good  

[dfr3]

NO, I had alot of meds coming [refills]
I e-mailed all the companies who were filling meds for me and told them to cancel me as a member!
ASAP, of course now I am feeling said BUT NO turning back now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


they all had my med records.
so hopefully they don't try and talk me into finishing my refills.

[3grlz'mom]

Congratulations!  That is awesome!  BTW - what did you have to do to cancel your pharmacies?  Did you actually call the pharmacy and tell them not to fill your Rx anymore?

[JRG]

I weened down to one 10 mg pill a day. I am not saying that sub doesn't have its place  but when people use it for a period of time or they expect it to make w/d painless then its a problem. The first time I detoxed I started on 6mg a day of sub for a 4 10mg pill habit. It did stop the w/ds while I was taking it but I didn't feel right so I weened right down and was off in less than a week. The w/d's set in about 3 days later. Just take it slow and do a taper you can live with. Do it on your terms and you will feel it but I haven't been layed up and I can cook dinner and pick up the house. I can help my kids with homework and go in and copy for their teachers. What I am trying to say is you can do this! Tonight at 7:30 I will be on my fourth day and while I don't feel like dancing a jig and I feel as if I am doing things in slow motion I am getting things done. I will be glad to help in anyway I can just let me know.

Take care,
Jackie

[dfr3]

YOU really have helped me make a desicion NOT to go on sub!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have a really weird absorbation in my body.  I read this morning that someone really liked it and was on it since 96, I almost fell off my chair!  I do not want to go thru more W?D
May I ask what you weened down to before you quit?

THANX
JILL

[JRG]

You have been on my mind all night. I was so worried about you going on sub. For some sub is the right choice but not for a 5 pill a day habit. When I was taking 10 pills a day I started cutting by 5mg every 3 or 4 days. I had some major life changes during this time that would cause me to stay at the dose I was on for an extra few days but I never went back up. I just told myself it was not an option. I knew I was going to hurt and I hate pain so I knew the more I stuck to my taper the better off I would be. A slow taper is a better taper thats because you give your opiate receptors time to adjust.

Please don't get me wrong it wasn't easy but I am on my third day clean and I have a good appetite, I am going out and being around others, I am smiling and laughing, I made love with my hubby this morning, and I am walking about 3 miles everyday. It is so much better than when I detoxed off the sub. It took me a month to feel this good. I tapered to 10mg or one pill and then jumped. You can do this! Come on here and whine and talk and tell us how bad it feels and we will tell you how good it feels at each step. Just don't taper to fast take your time but be diligent.

Take care and Good luck
Jackie

[SoberGirlsMOM]

You are a great MOM too, look what you just did for yourself and your family.

[dfr3]

your a great MOM, and when I look at my 1 yr old I think YOU deserve this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[SoberGirlsMOM]

My daughter still shakes, (but it is getting better) and she has been off the pills for 40 days.  Slowly but surely her overall physical health is getting better, she has gained some much needed weight and everyday looks a little healthier.  

[tzt2lady]

woohoo!   this is one of the hardest but most important steps!   great for you!

[dfr3]

thanx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT IS A HUGE STEP FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was skaking when i did it.

[dfr3]

Yes, I am trying to taper to 1/5 a pill before I go c/t!
If it gets to hard I am just going c/t and flushing ALL meds.
WELL, now I do not have an out.  
I struggle too
taper?
sub?
c/t
  they ALL suck but if I want my life back its a small price

lol
Jill

[SoberGirlsMOM]

dfr3 - Yeeeeeaaaaaaa!!!   This may not mean much to you coming from a non-addict, even though I haven't physically gone through this myself, I have watched my loved ones, so I have an idea what a big step this was for you.  I know your family is going to be so happy to get YOU back.

Your humility helped you last night and it will today also!!  (may not seem like it, but it will)!

[JuneSunflower]

Congratulations!  That takes a lot of courage!  You have a lot of willpower!  Praying to God is very powerful also, I pray all the time lately for help in my jounrey to be opiate free.  You will do great and it's awesome that you have a plan, are you tapering?  I'm struggling with tapering right now, it is extremely difficult to do.  Best wishes!  You should be so proud of yourself.
Junesunflower