Claudia~~He's been gone for four days now.
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Look..If its going to work, go for it..There is no reason why you should suffer..The truth is the suffering of withdrawal doesnt stop most people from relapsing. If I had the money, I would do it too..But alas, I don't have all the money coming in that you so graciously pointed out to us several times specifically, lol..Who cares if its an "easy way out" ? We are people that like prefer the "easy way" thats why we are all addicted to instant gratification, and there isnt a damn thing wrong with that..Its acting on the impulse that gets us in trouble. You can do it and it will work. :)
what a great thread this has been. it reminded of the old days, with witchy woman, hippy, et al.
good luck to you. you've received some really good input from others here. i had to learn to consider everyone's experience without feeling defensive and without justifying myself. one of the most important things i learned in recovery was to say "thank you" when I wanted to say "f--k you," especially when it seemed i was more than justified in saying the latter.
the most amazing thing i read was about you getting popped at work. i'm sure that seemed like the worst kind of luck at the moment, and probably doesn't seem great now, but it sounded like divine intervention to me. it's really a fantastic thing for your odds of reaching sustained recovery. it's our secrets that keep us sick and, as was aptly noted, you're secret's out now.
the best advice i received about getting clean was that meetings would be essential to my recovery. "they" told me to go to ninety meetings in ninety days, to get a sponsor and to work the Steps. i didn't think i really "needed to go that far" after my first rehab, but i was finally open to the idea in and after my second rehab. turns out that "they" were right
i haven't been a drinker for a long time, and all of my recent problems were with opiates and cocaine, but all of my meetings are AA -- in my mind, and to most people i know in recovery, it's all the same disease. I can see where going to NA might be a problem for someone in your profession, but not so for AA.
try to be Honest, Open and Willing . . . that's HOW we find and stay in recovery.
CATUF
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Consider this as a positive experience in the book of life.Learn as much as you can from it and bring those positive and negative experiences to your new life away from drugs.
You will love yourself better and so will everyone else for you will radiate the good energy.
Perhaps you could fill your free time learning new skills,eg cooking courses,photography,team sports,etc.
There are many good things you can do when you get back and on your feet again.
You could be a big brother and help less fortunate people.Helping others takes the mind off our own problems and helps us heal.
I hope you are not bingeing this week,but showing yourself some self control
Start preparing yourself for your new adventure with lots of viramins and nutrients.,
Dunno if i really made it known how thankful i am to everyone here who has posted in this thread and has shown their concern. Not counting today i'm 4 days away from going to the airport and 5 more days from going into the hospital. Getting closer and closer....can't wait!