Cocaine Binges Scare

[Acdcraider]

So I'm not going to begin this post by saying I'm not addicted. I do Coke two weekends a months let's say. I consider that an addiction. But when I do Coke I binge for at least 1 whole day. Have gone up to two days but rarely. Anyways obviously that is horrible but no matter for me even when like I'm gonna die. I still don't stop. See like I said addicted. I am frightened by what's to me before and the sad part is usually my brother is with me too an feeling these symptoms. (Increased heart rate, sweating, paranoia, etc.) yet we still don't stop. And it's not like we're doing anything. We're usually sitting around and time just goes by. Then it's about 4 am an you get another sack because "well I'm not gonna be able to sleep right now anyway" (stupid) Finish that around 10 and now we say we might as well just get one more and not ruin our sleep schedule. I know how dangerous this is but yet during those moments you don't care. The 4 o'clock is fine cause your still pumped from the club or whatever, so you don't want the party to stop. But when we get last one were literally just waiting an calling everybody to get one. Even though we're all down an crashing and just not even ourselves. Not talking and stuff. I just want to know if others do the same? Not the fact that it'll make me feel better but just to see how bad the addiction is to this drug. As I am writing this it has been I took my first line of the night 24 hours ago and I still have a little to do. SAD I know. I am going to get help. I just want to know have I OD with those symptoms? And how close to death have I been then? It freaks me out and I am going to get help ASAP. I haven't ate or anything anyways would like some stories maybe opinions or whatever on this. How long have you binged?

[dominosarah]

Everytime you snort that coke you risk dying.  It's like putting jumper cables on your heart the wrong way.  You are playing with fire here and i hope you find your way out of this before something bad happens to either you or your brother.  Please find a therapist or NA.  It will save your life~

[clean_in_ks]

Addiction is not defined by how MUCH, how OFTEN, or WHAT specific mind altering substance we subject ourselves to....it is defined by what happens to us when we DO partake.

There was a man who only drank 3 times in his life.  The first time he lost his leg; the second time he lost his wife; the third time he lost his life.

It is great that you want to get help and recognize these symptoms as being close to an OD. You can continue to flirt with death, or stop using and get the help you say you know you need.  This forum will help you when you are ready to get clean, but one thing we don't do is compare our "war stories" to determine our need for help.